I know the situation you are in quite well, I´ve been in the same situation myself way too long...

I just do my thing, am more or less succesful, but then people I know do their thing and it seems desirable, and sometimes I was even close to an inferiority complex, it nearly got so far that I felt completely worthless.

I am still not all the way over this, I am probably the worst person to give advice... and I can only say what you surely know yourself: everyone got his special talent (cutie mark, if you want so ), you know what you are good at (in your case producing music?) and that should be enough.

Train what you like to do, try new things,  but don´t worry if others do better than you. You should try to be happy for the things your friends achieve, knowing that you couldn´t do it and you mustn´t; because the same way they will be happy for you and respect as well as appreciate you for what you are the best in.

Easier to say than to do, as everything in life, I´m still at it myself .

I know exactly how you feel. I've felt the same way before many times. But, I'm trying to not do that anymore. You should never feel like you have to compare yourself to other people. We are all unique individuals with our own specific strengths and talents. You certainly have them, we all do. You should form your own goals, and strive to reach them, and not worry what other people are doing. 

You are a wonderful person. You should do your best to put those negative thoughts behind you. Whenever you find yourself thinking or saying something bad about yourself, you should turn it into something positive. I used to think very destructive negative thoughts all the time, because when I tried to think something positive about myself, I often didn't believe it. However, I decided that I would refuse to treat myself like that anymore. If I felt myself thinking a negative thought about myself, I would stop it right then and there before it got any further, and then think positive thoughts about myself, whether or not I believed them. Well, it didn't take long for me to begin to believe the positive things I thought about myself, because they were true, and it turned out not being as difficult as I thought it would be to put my negative falsehoods about myself behind me. I'll still think or feel something negative about myself from time to time, but I have come a long way since I had my inferiority/self-hatred complex and depression last year. 

Also, you don't need to feel bad about not going to college. The main thing is to live life and be happy, and to help other people to be happy too. It might interest you also that although both Lauren Faust and her husband attended college, they never got a degree, yet she is still extremely successful today, and doing what she loves. She was at college for about 2 1/2 years, but never finished. Experience is what's important, not where you get it.

Both of those posts are unbelievably uplifting. I tend to get depressed a lot and I always anxiety going on in my mind, so I have hard time dealing with these problems. I am a very confusing person. I need to try and just accept myself for who I am and enjoy my life as it is. I enjoy simple pleasures, I should just look at those and enjoy them. Hopefully I can improve on that. I don't need to do something AMAZING if I am happy where I am at. I also don't have many friends, as in 'in person' friends, so that is difficult as well. Luckily there is this online community with people like you two.

Thank you both for the kind words and advice. I will probably be re-reading these posts many times.

You're very welcome. In my opinion, the simple pleasures in life are often the best. Also, it is not the number of friends that count, but the quality of your friends.

Feel free to PM me if you ever need or want to talk about anything. I am here for you, friend.

Hello, Kyoshi.  It's me, your best-est little ol' forum buddy, Justin Case.  Or... some'm like that.    So, for awhile now, I've been wanting to find a good blog or two to read by some other members.  I spend a lot of time writing my own, but not much time reading others.  I want to read at least some of what others have written, but it's always just a time constraint.  I only ever seem to be able to make the time to crank out a blog entry of my own, and then I have to fuck off.  But recently I decided that I would actually make the time to read through some other blogs.  People take the time to share this stuff, and I really want to see what some of them have to say.  Trouble is that it's tough to find a good, robust blog.  I don't know why it didn't occur to me to check yours out.  You've got TONS on here!  It looks very interesting, too.  I don't think I'll be able to read all of them, but I plan to read a good lot of them in the upcoming week or so.  Expect a bunch of replies from me shortly. 

I am also very much the same way--constantly comparing myself to others.  No matter what I do, I always feel inadequate because I'm not as good as this person or that person.  I think it's just part of the human condition.  Have to learn to be more at peace with ourselves.  We all feel the same way, which means that none of us feels like the spectacular, perfect person that we think others are.