The moon rises, I'm growing to fear it

Darkness serving as a reminder that I haven't escaped this pit

Wondering how the flame that once burned bright is now barely lit

Silence fills the empty space around me, I grow tired and my mind wanders

Wandering... full of questions and regret and pain

Didn't even notice my tears that began to rain down

Can't even fake a smile, at this point- it's a permanent frown

How did this happen? I used to be a king with a crown

Now I've fallen and the world's laughing like I'm a clown

How did I get here? I was happy and hopeful

But now I break down at the thought of being social

I fucking had it all

It hurts to watch myself fall

The world surely does bring you to your knees

You feel immobile when pushed, like you didn't even feel a breeze

Wasn't always like this, but now I'm grown

In a world where you're expected to work through it all alone

Falling behind, I think my gas tank needs a refill

Just like my bottle of pills to satiate the mind of another who's mentally ill

Sometimes it's the only saving grace when everything seems to be going downhill

I wish I was normal, to lead a stable life

Because my own mind is backstabbing me, and I'm the one holding the knife

So I could leave my house without feeling like the world is crumbling down on me

And stop feeling isolated as if I'm lost at sea

A prisoner of my own mind and I want to be free

It comes back to the question, how did I become this?

I miss being younger, before I fell into this abyss

Suddenly, ringing fills my head, the thoughts turn to static

and I'm pulled out of my mind as the worries become erratic

The night is growing darker and my head is left pondering

I can't sleep with all these thoughts in my mind, wandering.