So today’s my birthday, my 28th birthday!  At one point in my life, I didn’t think I’d make it to be 25, crazy huh?  I’m 3 years past my expectations.  I still have a ways to go though...  I don’t really have any directions or ideas where I should go now.  I thought I’d’ve had it down by now but I guess I spent most of my life thinking about dying that I never really thought I’d get this far...  Part of me panics over that and I know I don’t want to be in my current situation forever, I really hate being in this never-ending cycle of poverty, I want to do something with however much time I have left but Another part of me is like! “Why do anything when we’re all going to die anyways?”  I still have a lot of problems with dealing with suicidal ideation, sometimes when I try to go to sleep, this thick dark cloud hangs over me, screaming that I should kill myself.  It’ll be a long road to recovery but I know I have to walk it, maybe someone will let me ride their car for a bit, dropping me off somewhere where I feel is best.  There might even be other people walking the same road and we can share how best to walk it.  As a way to celebrate, I made pie and spanakopita, don’t have any pics of the spanakopita but I made sure to take one of the pie!  It’s cherry btw!