You know, sometimes I feel down. All of you know this by now. Struggling with depression, hardcore anxiety and other things is indeed brutal. Past couple of days has been that in full. Been feeling really depressed for some reason. When I could climb out of it, I then worry about things and that cycle repeats. It is odd. Still, been trying to stay positive. Trying to think about things like I like, think about those little positives. Like games and such, been thinking about those and looking forward to whatever games I could get to add to my collection. I even got a new awesome case for my 3DS, I was excited even for that. It is such positivity like that, it is what I have always felt before in my life. The type that gets more difficult in the years, but I still hold onto it.

I noticed that one thing that can bring me down is when a game really irritates me. I get frustrated easily at some things, games in particular, but there is a game I finally got, Ark Survival Evolved on Xbox One. It is still in development, but form what I played in the trial, it seemed awesome, though confusing as hell at first. Then I bought it and man, that game just doesn't want me to get into it. The PvE was horrible and PvP I knew would be worse. The game just doesn't run well online. Found the single player though and I was really getting into that, but then the game was throwing random nonsense at me, like level 40 raptors in easy zones. Friggin odd. Still, I am gonna stick with the game because what I have enjoyed, I really have enjoyed. I love the simple joy of gathering materials, and building a place of safety, and slowly but surely making it better. Creating this wonderful haven for yourself. That is what made me want the game and it is definitely what is keeping me at it despite the frustrations.

So yeah, other than that, things have been relatively the same. Been chatting with my wonderful boyfriend of course, he is just perfection. <3 And trying to talk with friends on here when I am not all scattered. I get so mixed up in my mind that it makes it hard to keep up at times. Anxiety is crazy. Still, I do appreciate my friends, that I is something that is always true even if I may seem like I am distant. Also haven't been doing many signatures lately, but I am in a state where I sorta do those at random points, so I don't stress myself out about it. Me stressing myself out happens easily.

Just been wanting to do another one of these rambling posts, haven't done so in a while and it feels good to just say things that are in my head. Been trying very hard to just stay positive in my own way and while that is an immense daily struggle, I find many moments where it does happen.