I'm making this entry, because I wanted to reflect upon it, as well as the possibility of receiving feedback. During a good majority of my years in middle school, I was timid and I did not have many friends. This led to me being a target for bullies nearly every week. It was absolute suffering, and it even progressed to high school.

After graduating from high school, I thought back on my bad middle school and high school experiences. since then, it convinced me that my inability to defend myself was a sign of weakness. Skipping ahead two and a half years later, my personality has taken a major shift. I'm more of an extrovert, and I'm not afraid to retaliate when attacked verbally or physically.

These changes made me feel like a stronger person, but is introversion with non-retaliation weakness? I still don't know the exact answer to that question. From the day my personality reached the climax of that shift, I forced myself to approach life differently. I relied on both a good moral compass, and my willingness to defend the defenseless came to light. If a friend was treated poorly by someone, It would be a matter of seconds for me to step in and help. If a friend simply wanted someone to talk to, I'd be there.

When I summarized my newfound personality a year or so ago, I noticed that I had a hero complex. I had goals and aspirations to make at least the city that I live in a better place. I wanted to become a police officer, and I still do to this day. My confidence in myself allowed me to focus on ensuring that others felt safe, rather than myself.

Overall, I'm happy with how I've changed. Sometimes I wish I changed earlier, but I keep reminding myself that I wouldn't be the same person today, if i did.

Edit: I may have found the answer, regarding introversion. Sometimes, it takes more strength to simply endure and not retaliate.