SO yesterday I went a bit mad/had a fangasm because there was an elfkin in anither site and well one of the members of that site started to think thanks to my freakout that I might be an elfkin so I thought let's make a blogpost about it to explain my.... Well let's just call it what it is, obesesion with elfes.

to understand all of this we have to go back in time, to the time when I was 10 years old. On my primary school, I had already some though years behind me but that year things got worse. I came into a class with a girl who loved to bully me a guy from Suriname who loved to treat me like I was less (when I touched him or his table he would clean it like I was a durty guy) and most of my "friends"who started to take the side of these two. I started to retreat more and more into my own world started making my own storries (based upon the shows I watched at the time). Around age 12 I started to play warcraft and in that campaign I started to form a connection with the race known as blood elfes. They could be kind, had respect for nature and just looked awesome, this started to play more and more a roll into my fantasies and my live. around age 14 this interest in elfes got worse thanks to finally seeing lord of the rings. It got so bad that I started to scour every corner of the internet for male elf pictures, picked up a game souly because it had elfes in it (it was actuallynot an elf race so I was sad but they said it was me was tricked),started searching for books in the fantasy genre about elfes and started looking online how much it costed tu buy elf ears and a costume (never bought one because I am way t o shy for cosplay). LAter in live from 16 year onward my obsesion finally started to calm down, I found my way in live, made some friends and generally it calmed down.

But to this day it still has a massive Influence on my live, still when I see anythin elf related I feel this old connection something that was part of me for so long. To this day I still want to become an elf and I still would love to dress like one even if it was just for one day. Like I felt yesterday it is still a massive part of me but I am no elfkin. This all came to me thanks to my immagination and playing/seeing the right things at the right time.