I had a good today, but now I am in hell. I slowly started to feel a pain in the left side of my head (under and around my eye, spreading over the left side of my head and jaw). I had asked my dad earlier (before I went for a shower and got ready for bed) if he wanted me to go to the shop for anything (booze). He said no. He said no.

So, shower, shave, get ready for an early night as the pain is building slowly. I decided to change the sheets because I wanted to feel comfy.

I had just stripped the bed when I had my name shouted by my dad.

"Would you mind-"

"NO, I'm going to bed"

"Please son, your mother and I-"

"Fine"

He gave me the money and I went to the shop. On the way, the pain increased. My dad was in the habit for a while of calling me a stupid times to run to the shop to get vodka for him and my mum. I was fine doing it once in a while, but he turned it into a habit a habit.

I started getting a wee bit pissed off at that, so he stopped.

He is starting again.

And the pain in my head wants me to beat his skull in with a steel bar. I am that angry.

Can't concentrate.

So yeah, got the booze, dumped it at the door to their bedroom with his change and ran upstairs.

I know they don't deserve this. This rage isn't me. I don't want to be thiss angry, but my brain is finding reasons for me to be angry.

I can't see straight.

Look, if you read this, just tell me that you read it and you understand. You don't need to offer me any advice, or even talk to me (you wouldnt want to ) I am shaking as i type this andI am resist punching the wall put my fist through it.

Please just tell me you read this and understand that I am angry!