As those of you who have been paying attention to my blog posts may know I have been going through quite a lot of stress lately and honestly have been unhappy for quite a while. Don't worry I am not going to kill myself if that is what your thinking, I may have some depression but it isn't nearly as bad as what I have gone through before. I have thought about it for almost a year now, and because of my situation where my employer has put me in the checkstand as a backup checker against my wishes I have tried to get a doctors not to get out of that due to anxiety issues up there in large part due to me having Autism.

The doctor I originally had in mind just wouldn't get back to me no matter what so I gave up on him, my mother had an idea and it was simple "what about doctor *insert doctors name here*?" This doctor that she thought of who I in fact used to see was a little far making a trip to him a major inconvenience but I recently found out that he has an office closer to home where he has openings Tuesdays and Thursdays. So I booked an appointment to go see him a 2 tomorrow to address the issue of the doctors note and will probably begin to start seeing him regularly again if not once a week than once every other week.

I don't know if the doctors note is going to work or not but because this doctor knows so much about me and my condition he is the best person possible to write such a note and I have an opportunity to work through some issues I have had that I have some of which I have repressed and put on the back burner for years. It is time I work out the rage, hate and depression I am going through before things get more out of hand than they already have while the rational part of my mind is still in control.