Another rambling blog. Been a bit since I have done one of these. Oddly enough I ramble, yet for some reason, I need to have a starting point to even make one of these. I am odd. Really, things have been relatively the same overall. I am still doing my usual things such as games, videos, signatures sometimes, things you all know. I still try to go on walks but the weather here in Indiana has been dreadful. Extremely hot and humid, the humidity is what makes it horrid. Bleh. I am excited for the Fall and Winter seasons, my absolute favorites.

Been around the forums as I always am it seems, but still, I sometimes worry about my place. If I am doing enough for the community. I guess I worry because I feel as though I don't have much worth in my regular life, so I try to supplement that here. Goes into my depression. Speaking of, been dealing with that a lot lately. Last week in particular was one where I was having a lot of distressful moments. Wasn't fun, wasn't good. Speaking with my boyfriend though really helped a lot, he is just wonderful. <3 So with the depressive stuff, I told my doctor about it and she upped my dosage on my medicine again. I am hoping that will soon help more, once I pick up the new dosage. I have my doubts on how much this medicine even helps, but I am willing to try it, as it is one of the only things I can do in the long term. With how much I worry, I hope it helps. I am always worrying about something, about being a good friend or whatever.

Sometimes I look at the future from this stuff and feel hopeless, I want to live my simple life and enjoy it but boy, it is difficult at times. One day though, hopefully I can move in with my boyfriend, and that would probably be the best change I could do for my life. Right now it is not entirely possible, but eventually.

On another subject, games! You all know I am a gamer pony. I have been playing a lot of Overwatch lately, though that game has been frustrating the ever living hell out of me, because, of all things, an achievement for Lucio. It is ridiculous. Completely designed against the character. I am sorta dumb so I keep going for this cheevo because Lucio is my main and it is nigh impossible to get. It just doesn't feel fair at all when most of the other achievements in the game are designed for the character rather than against, but whatever. I still enjoy the game for what it is. I also tried some other games, Quatros Origins for the Xbone which is a sorta Tetris style game with 4 playing fields. Really cool concept, but it is surprisingly much harder than regular Tetris, it becomes too much of a guessing game when the blocks start stacking. I don't think it is all that great but it was only $5.

Another game I was finally able to pick up was Chrono Trigger for the Nintendo DS. I started it a couple of days ago and I am enjoying it so far. It really has a very old-school Square vibe, and I have been itching for an old-school style JRPG. This is definitely a game that was originally made in the JRPG hayday. I look forward to playing it more as I keep hearing it is one of the greats and already I am seeing why.

I need to play more Elite Dangerous as well. I really love that game, I absolutely love being able to explore space. The only thing is, the game does feel a tad empty overall. Not just because it is space lol, but also just because there still is a lot they can improve. A lot they can add. I am hoping the game continues to expand more and more, because it can only get better.

One last thing I want to mention is pizza. Yup, pizza. A local store in my town is now serving my absolute favorite type of pizza, Hunt's Brothers. It is so delicious and they have good prices too. Now with like, 4-5 pizza places in town, it is like a pizza competition zone. XD That is what my town feels like. Nice to see my town being something like that though. So far, the store with hunt's Brother's has my vote, but I am sorta biased.

Anyways, I have been rambling on long enough. It is just so nice to be able to get my thoughts out here, you know? I know that many won't read these but just knowing that I am putting my many thoughts somewhere else, it is just comforting. I will try to do more of these in the future. Thank you for reading if you did.