Today i'm just trying to keep myself happy, but doing the requests seems to have helped a little. I find myself going in and out of happiness and into a depression that lasts for an hour or so, normally something funny would be bring me out of it; but it won't work anymore. I just don't know how to explain it to you all, you guys are great friends, but sometimes its not enough.

I think i can understand how RD felt when she had a hard time letting Tank go for the winter, but my feelings are the thing i just can't let go of. You probably think i'm just spouting gibberish to get attention, its not like that at all. I just want people to know how i feel and what see what they could do to help me out of this mess of emotions.

I hate feeling this way, i should be happy, living with a smile on my face every day, but i know its hard for some people too. We all can't be expected to be in such good spirits now can we?