Well, I never thought I'd feel this way, but I'm pretty much done with fighting games(or at least, playing them). As a very competitive person, that rewarding feeling of victory gets farther and father away every time I compete and witness enormous losing streaks. The reason for this is obvious: I'm getting worse, and so is my skill and execution. The barriers that block me from winning aren't just my opponents, but my nerves and eventually impatience and frustration.

I'm not a violent person, but fighting games bring out the worst in me. Thankfully, I keep my rage inside rather than outside, as of today. At first I hated my victorious opponents to an extreme extent; I don't hate them at all now, but I hate the game instead. I hate the sadness and anger it made me feel, I hate the time I wasted when I thought the genre was perfect for me, and I hate the things it caused me to say to my friends and family.

After more than a decade, I'm willing to drop fighting games entirely and focus on more cooperative video games. I'll probably sell my arcade controller for in between $100 and $200. I just don't think it's worth the time and money to do something and leave in a worse mood than when I started.

I just wanted to vent, and I already feel better now after letting this out. Thanks for reading.