Well, this will just about be the forums first venting blog. Glad I am the one to hold this horrible honor. Well, let's get down to business.

If any of you are remotely close to me, you will know that just about a week ago now, my girlfriend and I were forced to break up due to her parents. I loved this woman a lot, so this was really a hard breakup for me. Well, since that day, she has been telling me she still loves me, and is waiting until the day we can date again.

And then, this morning, I woke up to see that she had blocked me on twitter. Intrigued, I found a loophole in the system and logged out, and went to her twitter feed. On her feed, I found pictures of her kissing other guys with heart captions. I was infuriated.

I talked to her about it later on while I was walking to school. It took me a while to talk to her, because she refused to talk to me because she did not want me to scold her, or to tell her how horrible she is now. Looking back, she made herself seem like the victim here, which angers me further. Well, I finally got a hold of her and we just talked. She told me that it was a dare from her friends, and didn't want to hurt or tell me, so she blocked me.

Let me say that again.

SHE. SAID. SHE. LOVED. ME. THEN. KISSED. GUYS. FOR. A. DARE.

I decided to be a good guy and forgive her for making a "mistake. She told me that she still loved me, and is still waiting for me.

And then, I told her how those guys don't deserve to have relationships at all, because they accepted kisses from a girl just because she wanted to kiss them. It shows they have no self respect for themselves, and for her. She got mad at me for that, and said I sounded like her parents.

When I walked into the art room, we were still texting. She then told me that she actually doesn't love me anymore, and hasn't for a while. She is now going to try and move on. Then she said she is going to die in a hole. Then she won't date anyone anymore.

Know what went on through my head?

She. Fucking. Lied. To. Me.

She's been manipulating my emotions. No matter the motive. She's been using me.

My heart was completely shattered.

She said I was her first love, and she loved me SOOOOOO much. I fucking call BULLSHIT. If she actually loved me, and if I was her first love, she wouldn't of already been kissing other men and moving on so easily.

She is also "suicidal" now and cuts herself because she is "so stressed out" over us breaking up.

I call bullshit to the major 4th degree. I've been used. My heart is hurting majorly bad.

My trust level has been lowered. I'm sorry to anyone who is close to me. Someone ruined my trust. I hope I will be able to build it back up...

I'll still be doing my 1,000 views celebratory blog... just in a little while.

http://mlpforums.com/blog/65/entry-252-i-want-to-do-something-celebratory-for-you-guys/

Thanks for taking the time to read.