No offense to Bearsie, but have you seen his fanfic?

This guy has no business ragging on other bronies' work.

If you don't care about Bearsie's opinion, then shrug it off and just keep making music. Show me some of your pieces and I'll listen. I'll even take them to a guy who really knows music, so you can get feedback from a reliable source.

Think what you want, but I want you to know that I am sorry about that. But don't let what one person has to say ruin you making music.

Official Beatport artist here, and just from an initial walk through your YouTube page, you do far better than some other Brony artists I've seen. Ignore the other person's comment. Completely.

Alone in a Frightening Tranquility and My Coronation have very solid foundations - to give up now would be silly. It took me a couple of years to get the hang of "music" (with years of a musical background), and even now I'm not totally confident in myself. Just don't give up too fast.


It sounds like you're using FL Studio, and if so, I can give you some general tips if you'd like. It took me literally hundreds of tries to get a working system, and you seem to be on the right track - I think if you gave me one hour, I could help show you how to polish virtually any song to a high degree.

Long story short: I vote you not give up so early. You've already invested a considerable amount of time into it, and from one artist to another, I think it would be a shame for all of your talent go to waste.

You'll invent melodies that only you will ever hear, all inside of your own head. If you don't create them, nobody will.


Hit me up on Skype some time! I'd love to chat with you. "cloudfyrebrony"

Bah! That Bearsie is more like a troll to me. He judges people's works as craps without even knowing the reasons. By looking at his fanfic, I dare to say he doesn't even know what art is. That guy doesn't even take criticism.

You don't have to give up because of the words which come from someone like him.

:c

Oh, shit.

Someone critisised your work.

 

Better just fucking quit because a single person didn't like it.

I do not like you and you probably do not like me, but I will respond to you anyway.

I deal with constant anxiety, depression and self esteem problems ALL THE FUCKING TIME. This may sound stupid to YOU, but you do not know me and how my mind works. YES, this may have been an overreaction on my part, but your elitist bullshit does not add anything whatsoever. 

Think about it this way, given the problems that I have mentioned before, I tend to take harsh and blank criticism like this seriously. Think about before I made this post. The only comment on this song is the person telling me it is horrible. I don't see any other comments, so that means that at that particular time, all I see is a completely negative opinion. Not only that, but it is a completely negative opinion that is not letting me know what I did wrong. This registers in my mind that it must be terrible, because I see no positive comments around, again, this is prior to this blog. My mind is fucked up and I think way differently than the average person. 

I do not need your elitist bullshit okay? It is clear that you have this elitist mentality, I can tell just by seeing your posts. I suggest just ignoring anything I post in the future.

To everyone else though, I thank you for the responses and I also apologize for posting this. I know that I probably overreacted but this type of stuff cuts me deep. Like I said in the post above, I have a lot of different self-esteem and depression problems so I tend to react to these type of things a bit.....radically.

I do not like you and you probably do not like me, but I will respond to you anyway.

 

I deal with constant anxiety, depression and self esteem problems ALL THE FUCKING TIME. This may sound stupid to YOU, but you do not know me and how my mind works. YES, this may have been an overreaction on my part, but your elitist bullshit does not add anything whatsoever. 

 

Think about it this way, given the problems that I have mentioned before, I tend to take harsh and blank criticism like this seriously. Think about before I made this post. The only comment on this song is the person telling me it is horrible. I don't see any other comments, so that means that at that particular time, all I see is a completely negative opinion. Not only that, but it is a completely negative opinion that is not letting me know what I did wrong. This registers in my mind that it must be terrible, because I see no positive comments around, again, this is prior to this blog. My mind is fucked up and I think way differently than the average person. 

 

I do not need your elitist bullshit okay? It is clear that you have this elitist mentality, I can tell just by seeing your posts. I suggest just ignoring anything I post in the future.

The fact that you have "problems" is not an excuse. At least, I don't register it as one. Your output is your output, regardless of the thought process it must go through, first. If you cannot handle social situations, and you're going to be as outwardly self-destructive as you are, you're better off limiting your social interaction out of consideration. Either that, or learn how to manage yourself better. (I advise the latter)

People are not going to take kindly to such a massive amount of attention-calling self-hatred. It's just a fact. People aren't always going to be around to help make you "feel better" by saying nice things. It's not going to help you, at all.

It's kinda funny that you think I'm an elitist, because I'm anything but. Ask HylianTwilian, I hate myself to an almost incomprehensible level. However, because of that, I don't talk about myself, nor do I outwardly state anything so negative that it could possibly come across as unpleasant to others. (ironic, because I still bother others, anyway)

I totally did come across as a douche in my comment, but that's because I quickly got flustered, because you're right, I also don't like you, and as a fellow artist, I cannot stand it when people stop doing their art because of critique from morons whose voices are literally worth nothing. Art is meant to please you. Not others. You're supposed to do it because you like it, and I just want others to see that and be able to enjoy themselves more. So for my previous attitude/tone in that post, I am sorry. But for my point, I am not.

