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Ice Breaker Silky: Good, Evil, Neutral?
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WARNING: The Ice Breaker Silky Blog Series May Contain Darker Themed Details Not Suitable For The Highly Sensitive Person. Because of the nature of these discussions, these blogs posts shall be rated R for Restricted. Please read at your own discretion as I am simply trying to keep things authentic and communicate my head space on these more personal matters.
ICE BREAKER SILKY: GOOD, EVIL OR NEUTRAL?
Art credit to Wizard
(Ice Breaker Silky represents my current state of mind. So, while she will be referenced as my OC, she will also be a reference to myself, at times.)
Firstly, I do not like being described as "good" and there are many reasons for why. The term "good" implies that I am somehow morally superior to everyone else, somehow flawless and above the average person in some way, shape or form. Not to mention, it implies that I am some sort of saint, incapable of doing wrong or encountering a moral dilemma when confronted with many themes related to different cultures, beliefs, topics, etc. And this is simply not the case. That is too much responsibility for me and potentially disappointing anyone is far too much of a weight on my heart.
best to release it and just cut to the chase.
I believe that if I were merely a concept or idea, then perhaps I could be flawless. But even my OC, Silky, whom I portray as the better aspect of myself -- has flaws. Even in her innocent pursuit for knowledge and friendship, she can accidentally step on someone's toes. And some ponies are apparently allergic to magic, like Splashee, (whom she may or may not have accidentally encased in a magical capsule into oblivion for all of eternity -- but that is another story for another time). The point is, even our flawless concepts can be flawed despite our attempts to make things right.
This is proof that we are mortal.
So, I do not like or prefer not to be described as "good." However, I also find maliciousness, edginess, the desire to trick, hurt or otherwise maim another living being to be repugnant where others might find it "cool." So, I hope not to ever fall under the category of evil, either.
For me, I identify myself as neutral.
Being seen as good can cause some users to be too intimated or feel "less than" to approach.
I cannot tell you how many times a user has felt intimidated or "less than" when standing by me! First of all, if you ever need any help or have to speak up about anything, I encourage you to approach. Seeing someone as "too above you" or feeling too unworthy just to talk or speak up makes me want to see myself even less of a good person if it means breaking the ice!
So, a few helpful points.
The way I work is like this: I am generally kind and courteous to everyone. You may be a shocked stranger to wonder what did you do to deserve such kindness. But here is my official answer as to why that is. I am kind because I am fully aware of how horrible this world can be, how harsh even the internet can be. And when you meet someone -- you never know what headspace they are in -- why be rude or harsh and push them further on edge? Everyone has their story, their roots, their tragedies. I cannot tell you how much a simple act of kindness has caused people to reconsider their dark thoughts and even their own entire life. Even in person, I offer a brief smile to a stranger on occasion and they smile back as if grateful to encounter a friendly face. You just never know what people are going through. So why not be kind? It costs you nothing and can save everything. Why add to an already saturated world of not-good things?
But there is another layer to this.
My being kind to you means one other thing:
You have no record with me.
If you ever meet someone whom I refuse to be kind to, you can rest assured, 100% with objective evidence, that they did something vile to deserve it. Repeatedly.
I am an incredibly forgiving person, because I myself, am not perfect. And because I know what it is like to be in a dark place, flawed or lost. I repeatedly forgive -- but I am not immortal. Both my patience and my resources are limited, so anyone who wears that down is met with an exhaustion (at best) or the conclusion that being kind will only be weaponised against me or worse -- seen as a weakness. Therefore, the kindness shall cease and shall be met with a reciprocal language. Just to make sure that communication gets through.
Which brings me to my other side. My darker side.
I find that... not everyone responds well to kindness and wish to return it with harm or spite.
A friend of mine tells it like this, "Some people prefer the carrot, others prefer the stick." Let's just say, I prefer to avoid the people who like the stick. I can block, ban or generally avoid them. What is the point in just being toxic to each other when we can all just enjoy nice things?
But it is VERY difficult to reach this point on me because I am THAT patient.
How to get banned by Silky, personally:
Confirmed malice. Deception. Will to trick or harm other users.
I am not in the business of banning folk. But the few times that I have banned -- and luckily -- it is quite few in the past decade, has been when a user has been objectively proven to be malicious, deceptive, cruel or not having good intentions towards the community. If anyone whines to you about how they were unfairly banned by me, for whatever reason, I happily encourage you to please message me and ask for the abundance of evidence that will reveal more to whatever they are trying to convey.
However, that will most likely not happen, because luckily - it is quite rare to encounter. But because it is quite rare it does hit me quite hard and makes me rather cynical. Especially when I wish to see the best in everyone.
But there it is. I am neither good, nor do I take delight in evil. I am quite neutral. If you are kind to me, I am kind to you. If you are not kind to me, I assume I am probably just not your cup of tea and I move on.
But let me catch you hurting someone or committing some form of malice and I will ban you so damn hard -- your ancestors will feel it to their core from the future and feel like absolute failures.
But with that said. Luckily, it is a rare occasion. c:
"BUT SILKY, WAIT!!! YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD PERSON!!! AND TWO WRONGS DON'T MAKE A RIGHT!!"
Yeah, see? Another reason why I prefer not to identify as a good person. Not only will you be disappointed in my response, but you will find that I am quite snarky when met with malicious people. My answer to the phrase above is quite simply, "basic math, love. Two negatives equals a positive. NEXT!"
But overall, I am patient, I do like to practice kindness, I am a work in progress, myself and I do take pride in knowing that it takes A LOT to push me on edge. But regardless of how malicious a person can be, you will find they will always try to play victim, so always try to get both sides if you wish to be unbiased and fair. And most importantly, if anyone tries to harm or isolate you, please report them to me immediately. >:3
It is so interesting to hear their creative stories of how innocent and "good" they are.
Other than that, you will find me sleeping on a cloud just chillin. Minding my own business or goofing off with friends around here. But in a very... neutral way. 
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