I feel bad for you.

You know you can get allergy medication like me , being heavily allergic to pollination sucks during springtime (god spring time kills me) and next off Work stress is avoidable just try to have fun while working and avoid anyone who's mean as much as possible. Plus the dogs owner can't sue you for anything unless its a seeing eye dog you could sue him as he is intentionally doing something that harms you (Only sue as a last resort please)

Death isn't the way out of you problem. It's really selfish to be honest with you. It'll be ok. Just focus on the future and the rest will follow.

Unless you physically can't draw right now I seriously recommend doing that again just do casually and don't worry about what your drawing just do it to destress as hobbys tend to do that (I do it that way.)

Don't know if any of these will work for you I just really want to help PM me if you want to talk somemore

Edit: Sorry if this was unwelcome but I just want to help out.

That sucks dude. I'm sorry to hear you're going through that. 

I agree with what Maple Bat said about suicide, that it won't fix anything. But I know what it's like to want to do it. I'm sure there's something worth living for, that there's something you're meant to do or be. I'm still trying to figure that out for myself to be honest. 

You mentioned you feel lost. I feel that way sometimes, too. I don't know what to say that would help, I just hope you hang in there.

Hi. Lex Detrosio. It is actually worse than last time! I really feel sorry for you! I still try to advise you anyway. What's your mother doing? It's her home. She must make a decision! If this dog is the cause of your illness must change the house alone or together with your sister. I apologize for the private question, but what are the relationships between your parents? Maybe your dad could help get rid of the dog. Try talk to your mom, calmly and without emotion about how you feel. A good solution would be a conversation between your mom and your doctor. He would frighten her with consequences. Please try it. You risk nothing! 

Thanks for all the kind words and the advice. I was way to angry and sad while i had written this. I wouldnt kill anyone of course. Its just so unbearable.

I even went to a doctor today and he gave me some medication. Even though its just something for my depression and should help me sleep. So its not helping me against my allergy problems.

@Maple Bat

Thanks for the advice, maybe i will try to find some medicine for me allergy, but im not sure about the drawing. I dont really feel motivated. But still thanks.

@Cyniclese

Thanks^^

@Fluttershy Friend

My Mother tried multiple times to talk to my sister, they even screamed at each other sometimes. But, it never worked. I guess it has something to do with the fact, that my mother had to borrow some Money from my sister, or we would have some problems. Also my mother said, that she has two children and doesnt want to make any of them sad. Which means, that she wont give the dog away. I dont really think its fair, considering i have to suffer and the dog is most of the day alone anyway, since everyone is out to work, so he wouldnt really have it worse at a dog shelter. But...well..

The Relationship between my parents is..i dont know, in the middle. They sometimes talk bad about each other and other times they help each other. Like my dad helped us move to a new house for example and my mother helped a little with his moving. But i dont think my dad could do anything and i would just make everyone even more angry.

And with the talk to the doctor : Some of my...uh...super visors? I think they are called and even some People in my work place, wanted to talk to my mother, but she never wants to.

She always says, she doesnt need someone to talk bad about her or make her feel bad for her decisions, because she has two children and the situation is already hard enough.So...it wont work.

Really difficult and strange situation unfortunately. Count down time to change your home. Perhaps it's the only real sollution. As you wrote it will be in 2 years. Until then please take medication. In the future this situation will only be a bad memory!

@Fluttershy Friend I found an apartment recently, for which i would have enough Money. So...maybe, just maybe, if im really really lucky, i could get an apartment way sooner. But the Chance is very small. XD

It's wonderful news! I'm happy to read this!

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But the Chance is very small.

Why? 

10 hours ago, Fluttershy Friend said:

Why? 

 

Because i told them before hand, that my workplace time is limited, since im just at a work preperation thing, so i would be a risk to take as the new tenant ( is this the right word? i hope so ). I told them i wouldnt change anything at the house until i have a save work education and even if i have two chances for jobs at my current work place ( with a third chance external ), i still would be a little risk. So, the chance is small. Maybe they tell me i have to wait until i have a safe job or they say no. Or they never answer.

Tenant - I understand this word. OK. Let's hope it will be good. When You will know something about job or this apartment write to me! Let him know by writing/phoneying that You are still interesting to have this house. Good luck!

On 5/24/2017 at 7:45 AM, Fluttershy Friend said:

When You will know something about job or this apartment write to me!

Um, well, i guess now, 3 Years later, i finally have a real Apartment for myself, so i am writing to you. 

4 hours ago, Lex Destrosio said:

Um, well, i guess now, 3 Years later, i finally have a real Apartment for myself, so i am writing to you. 

Wow :) Congratulations! :) And thanks that you have remembered to let me know after so long time! :)  Good luck!