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  1. Despair
    Well shit... As predicted, my best friend from my childhood is growing up to be a disrespectful little shit.
     
    I feel I should have tried harder to stop him from doing this...
     
    My uncle told me he has been acting a lot like his abusive father who curses and threatens his mother.
     
    I haven't talked to him in about 4 or five months. Last time we talked, I told him to NOT grow up like this. To rather change his life now while hes still young. He told me he was going to be a good person but be a little shit while hes young. And he thinks he has what it takes to join the military..
     
    He probably started acting like this because of his new friends. They're the "yoloswag" type of people. His drunker grandpa and his mother who goes partying with his older sister probably isn't helping much.
     
    It's really sad to see his grow up like this. He was my best friend once... now.... I just want to beat some sense into his head. A lot of sense.
  2. Despair
    So, since last year I was taking a type of home schooling, in which I would complete a number of packets of various subjects at home and return them to the high school. It was some type if confusing place where the high school was just part of the building.
     
    I should have known something was going on when they main guy in charge of the high school section forced me to buy and OPTIONAL graduation ceremony thing. I just wanted my diploma and be done with it. But no.
     
    So it turns out I spent 4-6 damn months looking for the place they "moved" to with the help of many different people just to find out that the guy who ran the high school also ran off with everyone's money. Now the police are after him and many people like me just got screwed out of $350 plus all that gas money we wasted trying to find that place that didn't exist. I hate my life.
  3. Despair

    Just shut up about it!

    By Despair,

    Ok. We understand that some people are upset about the Twilight thing, but don't go on saying this is a bad thing to happen. Just go with it. Have faith.
     
    And for the other people who are rubbing it in other people's faces: Fucking stop it. Ok, it happened. You don't have to go off and be a dick about it.
     
    "If you don't like it gtfo the fandom!"
     
    This is another reason why I lose faith in the brony fandom. Because of the stupid people who argue about stupid stuff and the winner acting like an ass about it.
  4. Despair

    Cutters and such.

    By Despair,

    So, I just had a thought. You know the story about emo kids and cutting themselves.
     
    I want to know: Why just cut yourself?
     
    I heard they do it to relieve pain or some shit like that. If that's the case, why not just do something more radical? Like beat the hell out of a tree until your fist bleed. Head-butt the closest wall you see, repeatedly until something breaks. Jump off a cliff?
     
    I don't know. Just something I thought of. If you're going to hurt yourself, might as well do it right. You know, unless you're a bitch wuss or something.
  5. Despair

    The dark side.

    By Despair,

    So I've been noticing that when people hear about bronies, they think of "fags" "trolls" "pedophiles" and other such terms.
     
    I hardly hear anything nice about the fandom from non-bronies.
     
    And I can see where they're coming from. Sometimes I look at the brony fandom and think, "Wow. These people are stupid."
     
    Now, why is it that the bad side of the fandom always shines brighter then anything else?
  6. Despair

    Derpy fans.

    By Despair,

    So I was all for the "bring back Derpy" thing that people are getting all rattled up about, but then I looked at some of the people who supported the return of Derpy.
     
    They were comparing Derpy to a lot of other stupid cartoon characters and just bringing them down to shit. Like characters from shows from CartoonNetwork and such.
     
    To me, CartoonNetwork is more for teens then little kids. If you want to see a children's show, go to the Hub, Nick jr, or PBS kids.
     
    And they admit to Derpy being retarded and so they think, "Hey! If a retarded character from a show for little girls is offensive, then that must mean retarded from characters from a cartoon for a higher age audience is offensive too!"
     
    Then why don't people bitch about Timmy from South Park being offensive and make a big fuss about removing him?
     
    So comparing a cross-eyed clumsy pony from a little girls show to a stupid character from a teen related show is the same thing?
     
    Sometimes I just hate the brony fandom for reasons like this.
     
    It almost makes me hope they completely remove Derpy from the show forever.
     
    If it wasn't the fact that Dery is a pony, nobody would give 2 shits.
     
    My fate in the brony fandom is slowly dying from these extreme fan boys/girls.
  7. Despair
    Okay. This is what I got from researching the Christmas origins. Basically, this tells of how he became Santa Claus and how he brought back Christianity to Christmas and without Nicholas, Christmas would be just an ordinary day. No Christmas lights, trees, stockings, or presents.
     
