I've been neglecting this blog, which I designed to vent my depressive feelings.This is particularly because I was feeling a lot better for awhile, but it was also because after this respite, my feelings so bad that I didn't want to share them. Today though, I'd like to explain something very close to my heart though.

So, if you don't know me, I go by melancholicmemory (currently called Mellon Collie for the pun and Smashing Pumpkins reference). As the name implies, I am sad. Don't get me wrong. I can be a very uplifting, funny, and cheerful person, but I struggle with intense feelings of sadness. Even worse, I tend to seek out sad stories and videos and whatnot, which make me feel even more sad. I'm man enough to say that I cry somewhat frequently.

But today I realized something.

Maybe I'm not some sort of mopey, Eeyore type person. Maybe the reason why I seem to almost want to be sad is because these emotions are so powerful and so deep, and maybe perhaps, being sad every once in awhile actually makes me feel more alive. I mean, the only reason why you can really feel bad about something is if you lost something really good. That means that you have/had something great; something happy. A wonderful memory. So yeah, I feel bad, and my depression brings me down to the point that I can't appreciate this, but for now I know that as bad as I feel, I know it's not all bad.

I felt like sharing these thoughts with you all, and I think to some degree we can all relate to it. Whenever you're sad or depressed or thinking about doing something drastic, ponder this. I think it just might be a valuable lesson.

Although this is just a random thought of mine.

Anyway, the video that helped me realize this was one of the most touching Youtube videos I've ever seen. Here it is:

Tell me what you think (about what I said, not the video. You should comment on the video itself for that )