You don't seem stupid, so I doubt you lack the ability to calm yourself down in a given situation and look at things from a multi-angle perspective. You mention your "problems" and "different way of taking things/thinking" so frequently that it comes across as boasting/bragging. You really don't seem any different than anyone else, to begin with. It almost seems as if you want to be different.

I have been diagnosed with "depression" and I've got extreme self esteem problems, as well. I've got Asperger's, apparently, yet I manage. The only reason for me to think you "have problems" is because you say so. Otherwise, you seem perfectly normal. And that's why I have a hard time holding myself back.

The fact that you have "problems" is not an excuse. At least, I don't register it as one. Your output is your output, regardless of the thought process it must go through, first. If you cannot handle social situations, and you're going to be as outwardly self-destructive as you are, you're better off limiting your social interaction out of consideration. Either that, or learn how to manage yourself better. (I advise the latter)

 

People are not going to take kindly to such a massive amount of attention-calling self-hatred. It's just a fact. People aren't always going to be around to help make you "feel better" by saying nice things. It's not going to help you, at all.

 

It's kinda funny that you think I'm an elitist, because I'm anything but. Ask HylianTwilian, I hate myself to an almost incomprehensible level. However, because of that, I don't talk about myself, nor do I outwardly state anything so negative that it could possibly come across as unpleasant to others. (ironic, because I still bother others, anyway)

 

I totally did come across as a douche in my comment, but that's because I quickly got flustered, because you're right, I also don't like you, and as a fellow artist, I cannot stand it when people stop doing their art because of critique from morons whose voices are literally worth nothing. Art is meant to please you. Not others. You're supposed to do it because you like it, and I just want others to see that and be able to enjoy themselves more. So for my previous attitude/tone in that post, I am sorry. But for my point, I am not.

 

You don't seem stupid, so I doubt you lack the ability to calm yourself down in a given situation and look at things from a multi-angle perspective. You mention your "problems" and "different way of taking things/thinking" so frequently that it comes across as boasting/bragging. You really don't seem any different than anyone else, to begin with. It almost seems as if you want to be different.

 

I have been diagnosed with "depression" and I've got extreme self esteem problems, as well. I've got Asperger's, apparently, yet I manage. The only reason for me to think you "have problems" is because you say so. Otherwise, you seem perfectly normal. And that's why I have a hard time holding myself back.

Do you know why I post about my problems all the damn time? It is because I am trying to be honest with people. The problems that I have are real and I just don't want others to judge me wrongly, so I try to be as honest as I can on those things. You may think I am 'normal' but the many mental professionals that I have seen will disagree with you. I trust their words more than yours.

I don't have the ability to handle these situations accordingly. When the situation happens, my thought process goes out the window and I react like I do. Why do I post these things of self hatred though? Honestly, I am not entirely sure, but I suppose it is because I feel so lost and alone. I feel so terrified of the entire world and I suppose I just want someone to hear me. I do not have many people at all to talk to, especially offline, so yeah, it is probably just attention grabbing stuff, but many times I do not know what else to do. 

As I thought, you do not like me, but I want to clarify, I am not a bad person, I just DO have a lot of different mental problems, regardless if you underestimate them. I may seem normal on a web page, but that is all it is, a simple web page. It is bad enough to where I just cannot live alone and I am unable to drive. My brain was more than likely damaged by my hydrocephalus so I cannot change how my mind works. All I can do is try to accept it, which I just have difficulty doing at times. I am trying to get the concept down of self acceptance, because surprisingly, I am strongly in support of accepting oneself. I just struggle with it. I try to not come off as a bad person, but I realize that I probably do most of the time. Take it all as you will.

Do you know why I post about my problems all the damn time? It is because I am trying to be honest with people. The problems that I have are real and I just don't want others to judge me wrongly, so I try to be as honest as I can on those things. You may think I am 'normal' but the many mental professionals that I have seen will disagree with you. I trust their words more than yours.

 

I don't have the ability to handle these situations accordingly. When the situation happens, my thought process goes out the window and I react like I do. Why do I post these things of self hatred though? Honestly, I am not entirely sure, but I suppose it is because I feel so lost and alone. I feel so terrified of the entire world and I suppose I just want someone to hear me. I do not have many people at all to talk to, especially offline, so yeah, it is probably just attention grabbing stuff, but many times I do not know what else to do. 

 

As I thought, you do not like me, but I want to clarify, I am not a bad person, I just DO have a lot of different mental problems, regardless if you underestimate them. I may seem normal on a web page, but that is all it is, a simple web page. It is bad enough to where I just cannot live alone and I am unable to drive. My brain was more than likely damaged by my hydrocephalus so I cannot change how my mind works. All I can do is try to accept it, which I just have difficulty doing at times. I am trying to get the concept down of self acceptance, because surprisingly, I am strongly in support of accepting oneself. I just struggle with it. I try to not come off as a bad person, but I realize that I probably do most of the time. Take it all as you will.

If you thought I thought you were a bad person, you were mistaken. And you don't come across as a bad person. You just come across as someone my personality doesn't agree with (not rare whatsoever).

If you really want to "be heard" and be less lonely, you're going about it the wrong way. "Attention grabbing" stuff is typically frowned upon by others. It isn't very pleasant. If you want people to talk to you, it's best to put your good, happy side out first. It will attract more people who sincerely think you're worth talking to.

