.... I know it's been a while since I've been here and just up and left. I have my reasons but more importantly I've realized how badly I've treated long time friends here. I've thoroughly enjoyed my years on this wonderful forums. Honest though as I look back at how foolish I've acted in the past few years here... I've been a very negative, self-centered person, overly dramatic as well. If I could go back and change how I reacted to things that have happened trust me when I say I would changed alot of those reactions. I'm certain many are probably fed up with my selfish complaints, negativity and more but I can't change the past. This place will always have a place in my heart I promise you that one. 

In the past few months I just feel like I've ruined my reputation to shatters here and that is something that stays with you. Apart of me feels that with all the negativity I have spread here... In my foolishness that something inside me feels that it may be better that I stay away. Perhaps if never let myself continuely spewing the same negative complaints after so long. Maybe I'd would still feel like I could belong here. 

I just wanted to say from the bottom of my heart that I apologize for all the negative posts, attention seeking posts that I have littered here. It's definitely not something I'm proud of. At least though I've come to that self realization that part of me needed to change immediately. Because honestly who would want to be around someone who is constantly complaining about life and an attention seeking narcissist? Eventually people will get fed up with that nonsense and in turn will cease socializing with that toxicity. 

With all this said... If you want to reach me I've joined a form called depression forums it's a really nice place. 

I don't know if I should just move on from here because it's been a mental conflict referring to what I said above... I have mistreated my close friends I've made here... I'd change so many things in the past with how I reacted to things. 

https://www.depressionforums.org/forums/profile/137078-aki-sky/

I do miss you all dearly maybe this time away will help me to better myself and change those aspects. 

I hope you all have been doing well

~ Lots of love Tommy