Well, after my birthday....which is tomorrow ;-; ....I am going into the wild to camp for preferably two weeks on the stampede trail. Same place where Chris McCandless passed away. I just want to do it. See if I can live by myself for that long in a rugged environment. It means a lot to me emotionally. It will help with many things in my own mind.

Then on my Christmas, which is in January, I will say adieu to you all on these forums. I am departing the Internet, just because I can. I have grown increasingly weary on here. Bleak, monotonous, just losing the luster it had when I first came here. Is probably my fault I am feeling like this, but whatever. I still be here for Western Christmas though. Who knows maybe I change my mind to leave, but I doubt it. I not care anymore.

So to all those who care, which I am sure is less than a handful, I will wish the best and give a fine adieu. So, let us see how my mind, and emotional state change over the next couple months. Who knows, maybe I not will even go through with it. Just give up like the failure I have been. That will most likely be the outcome!

So, you know I probably not going through with this....just ignore what I have said or whatever. Yay emotional states!