I won't be making more art threads.
I won't be quitting as an artist but it is pretty much what the thread's title says. Recently, I've been feeling a big disconnection with the site. It can be due a lot of different factors that I won't get into because that's another separate issue, or just not about them at all. The important thing is that I don't feel interested.
I keep logging on, but my routine is always the same, daily I always log on, but keep my mlpforums tab in the index for hopes of new notifications, as expected, nothing. And it makes sense because I don't post a thing during the day, yes, a few posts here and there in the pictures thread. But what I'm saying is that I have no interest, no will to discuss the show or other things in the forums, not even the forums games. I really don't know if I am in that phase of "growing up". This seems like a good bye blog entry but it's not, because I feel like I still have a connection with the fandom, and I do it through art, I love drawing ponies and it became like a natural thing of mine, drawing pony bodies over everything else.
Why am I mentioning all of this? well, the lack of posts of mine have had it's consequences and affects when I make an art thread, I feel like a stranger, like a new member when I post art now because only the veteran members know me, but not the new ones.
I remember when I used to post art threads in a frequent pace, it was thrilling to see your comments and feedback, and I always will be thankful for your appreciation, really. But recently the feedback that I've been getting while it wasn't bad, it was poor, yes it was very poor compared to the feedback that I used to get before.
I seem like an attention whore, yes I am, I seem like a prideful bitch, yes I am, Butthurt? yes I am!
I'm like this because you convinced me that I was a good artist, and I bought that from you and I believe it, not only that, but I have gotten better over the months. And then, when I'm back to posting some stuff I don't get the reception that I expect. Yes, I do have expectations. When I was used to get like 25, 30 broohofs and 2 pages of comments, now I get like 8 brohoofs, and 5 or 6 comments. This seems like nothing, but it does affect me and it upsets me greatly, especially if I make my post look creative and also post one of the best artworks I've ever made. Getting a golden star at the corner of my post because I got roughly 10 brohoofs it's just not enough, I know it sounds selfish. I appear to be upfront and direct when I talk to other users but deep inside I'm fragile, even the things that you wouldn't expect to get me affected, they actually do. And each time I post something on my deviantART, I think, should I post this on MLPforums? before, I posted most of my artworks here, but now, I think about it a lot and end up not doing it, and I feel like I don't want to experience more disapointment, I know I am making look bad the people that commented on my threads, but I want you to understand me as an artist.
When you're at the peak, and you see yourself falling down without any advice, you feel bad, sad and vulnerable. So yeah, I won't be updating here my new artworks, if you want to be updated about it, check my deviantART or tumblr, both on my profile.
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