My sexuality has been realized over a really long span of time.

It started in fifth grade, November-December 2008. I started liking a guy that was in the class above me. I thought of him a lot, and it got me into thinking "I never knew this kind of thing was real, but what is it called?" Turned out it was my first splurge into an alternate sexuality. It was the first time I had ever experienced romantic feelings in my life, and it was towards another man (I didn't have gender identity issues at the time, well I did but I didn't. I had developed alter egos for certain emotions, and one of them was female. But for all intents and purposes, I was a he). I still know the guy today. In fact, he sits at the same lunch table every day. I poke him a lot He gets irritated, and on the inside I'm giggling so hard in such an effeminate manner. I also have feelings for him still, but I back off because I have a boyfriend. We should know who he is.

My sexuality went through quite a few fluctuations, It normally stabilized on a level leaning towards men, but I still liked women. I still do, but less and less. If you ever visited my profile, you'd know I'm not romantically attracted to them, and that's where I'm going next. The last time I ever had romantic feelings for a woman.

It was seventh grade, early 2011. I liked this girl (she was way beyond my league), and she rejected me. This didn't cause it, but I ended up a few years later figuring out that I didn't like girls that way citing this incident, that was about sophomore year. I had already become a brony by that point.

Nothing really changed for a few years, they went by. I came out openly as bisexual to my classmates freshman year. They tried to ship me with this really girly guy. I never liked him, and I don't. But he does have a really nice boyfriend. (I am not playing that game with the perfect man with his arms around me (metaphorically, haven't seen each other in real life yet), trust me). Then, I figured out what I REALLY was. and I know now that I am a pansexual, leaning towards men slightly still. It took me until early 2015. It took me 6 years to figure out my sexuality in perfect detail. 6 whole years. I also figured out by then I only liked men romantically. I could never date another effeminate person like myself (sure I eat like Twilly did in Twilight Time, I don't wear make-up, and I have way too much body hair... Guess I can relate to Bruce Jenners in the 80's in that way...), and I knew it. It just would not work with me.

So here I am today, my girly (somewhat slutty I admit), nerdy self. A pansexual that only dates other males. Not men. That's way different. But sexually I'm open to a lot of things. Men, women, and everything in between.