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I'm Going Back To Work

EpicEnergy

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I applied for another job. This is actually the first application I sent in since around January 2020. The reason I haven't sent in any applications since then is because I worked a job from February 2020 - June 2020. I haven't put in any job applications from June 2020 until now even though I've been unemployed since then because I've been feeling extremely depressed and discouraged. It's unfortunate, because I've had depression since around January 2018. I know the job I applied for is going to be tough, because anything is tough because of this depression that I've had for so long. If I don’t get the job, I’ll apply for more, but I’m hoping I’ll get the job. I applied for full time because I’m only taking one college class right now.

The problem is getting a job isn't going to help me get out of this depression. It isn’t going to change the fact that I don’t have enough motivation to complete college. It isn’t going to make me feel better. It isn’t going to help me find my purpose in life. Some may think getting a job is a step forward and will help me, but I think it doesn’t. The last job I worked made me feel really depressed and every job I’ve had I had end up leaving in one way or another. The only reason I’m getting a job is because my parents are running very low on money and I’m living with them.

Right now I hate life, but with a job I’m going to hate life even more. Getting a job is going to cause me so much stress and anxiety. It is going to cause me so much pain. And it’s not even worth it.

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Flying Pencil

@EpicEnergy, I'm sorry you feel that way about life. If you want to talk to me, you can. I suggest a coping mechanism to calm yourself down when your stressed out or anxious. Even though I'm only in high school and I don't have job yet, I feel you. I just want to let you know that I'm here and everyone else is here for you. Life might slam you into the ground, but you have to get up. As Maya Angelou would say "You will face many defeats in life, but never let yourself be defeated". 

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Props Valroa

I've never worked a day in my life yet. I am graduating in 2021. I am dreading it, if anyone can do it, so can you, and so can me. Its...not great but its stuff we just have to do.

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Evil Pink One

Please, when choosing a job... Try enjoying it.

What job do you think you'll enjoy? Dont think of the pay... Pay is not worth the stress ever.

Have you tried a job that requires manual labor? Maybe pumping your muscles and heart might kickstart something? Or find something relaxing?

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EpicEnergy
17 hours ago, Flying Pencil said:

@EpicEnergy, I'm sorry you feel that way about life. If you want to talk to me, you can. I suggest a coping mechanism to calm yourself down when your stressed out or anxious. Even though I'm only in high school and I don't have job yet, I feel you. I just want to let you know that I'm here and everyone else is here for you. Life might slam you into the ground, but you have to get up. As Maya Angelou would say "You will face many defeats in life, but never let yourself be defeated". 

Thank you for the advice, and I'll try to find a coping mechanism to calm myself down when I'm stressed or anxious.

16 hours ago, Tacodidra said:

*hugs* I hope things improve for you soon, my friend! :kindness: I hope you find a job you like better soon.

Thank you. *hugs back*

11 hours ago, Califorum said:

I've never worked a day in my life yet. I am graduating in 2021. I am dreading it, if anyone can do it, so can you, and so can me. Its...not great but its stuff we just have to do.

Yes, work is unfortunately something we all have to do. And good luck with school and a job.

7 hours ago, Kujamih said:

Please, when choosing a job... Try enjoying it.

What job do you think you'll enjoy? Dont think of the pay... Pay is not worth the stress ever.

Have you tried a job that requires manual labor? Maybe pumping your muscles and heart might kickstart something? Or find something relaxing?

I might enjoy a job that involves working on computers, but those jobs require a college education and I'm just not able to complete college at this moment because of depression and lack of motivation.

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Evil Pink One

Who said you need college education for that? Then try finding a computer job that dosn't require you that. Or bargain with them... Get less pay or what not, you have to sweet talk yourself in an interview or your resume.  Do you have the skill? Or are you confident with your skills? Or what you can do is climb your way to that work...

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Misty Shadow

I truly hope things will improve for you soon, and getting a job again is a definite step in the right direction. You won't enjoy it now, but you'll thank yourself for it later. :coco:

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