I Have A Fandom Confession to Make.
I've been thinking about my place in the fandom and community and come to realize something. I did watch the show when I got up the courage, and I did legitimately enjoy it, and still do. I legitimately enjoyed the awesome fan-work and still do.
I feel like I came into this in an academic back in 2011 though. I feel like I was more enthralled with the strangeness and newness of all this and more interesting in learning about the community than being a part of it, and lead me to wear a bit of a mask to try to fit in. That's changed though, I feel like I legitimately became a part of this and some point and mask was no longer a mask and that was a happy moment.
There's also some sadness to it though. I don't know if was the newness, the thrill of the first fitting in, or just my own nostalgia goggles because I was just a teenager fresh out of High-School at the time but I feel like times have gotten hard and I've gotten bitter(and it's a bitterness I don't want) I almost wish I could back and live out those first months again and maybe do something different to prevent my attitude, to retain my optimism about the fandom and stay idealistic, and maybe pray all hell and drama didn't break lose and live that place in shambles.
I guess I'm posting to ask for help. Maybe someone here can help me restore my faith in the fandom and shed my judgemental-ness, and capture some of that old magic again, as stupid as it sounds.
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