Then, anyone who's worth talking to will accept you, even after they find your faults. However, people are very presumptuous, so if you present a negative attitude, people will presume that you're nothing but negative, which is obviously incorrect.

Then, after you start getting a few more friends, you'll feel better about yourself, and you'll feel less need to say "attention grabbing stuff," because you won't be as lonely, and then more people will want to talk to you because you seem pleasant, and it's just a big loop from there.

But since you don't like me, my advice (if you'll call it that) probably won't get heard.

If you thought I thought you were a bad person, you were mistaken. And you don't come across as a bad person. You just come across as someone my personality doesn't agree with (not rare whatsoever).

 

If you really want to "be heard" and be less lonely, you're going about it the wrong way. "Attention grabbing" stuff is typically frowned upon by others. It isn't very pleasant. If you want people to talk to you, it's best to put your good, happy side out first. It will attract more people who sincerely think you're worth talking to.

 

Then, anyone who's worth talking to will accept you, even after they find your faults. However, people are very presumptuous, so if you present a negative attitude, people will presume that you're nothing but negative, which is obviously incorrect.

 

Then, after you start getting a few more friends, you'll feel better about yourself, and you'll feel less need to say "attention grabbing stuff," because you won't be as lonely, and then more people will want to talk to you because you seem pleasant, and it's just a big loop from there.

 

But since you don't like me, my advice (if you'll call it that) probably won't get heard.

Actually, I greatly appreciate this advice. Even if I have certain personal problems with someone, if they say something good or nice, I will do my best to acknowledge it. I do have many nice personality traits. I can be funny, quirky, and I have a child-like personality, I can be a fun, simple person. I try to appreciate the little things in life. I just constantly compare myself with others and I know that it is incredibly stupid to do, but that is something I am trying to stop doing, though I am not doing a good job at it currently. I always put myself to the standards of others, when I should just put myself at the standards that I want. I do realize this, but many a times I forget about these things, because as I said, my thought process goes out the window when things go rough on my mind. 

As I said, I do greatly appreciate the advice, as brash as I seem at times. I just need to accept myself for who I am, problems included. I will try to be more positive if I can, because I do realize that nobody wants to see constant negativity. It's a struggle, but I will try my best, hopefully.

Actually, I greatly appreciate this advice. Even if I have certain personal problems with someone, if they say something good or nice, I will do my best to acknowledge it. I do have many nice personality traits. I can be funny, quirky, and I have a child-like personality, I can be a fun, simple person. I try to appreciate the little things in life. I just constantly compare myself with others and I know that it is incredibly stupid to do, but that is something I am trying to stop doing, though I am not doing a good job at it currently. I always put myself to the standards of others, when I should just put myself at the standards that I want. I do realize this, but many a times I forget about these things, because as I said, my thought process goes out the window when things go rough on my mind. 

 

As I said, I do greatly appreciate the advice, as brash as I seem at times. I just need to accept myself for who I am, problems included. I will try to be more positive if I can, because I do realize that nobody wants to see constant negativity. It's a struggle, but I will try my best, hopefully.

It's ironic, because I'm literally preaching things that I, myself, need to listen to.

We both seem to have some self-disapproval, but I've been able to relate to a lot of things you've been saying, so I'm thinking we're a bit similar. That might be why we aren't too fond of each other.

But just take that as proof that you aren't that abstract, and you can make friends, because you aren't weird or anything. You're normal, even with faults and oddities. Faults and oddities are normal, after all.

If I can make friends (with my gawd-awful personality), then you can, too. Really.

Obviously this was years ago (I'm just catching up on all these old blogs), but I hope you changed your mind and went back to creating music, if it's something you still enjoy.  I understand how you feel, though.  I don't handle criticism well.  It's a character flaw, and something I really don't like about myself.  A few years ago, I taught myself to 3D model with Blender, and I spent many months making very detailed 3D pony models.  I didn't want to just regurgitate the same sort of Source Filmmaker models that are everywhere, so I went for something more realistic.  It was unprecedented.  I was the first person (that I'm aware of) to make pony models with full particle hair and fur.  I put so much work into them.  I was extremely proud of them.  I thought they turned out great.  By any metric, I did do a really good job.  I mean, the meshes were essentially perfect, and the end result was extremely high quality.  I revealed them on the forums in a big fan art thread, and the responses were basically nothing but "WTF.  Creepy as hell."  "Uncanny valley."  "Terrifying."  Uncanny valley--that's what I heard, over and over.  Uncanny valley, uncanny valley...  I understood the criticism, and I saw where they were coming from, but it really hurt.  A wiser man may have been able to take the criticism as motivation to improve their work, but for me... it cut deep.  I was so proud of my models, and not one person said anything nice.  I became very depressed.

It took me a long time to get over that, but I eventually did... for the most part.  I still love my models, and I still think they look good, and that's what counts.  And you know what?  Years later, for the first time, one person bought one of my 3D models on a t-shirt from Redbubble.  So, one person out there liked it, and that made it all worth it.  I keep creating, and I hope you do... er... did... er... have... as well.