     
     
     
    Saint Nicholas' parents, who raised him to be a devout Christian, died in an epidemic while Nicholas was still young. Obeying Jesus' words to "sell what you own and give the money to the poor," Nicholas used his whole inheritance to assist the needy, the sick, and the suffering. He dedicated his life to serving God and was made Bishop of Myra while still a young man. Bishop Nicholas became known throughout the land for his generosity to those in need, his love for children, and his concern for sailors and ships.
     
    Nicholas was imprisoned by the Roman Emperor Diocletian. After his release, Nicholas attended the Council of Nicaea in AD 325. He died December 6, AD 343 in Myra. The anniversary of his death became a day of celebration, St. Nicholas Day, December 6th.
     
    The first Europeans to arrive in the New World brought St. Nicholas. Vikings dedicated their cathedral to him in Greenland. On his first voyage, Columbus named a Haitian port for St. Nicholas on December 6, 1492.
     
    After the American Revolution, New Yorkers remembered with pride their colony's nearly-forgotten Dutch roots. John Pintard, the influential patriot and antiquarian who founded the New York Historical Society in 1804, promoted St. Nicholas as patron saint of both society and city. In January 1809, Washington Irving joined the society and on St. Nicholas Day that same year, he published the satirical fiction, Knickerbocker's History of New York, with numerous references to a jolly St. Nicholas character. This was not the saintly bishop, rather an elfin Dutch burgher with a clay pipe. These delightful flights of imagination are the source of the New Amsterdam St. Nicholas legends: that the first Dutch emigrant ship had a figurehead of St. Nicholas: that St. Nicholas Day was observed in the colony; that the first church was dedicated to him; and that St. Nicholas comes down chimneys to bring gifts.
     
    The New York Historical Society held its first St. Nicholas anniversary dinner on December 6, 1810.
     
    The 19th century was a time of cultural transition. New York writers, and others, wanted to domesticate the Christmas holiday. After Puritans and other Calvinists had eliminated Christmas as a holy season, popular celebrations became riotous, featuring drunken men and public disorder. Christmas of old was not the images we imagine of families gathered cozily around hearth and tree exchanging pretty gifts and singing carols while smiling benevolently at children. Rather, it was characterized by raucous, drunken mobs roaming streets, damaging property, threatening and frightening the upper classes. The holiday season, coming after harvest when work was eased and more leisure possible, was a time when workers and servants took the upper hand, demanding largess and more. Through the first half of the 19th century, Presbyterians, Baptists, Quakers and other Protestants continued to regard December 25th as a day without religious significance, a day for normal business. This was not a neutral stance, rather Christmas observance was seen as inconsistent with gospel worship. Industrialists were happy to reduce workers' leisure time and allowed many fewer holidays than existed in Europe.
     
    1821 brought some new elements with publication of the first lithographed book in America, the Children's Friend. This "Sante Claus" arrived from the North in a sleigh with a flying reindeer. The anonymous poem and illustrations proved pivotal in shifting imagery away from a saintly bishop. Sante Claus fit a didactic mode, rewarding good behavior and punishing bad, leaving a "long, black birchen rod . . . directs a Parent's hand to use when virtue's path his sons refuse." The book also notably marked S. Claus' first appearance on Christmas Eve, rather than December 6th.
     
    The jolly elf image received another big boost in 1823, from a poem destined to become immensely popular, "A Visit from St. Nicholas," now better known as "The Night Before Christmas."
     
    Washington Irving's St. Nicholas strongly influenced the poem's portrayal of a round, pipe-smoking, elf-like St. Nicholas. The poem generally has been attributed to Clement Clark Moore, a professor of biblical languages at New York's Episcopal General Theological Seminary. Moore was a friend and neighbor of William Gilley, who had published Sancte Claus in 1821.
     
    The New York elite succeeded in domesticating Christmas through a new "Santa Claus" tradition invented by Washington Irving, John Pintard and Clement Clarke Moore. Moore's poem was printed in four new almanacs in 1824, just one year after it was in the Troy, New York, paper. The poem and other descriptions of the Santa Claus ritual appeared in more and more local papers. More than anything else, "A Visit From St. Nicholas" introduced the custom of a cozy, domestic Santa Christmas tradition to the nation.
     
