I hate my brain and its knowledge of things I don't need to know such as that all sickness will eventually kill me no matter what it is. I'm tired of my mother never letting me take a day off school unless I throw up in front of her. I'm just tired and stressed I can't handle school any longer I feel my sanity slip away from me, I just have no idea why, but I haven't talked to anyone about what's happening to me, I just don't feel like people would even care they'd just say something like I'm not used to school or I'm just looking for an excuse to not go to or be at school so I'm just sitting here in the darkness of my room lying on my bed and just staring at the ceiling because I have no motivation anymore to work I want to work but I can't get into the right state of mind to work.