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  1. Dubwave Nightshadow
    So apparently Season 9 is supposed to be the end of Mlp Fim. I have mixed feelings on this. I am happy about it because I'm glad that the show will not run to long and get turned into a cash cow kind of thing where they basically run it into the ground just to get every last bit they can out of it.
    On the other hand, I remember when i was first introduced to this show back in high school and how I went through that whole process of "Bronification", from denial that i am enjoying the show, to the point where I had to give in and admit I loved it, and it makes me sad that it has to end.
    So much really has come out of this show that I don't think either the developers or anyone in this community even saw coming. And so much of it was beautiful. So, what happens after the final episode? Where does this all go from here?
    Tell me what you think about all this. Tell me about what makes you happy from what this show brought to your life, and what you think about it ending. Also about where you think things go afterwards. I'm curious to hear what others have to say on this.
  2. Dubwave Nightshadow

    Speak

    By Dubwave Nightshadow,

    Once again a long period without a word to say. Time to change that. A lot has happened. I don't even know if this post will have any direction. I'll just let it flow to wherever it goes, and hope that you may take something from it in whatever way you wish. What's going with you today, tomorrow, or what happened the day before on behind that one? What do you see in yourself or of yourself? Are you happy? Yes, no, unsure? Quite frankly I hope you are doing well, but let's face it. Life tends to mostly be skewed in the direction or form that we find disdain in. This seems to become more true with every passing year. In all honesty when I look out the world I begin to wonder why humanity seems as if it is pointless in all respects and why I should bother respecting it myself. I just realized something by the way. What I'm writing seems to fake to me. I think I am filtering out too much of what I'm really thinking in order to try and make sure I don't cross some imaginary line or something, like maybe offending someone or breaking the rules. Okay, I'll make sure I don't break the rules, and i don't like offending people either as I try to be a pretty courteous person myself to others, but answer me this. Should I feel bad about offending someone when what I speak or type breathes truth and silences ignorance? Should you? I really don't think so, yet that human nature in you at the same time just keeps you from saying what you really want to say to someone, like someone upsetting you or basically being such an annoyance that you'd like to knock them a good one on the skull. Please don't be like me for the majority of your life, letting people say and do things to you for the sake of wanting to be that, so called around good guy that everyone just loves, while at the same time screaming inside and sacrificing your sanity and own self image to your own demise. Get real, and be yourself. Not the yourself that everyone likes. We already have too much of that going on and quite frankly, it's BS and part of the reason why things that should get done, do not get done, or conversations that need to be had, are never spoken. I'm not saying to be a complete jerk, but realize that you sometimes, you have to hurt feelings in order to get progress. It's something that no one wants to do, but unless you speak your mind, then you will only continue to suffer, and others will be oblivious to their own short comings and issues that they cause. You say you don't like fake people? Then don't, and or stop being one yourself, and say your words. Not the words of your well liked but not true self. I think I'll close out with that. Stay frosty, and through life, keep burning through.  
  3. Dubwave Nightshadow
    How long has it been since I last even looked at this blog? Lol. Quite a while. Well, let's get to talking again. Something I've personally been struggling with for quite some time. Maybe you have been too? Have you ever felt like you were not good enough? Or just not even good enough for existence? That is a good question by the way? Why are we all here? So many answers that have already been brought up on this subject. Maybe you have been through something in your past. Maybe you've been told things that were negative about you for a long time. Have you maybe even ever hurt someone, like a family member, or a friend? Have you done it multiple times and maybe begin asking why? Maybe I'm just no good. People don't like me. I should shrink away from the world and just run. All I do is hurt people. I don't even like myself. Any of this sound familiar? It does to me.
    Stop it. Don't make me smack that hoof, hand, paw, whatever it is of yours. Listen. We are all going to screw up, some worse than others. Even things such as not being good at something that we love can trigger these kinds of thoughts. This has happened to me many times with my drawings. If I screwed up I was so quick to take that along with other missteps in my lifetime, as an excuse to place myself in such a low place that I felt there was no way that I could get back up. This is something that is especially dangerous for those who suffer with depression, like me. Listen. Let me just make a point on all this. I don't care what you did. I don't care how many people you may have made dislike you by doing whatever you did to them. I don't care how many mistakes you have made on things you love to do, then compound all this into thinking you must be a bad person and worthless to the world. Do me a favor. Put the world aside. Put everyone else aside, and look at yourself. What do you see? Are you broken, tired, what? As I stated in another entry of mine, you are not today, who you were yesterday. 
    Take care of yourself. Stop worrying about what the world thinks you are. What are you in your eyes? Are you so bad just because of what you messed up in the past? Can you not just become a better person? Maybe you cannot get back the people you chased away back, but you can find new ones. Maybe one day, even if they don't come back, you can still show them you are not as bad as they think you are. Become your true self. Don't lie to others and yourself. You are you now. Let go of what made you so unhappy, and go forth to become greater. Go and be happy. I know this entry is quite a mixed bag, but I hope you can find something of it.
  4. Dubwave Nightshadow
