"Where were you when I was lonesome

Locked away in this freezing cold

Someone flying, only stolen,

I can't tell, this night's so old,

I don't want to swim the ocean,

I don't want to fight the tide,

I don't want to swim forever,

When it's cold I'd like to die.

What was that, my sweet sweet nothing

I can't hear you through the fog

If I holler let me go

If I falter let me know

I don't want to swim the ocean,

I don't want to fight the tide,

I don't want to swim forever,

When it's cold I'd like to die.

I don't want to swim forever,

I don't want to fight the tide,

I don't want to swim the ocean,

When it's cold I'd like to die."

My interpretation of this song is that it speaks of waiting for something, or someone. Is like she has been waiting for so long for someone, something to come along that would renew hope and faith in her life. Just been searching endlessly for something to hold on to, and even when she thought she had found it, it was not there when she needed it most, or she is regretting messing that very thing up in her life, so she is just letting everything go because it does not seem worth it to hold on anymore. She has given up completely, comparing life to an ocean. Not willing to swim it anymore. Letting the tide overtake her.

God this song is so painful. Is just... haunting. It makes my whole body ache. Gives me chills to hear. I nearly let the tide take me. I was tired of swimming in my ocean. For me, it was regret and pain. "Where were you when I was lonesome?" A question I asked as I looked to heaven. I remember saying words similar to these. Not saying it in a derogatory way, but saying it like "Where are you? Why are you not here anymore?" I felt like she left me because I failed her. Not in any way faulting her, but I was hating myself. Giving myself reasons to stop fighting the tide.