    Churches, influenced by German immigrants who loved Christmas, Clement Clarke Moore, Washington Irving, Charles Dickens, the Oxford Movement in the Anglican church, and church musicians embracing carol singing, began to bring Christmas observances into their lives. The growth of Sunday Schools in cities exposed hundreds of thousands of children to Christianity. Initially opposed to Christmas observance, by the 1850s Sunday Schools had discovred that a Christmas tree, Santa and gifts, greatly improved attendance. So, in a strange twist of fate, the new "secular" Santa Claus, no longer seen as a religious figure, helped return Christmas observance to churches.
     
    Santa was then portrayed by dozens of artists in a wide variety of styles, sizes, and colors. However by the end of the 1920s, a standard American Santa—life-sized in a red, fur-trimmed suit—had emerged from the work of N. C. Wyeth, J. C. Leyendecker, Norman Rockwell and other popular illustrators. The image was solidified before Haddon Sundblom, in 1931, began thirty-five years of Coca-Cola Santa advertisements that further popularized and firmly established this Santa as an icon of contemporary commercial culture.
     
    This Santa was life-sized, jolly, and wore the now familiar red suit. He appeared in magazines, on billboards, and shop counters, encouraging Americans to see Coke as the solution to "a thirst for all seasons." By the 1950s Santa was turning up everywhere as a benign source of beneficence, endorsing an amazing range of consumer products. This commercial success led to the North American Santa Claus being exported around the world where he threatens to overcome the European St. Nicholas, who has retained his identity as a Christian bishop and saint.
     
    It's been a long journey from the Fourth Century Bishop of Myra, St. Nicholas, who showed his devotion to God in extraordinary kindness and generosity to those in need, to America's jolly Santa Claus, whose largesse often supplies luxuries to the affluent. However, if you peel back the accretions, he is still Nicholas, Bishop of Myra, whose caring surprises continue to model true giving and faithfulness.
     
    There is growing interest in reclaiming the original saint in the United States to help restore a spiritual dimension to this festive time. For indeed, St. Nicholas, lover of the poor and patron saint of children, is a model of how Christians are meant to live. A bishop, Nicholas put Jesus Christ at the center of his life, his ministry, his entire existence. Families, churches, and schools are embracing true St Nicholas traditions as one way to claim the true center of Christmas—the birth of Jesus. Such a focus helps restore balance to increasingly materialistic and stress-filled Advent and Christmas seasons.
  8. Despair
    I just had a conversation with a few of my friends and a super religious guy. He was saying that "God" will make your life happier and more peaceful. He was also saying the world would be in ruins without religion and the bible. And he said people hate because of the fear of "God". No, I hate because you're an idiot.
     
    I'm ok with people having their own beliefs but when you start preaching about it to people who don't give a fuck, I'm going to tell you to take your religion and shove it so far up your ass that it kills you.
     
    You don't have to believe in "God" to be happy or live a good life. "God" is just there to give people a fail sense of security and hope.
     
    You can be happy with yourself without a god of some sort.
     
    It kind of reminds me of some things some bronies do. And some of those who believe it are atheist.
     
     
    I wonder whats on TV...
  9. Despair

    Number 12

    By Despair,

    Some people believed the world to end on June 6, 2006. 6/6/06. The number of the Devil. But it didn't.
     
    So I think I found out why! 6 months, 6 days, and 6 years later, the devil will try his hand again to unleash his master plan on the world of the living!
     
    12/12/2012 at 12:12 (am or pm I am not sure but one of the two!)
     
    He will come back twice as evil!
     

    EVERYBODY, RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!!!!



    HELL ON EARTH IS COMING!!!


     

    (Totally real btw)


  10. Despair
    Sooo a friend of mine was going to get Halo 4 at the midnight release at a mall, but a guy at the mall parking lot was threatening to kill other people and himself, with some sort of sniper rifle, if he didn't get some drugs from the cops.
     
    So they cancelled the midnight release along with shutting the whole mall down.
     
    My friend was pissed and said he would go and kill the guy himself or get him to kill himself faster just to get Halo 4 at the midnight release.
     
    Now why does shit like this make me laugh? Because when stupid people do stupid things for stupid reasons, they deserve to be laughed at and look like a fool.
     
    Its like one of those moments you just had to be there for it to be funny.
  11. Despair

    Unity

    By Despair,

    Just some thinking, but would the world be better off without labels to go by? (I don't know what else to call it.)
     
    Like religions, culture, and even fan-bases.
     
