My life has has become a routine. Some days I go do something, but I can't very often because I can't leave my friend alone for a long period of time. I honestly don't mind helping him recover from his injuries, and watching movies with him is always fun.

But I can't help but feel that doing this has given me the realization that my life is boring. Is not my friend's fault at all. It just makes me remember the past more. Though the life I'm living now is much more stable than the past, and much more safe and enjoyable. It is still rather monotonous.

And now that I really think about it, I like my monotonous lifestyle. I say that I'm bored, but I always have fun everyday. I enjoy being with my friend because it's always hilarious talking about movies. I still have time to do things. I still do my hobbies and go on these forums. Why am I complaining? Well I guess I'm not anymore

My opinion just changed after writing this out. How funny. Probably the worst part is just the heartache I get and the random moments when I get depressive about the past, but that doesn't last very long. I'm pretty happy I guess. Not as happy as I could've been, but I'm comfortable with my life now somewhat.

I have zero reason to complain. My life has gotten exponentially better the past several years and I shouldn't complain at all. The only thing I have the right to be sad about is my wife. Her passing is the only thing that I'm allowed to be upset about and realize my life will never be 100% full. But hey, 50% is better than being dead or something.

Yeah, I'm happy. I got tremendous friends, a great brother, an awesome forums, and someone I love.....So shut-up Dimitri, stop complaining