Today I have turned 23, feel like the years are just stacking faster and faster. Not much has changed in terms of my life status. Still in school, I have a dead end job, I rarely see my friends(the handful I have) and my family is in constant drama I can't avoid.

I am not depressed today, just really tired. My classes are becoming an annoyance, not that anything is difficult, I just don't have high motivation at this juncture. My first semester ends april 8th... It is divided into two modules. I already finished the first module and got a 4.0. This module is almost done and I'm on my way to getting an A again. But the exams in january are what I care about the most.

I have had it with people lately. I have been questioning my status with long time friends. People I have recently met, people I have been with for almost 2 years, they are going to leave you over one bad little thing they didn't want being said. I was friends with this musician who lives in southern California. He's also a highly intelligent scientist and a hard worker who is making progress toward his goals. He is poor but a persistent man. He decided to cut ties with me over something petty such as referring someone else's work for a different circumstance. There's more to it, but overall he was being a baby and removes my comments from his youtube channel.

Why can't you find honest people anymore? I know unconditional companionship/love exists. But it is like 1 in a trillionth chance.