    Why do we have to separate ourselves from one another? Why can't we all get along?
     
    Why must we continue to fight each others when we could work together and advance so much further into making the world a better place?
     
    Things like this make me lose faith in the human race as a whole. Almost makes me wish the world would end.
  12. Despair

    How far is too far?

    By Despair,

    So, I have heard of people doing some crazy things just to prove their point. If you believe in something strongly, of course your going to debate about it. But how far would you go to prove a point? Is that point worth losing friends and respect? And how far would you push it to get it understood?
     
    I just recently lost a friend because of his retarded ways. He say a troll page and said it was very offensive to a lot of people. I said that I don't give a shit and I don't want any part in it. He continues to talk about it and ends up posting a picture of something that hurt me personally. All just to prove that it was offensive.
     
    Now I see people arguing about something and one of them goes as far as to say they should rape a child just to prove a point.
     
    So, is your pride so big that you would go to any lengths to defend it or to see it get through to the other person?
  13. Despair

    The guy in Slender

    By Despair,

    I know I'm late on this but, I finally got around to playing Slender, and I have a few things to say about it.
     
    Who the fuck thought of the great idea to go out at night, in the woods and look for pages with stupid drawings on them?
     
    Really?
     
    Fucking genius for him to go all alone looking for stupid pages while Slender man is out to kill you. Yup. What could go wrong?
     
    He actually deserves to be taken away or what ever it is that Slendy does to him victims. I would love to record a video of me playing slender but I don't know how to do that. Oh well.
     
    Screw you Slender man, you faceless prick.
  14. Despair

    I may not be a brony.

    By Despair,

    So today, I realized something. I don't like any brony music, I am a hateful person, and I don't communicate well with other "hardcore" bronies. I just don't feel like I am that much of a brony. Yes, I love the show My little pony, but just not the stuff the fans do. And shit, bronies originated from 4chan.
     
    I don't know, I love the show and all, but I just don't seem to fit into the brony community. I don't RP, I don't like their music, and bronies are supposed to believe in "love and tolerate" but I haven't seen that happen.
     
    Maybe I just need to associate with more bronies to understand more about them.
     
    I guess what I'm trying to say is, right now, I'm just a fan of the show. Maybe when season 3 starts, I'll get better at this.
  15. Despair

    Why so cereal?

    By Despair,

    Just some random thoughts but why so people find it unusual to laugh a someones own misfortune?
     
    I find jokes about one's self positive in a way. When life gives you lemons make lemon-aid. Make the best of a bad situation.
     
    I make fun of myself and others all the time but nothing too over the top. Well, at least not when joking about others.
     
    Either something is wrong with me or right.
  16. Despair

    A look back.

    By Despair,

    Looking back at when I first joined the forum. I was so much happier back then...
     
    Quite depressing really. To see a happier me having fun and enjoying life as it is. Then seeing myself now. Bitter, lonely, and unable to make good friends or any friends at all.
     
    Who knew so much shit would happen in such little time to change my view on life so much?
     
    I wish I had a second chance...
  17. Despair

    A high school story

    By Despair,

    Have you ever had one of those WTF moments in school?
     
    For me, it was during high school in spanish class. Our regular teacher was out sick, so a substitute teacher was teaching the class that day. The sub didn't really care about what we did in class so I decided to get some sleep. Probably a bad idea but there was nothing else to do. So I slept through the class a little longer then intended. When I awoken, I looked around the class thinking to myself, "Who the fuck are you people?!". It turned out, I slept passed the class period and no one seemed to care to wake me up to go to my next class. NO ONE! So I just got up feeling kind of awkward and just left to lunch since I was already counted absent to my next class.
  18. Despair

    Tumblr and stuff

    By Despair,

    Most people see tumblr as a shit place to post stupid pictures about emo shit like being loved or alone and shit. Well, at least to me. If they wanted that, they should just get an instagram or whatever.
     
    I like Tumblr because it gives me a place to post some random stories I come up with. And I hate people who only blog pictures and nothing else. Whats the point in just posting useless pictures that 100 other people posted already? Why not put meaning in your blogs like stuff with words?
     
    The only reason I got into it was because a friend of mine had started an Ask Me and I made an account to follow him. Then it turned into an opportunity for me to be creative and stuff.
     
    I don't know why I started this. Maybe because I was bored and felt like I needed to vent on things.
     
    Good day/night every one!
     
    Bleh
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