Hey hey HEY!

How everyone is this here uhm.. internet forum doin? 

Is it all radical and LIT?

Okay ill stop, i write stupid stuff when i am stressed out. Which i miiiiiiiight be a tiny, little, miniature, very much stressed out. 

So! Some context on my title of today and me being S TO THE R E S S E D out.

"Reintergrating" is going rougher as planned. People arent really accepting me back. People are mad, confused, down right.... Hatefull towards me. I get why but i dont want to brag but 

HOLY SHIT (Forgive me lord jesus) IF ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT COMPLAIN NOW CARED FOR ME BACK THEN, THIS WOULDNT HAVE HAPPEND.

And i qoute a... Ex relative of me: HURR DURR BUT IF YOU TOLD ME I WOULDVE HELPED. 

excuse me nameless man, but if you keep being "busy" with seeing other girls behind my back, no wonder i dont trust you. No wonder i didnt ask for help since you were one of the REASONS.

I digress

On to the title of today 

First off all, Turns out people were exploiting my vanishing as a excuse to missuse and say stuff i supposedlly said, which at this point lost me friends and family, right down to the point that my own baby is.... Yeah other blogpost about that.

Secondlly, the betrayal is basically...

EVERY.SINGLE.THING. i did for the army for:

Safety

Health

First Aid

Train new medics

All have been thrown in the bin and they are back to being a bunch of headless chickens. 

Which angers me. Oh well,

Not my army

Not my duty

May they all burn in hell

Fuck the Russian Army and their entire staff.

~FMD

no heart today

Only hatred