    Well, I learned a valuable lesson today. No matter who you are, or what you do, there will always be those who are wanting to go against you and bring hate and malice your way because of your differences, things that you may like and enjoy, or any stupid reason. You are you, and you know right from wrong, and have at least a general understanding of it. What you may like or enjoy may be a unusual to others, but as long as it is not truly wrong or harming anyone, and you of course no better of this, then you are okay, and no one has the right to judge you or harm you with awful words. Words hurt, whether people realize this or not. Some people can brush them off and move along, but people like me who are little or a lot more sensitive take this to heart, and it can do as much harm as just ruining there day, mentally destroying them, and possibly causing them to even try to end it all, if you catch my drift. Hate and Malice will never go away. It is something that has been in human nature since the beginning of time, and has survived all the way to now, and I do not see it going away in the future. This is very unfortunate, but luckily, a good amount of people in this world know what I am talking about, and know how to actually love an tolerate others regardless of their differences and likes, instead of just saying that they do since that it is what the brony motto is so strongly supposed to be, but really, how many people are actually following it? From what I have seen, quite a few in the fandom say they do, but wind up being some of the worst bullies ever, including towards other bronies and pegasisters. The take away from this. Do not pass judgment over another for something they are into, or their differences, just because you do not agree with them. If it is something that is truly and awfully wrong, and is harming others in a physical or mental way, then that's another story. Bullying physically can be bad, but verbal abuse can be even worse, because when you break someone mentally, they are a lot harder to fix than when they have been punched or kicked. You basically can have them truly believe that they are worthless and wrong in their ways, and in doing so, they can try and change things about themselves that completely alter their Identity, and even forget who they are. They can become depressed, anti-social, and all kinds of other things. When you see someone who is different from you, or likes something you may not, how about instead of thinking they are bad right off the bat, you maybe learn more about them. and try to accept them. Why not ask them to just not do whatever it is you do not like around them, and keep it to themselves, and they can do it whenever your not around, or maybe even learn more about it if your curious. You might like what they like in the end. No one knows. Love, Tolerance, Acceptance, and if you really cant, then just walk away. Keep your hurtful remarks to yourself. There are enough on youtube and all over the net as it is. Thank you.
  5. Dubwave Nightshadow
    Hello there everyone. I am Dubwave Nightshadow, your host. Nice to meet you all. This is my first time making a blog entry here in the forums, so pardon me if I mess something up. Lol. Well, as you can see, my first entry is titled, "Fandom Fatigue". What is fatigue? I could use the dictionary version, but I will stick with my simple version of the meaning. Basically tiredness of tiredness of something thats been done or over done, in this case, being an overload brony or pegasister. That can be our first issue for this blog. Issue 1. Well, I have seen this little subject being mentioned in so many places in so many different ways, but I will keep it simple and to the point for this entry, as I want to make everything really easy to read and understand. Ever have that feeling that you have just been on here or some other Mlp related site waaaaay too much, and you seem to stress out a little more than usual? Well dont worry. This is normal and not at all a bad thing, because I experience the same thing. It happens in all fandoms and not just our own. You spend a little too much time without meaning it, chatting, posting, chatting some more, looking for pictures, buying more merchandise, chatting some more, too many people all trying to suddenly talk to you at once and your trying to speak to all of them and keep up, and suddenly you have been locked up in your room for hours without realizing it. . . Whoa... A real head spinner, and a headache too. You do not have to always have to spend your time doing something Mlp related and trying to be overly involved. Your always going to be a brony or a pegasister no matter what, because you love the show, and you love the happiness, friendship and fun that comes with it, but don't just keep it confined to here. Go out and take a break for a while from the fandom and share what you gained from it with the world, and have fun elsewhere until you drop. Your fandom and friends will still be here waiting for you, and when you come back you will be refreshed and actually missing it, and wanting to go crazy over it again, instead of stressing out trying to act as if you are so into it but are really wishing you could be resting or doing something else. Lol. So if you need to, let your friends know that you will be off for a while so they will not miss you and wonder where you went, and take a relaxing vacation. Then get back in here and PARTAAAY!
  6. Dubwave Nightshadow
    This is something that is personal to me, and I believe many others may need to hear this as well, for it is something that can torture and give the worst types of emotional pain to us, both in public, and in secracy as well. Of course I am not asking for your secrets, but more for your ears in understanding. For many of us, the past can be of both joy, and as well, sadness. Some of us, or I would more beleive that all of us have done things in our past that we are not proud of. Some things that even a lot of us may feel so ashamed of or feel so badly about, that we can or do let it affect us now, and may never even tell another soul of. Its natural, but is it a good thing for us to do? Not exactly. I'm not asking for your big bad secret. I don't want to know what you did. If you wish not to tell, then not do so. If you feel you can and it will help, then do so. The choice is yours. But here is what is even more important than that. You must realize that no matter what you've done, it does not make up who you are now. You can be something better, and something more, just as you can be the complete opposite. Ask yourself what and who you want to be. Wish for it, think about how to make it a possibility. Can you do it? Yes you can. How much will it cost? No money. Just determination, and realization. Your past does not define you. You did what you did. Accept it. Learn from it. Forgive yourself. Then change. In which direction? Thats up to you. Which way do you choose to go?
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