.. are upon us.

First of all, every once in a while, I read random things here on the forum. Random threads and things of that nature. Invariably, I begin to slowly realize just how young the forum is as a collective because I begin to feel very old.

Anyway, that's not important.

I'm getting ready to make some pretty big life changes. I recently had a family member completely screw me over, and now I am left without a job or a car and I have to bounce back. Not the easiest venture. So, I'm preparing to move back to my home town and stay with a friend for a while. I've emptied my retirement account and having to buy a beater car with that money so I can get a job to pay for.. well, everything.

Admittedly, staying positive lately has been hard. My move date is not set and at the same time rapidly approaching, if that makes sense. A part of me feels like I'm going to die. And I mean that in the truest sense. I've gathered up a donation of old clothes and CDs to give to Goodwill, and it's a hefty load. Like I'm just starting a brand new life all over again.

I just feel like after I move that things will be incredibly difficult and my motivation is currently at an all time low. I'm not excited. About most of this. But at the same time, I am. It'll be nice to be back "home" for a while. Even if I have to struggle for a while I'm okay with it. I've been through worse problems with less ways to deal, so I know I'll be okay. And that makes me a bit happier about everything, but it only goes so far.

I'm just trying to keep my head up and press on. Certain parts of the training will never go away, I guess.