I'm sorry for being like this all the time. I'm seeing a psychologist soon, hopefully I can get all of this sorted out.

Well I don't even see why you post this anymore since no one can convince you not to go through with it.

EDIT: Glad to see you're going to a psych. Hopefully it'll work for you. If you don't like them, try again; I've been to four different ones regarding my suicidal tendencies and depersonalization disorder but I'm not open. You have to be willing to let it out for it to work. Since you're (judging by your posts) very open it may end up helping you more than you think in the end.

I'm already starting to feel better. I guess even just a modicum of hope was enough to begin turning me around.

I know how you feel man, though I may not be going through the situations that you have, I have the same mindset on wanting that end. 

While I'm not here to have more people stir up a commotion towards myself or you, I am here to say that you should find someone to talk to.  That is the best thing to do.  I am currently in counseling and it has made me view things different.  Though I've only been in it for a short while and cannot say it has worked or not, I can say that it is something you should do before you decide. 

The first step is help, the second is time.  While it may look good now, it is best to wait it out.  Maybe finishing High School is just what you need, maybe getting out of the house and living on your own by your standards is the best thing for you.

Thirdly, think about the implications.  How would your family feel? Your friends? The forum folk? It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. 

So like I said, try finding a person you can tell about your thoughts.  You may find you just need a prescription or just the ability to talk to make you feel better about the whole thing.

Anyways, like I said, I understand completely man.  And it's frustrating when I see people on here who aren't getting the severity at all.  Nobody can understand you like YOU do.  Some of us get it, but only you know it.

Hang in there bro. /)

I'm already starting to feel better. I guess even just a modicum of hope was enough to begin turning me around.

I am glad to know you are getting some help, the next time you get those thoughts just remember all the people out there that care about you. It is lonely alot of times being this depressed I know and too much stress can really screw things up. I hope it works out with the psychologist, I have taken counseling before and it has made a difference in my life.

hahaha If you want to try real life then wait till your 30. Anything less is a joke.