Life is pointless. Lets get that out of the way early. Nothing that we do 'really' matters. So, why do we bother? It is because we want to make something of ourselves, to accomplish something. I have always thought that since I am not doing much with my life...at all, that I am inferior to other human beings. I mean, just look around. Look at all of these people doing so many great things! Going to college, working hard, blah,blah. Yeah. That is fine and all, if you enjoy it, then fine with me. Honestly, though, life is mostly an ego feeding contest. It seems all I hear about is all the great things certain people are doing, or what certain others are trying to do. It is all about being better than your fellow humans. It is not always the case, but it is more prominent now than ever. Look at this fandom, it is filled with it. People constantly trying to seem like they are great because of one thing or another. 'Look! I can do this! Or that! Of I know this! Or that! Look how smart I am!'

The best thing I can learn to do is to just say fuck it. None of this shit really matters, so why do I let it get to me? I am always depressed and I may stay that way for a good while, I will admit that. Still,the best I can do is just ignore all of this stupid shit. Thinking that I need to be better at this, or that, or I must do this with my life, or that, I am just feeding this useless notion. The world is full of elitists and that is unavoidable, because society constantly yells it into our ears that if we are doing certain things, then we are better than everyone else who is not doing it. Don't believe me? Take a look at a random college commercial. Usually, it is advertising some business or technical college and the tag line is always this: Some person, usually a male, explains his story about how he wasn't doing anything important, that is until he went to this college and now he actually had a life worth living apparently. What about all of those people who work at convenience stores? Or factories? What do they mean? Nothing, if you go by elitist standards. It is all about college in the job regard. That is just one random example so take it as you will.

So....yeah, this is just the ramblings of an idiot who quite frankly has a lot of free time and not too many friends and zero social skills, so this probably seems dumb, but that is what I want to say. The best thing I can do is say fuck it, because nothing really matters, so I should just live my life how I want. It may not be perfect, but it okay I suppose. My viewpoint is this, if you are not harming anyone, then live your life how you please.

End of pointless post. Keep in mind, I try to be a nice person despite how brash and negative I seem. I know that I can be very annoying at times, because I even annoy myself.