The saddest moments of your life?

[Something Floaty 1,334]

The saddest moment of my life was immediately after I saw Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull in the theater. As I walked outside, back into the harsh daylight of reality, I realized that I had lost ten dollars and two hours of my life, and that no matter what, I was never going to get them back. Tears poured freely down my face, tears of grief so raw and painful I believed they would never stop. I fell to my knees in the parking lot of the movie theater, clenched my fists at my sides and screamed to the heavens until my throat was sore and my sobs of anguish were reduced to the hacking coughs of a man who has died within his very soul. I pleaded with whatever god there might be, with the forces of the universe, to ease my pain, I ranted to the sky about the sorrow and injustice of it all, but my grief never relented, and is with me to this day. 

[Envy 6,169]

I could probably say the entire last 6 and a half years. But I think I can try to narrow it down to specifically late 2007/early 2008.

 

I had just gotten out of high school, and I was so full of hope. Life was looking so good in early to mid 2007... I had eclipsed my stupid teenage melodramatic 'depression' for a bit of happiness for that short time. But it was not to last, for everything would begin to change.

 

It was then that I became frozen in fear and denial, but the level of denial could not stop the sadness... For the denial was just a result of it.

 

Even though there has not been sheer happiness in my life post-2007, I can think of late 2007 (as in November, and December) and early 2008 as being the time I was most shrouded by depression and sadness. When I think back to the time, all I can think of is misery.

 

It was a wake-up call in more than I was talking about above... It also was the time when my grandpa got sick with what would ultimately take his life, the time when my first family dog (from as far as my memory goes back) passed away, and when one of my birds passed away. It was just a time of saying "Life will never be anywhere near the same ever again, post-high school".

[Berrycicle 66]

Ethier December 1 2013, The day my (Great) Aunt died. Or December 5 her funeral. She was like a mom to me, more so than my actual mom.