This post is from a while back... I still feel some of the frustrations but not all of them. It is a reminder to stop and breath. You only live today once, tomorrow is always a new day.

So I went to my mom's work to get a hug and she wasn't even working, so feeling discouraged I trudged home only to find the door open which freaked me out. Turns out my bf's sister came over with a couple little ones so I couldn't escape to my work. They are coming over in a couple of hours and I fear I will not be able to get my work done. She wants my help casting her babies foot and hand prints, which I will do but I just can't seem to get work done and it's so frustrating, on top of it she sometimes leaves me alone with the kids wich normally is not a problem but yesterday I wasn't so sure of like I dunno I guess how I feel. I don't wanna have a weird loughing or crying freak out in front of kids. URG no oone seems to understand or see what I am going through and it kinda bothers me. I feel like I have no support from my man. I feel so alone and stuck. All I wanna do is work my way outta this rut and continue on with my dreams, but man lately it seems like it;s the hardest thing in the world. I have no money I am barely able to support myself, my parents can't help me, I wouldn't expect them too, I mean I moved out a couple years ago, I am not their problem any more and they wouldn't be able to help me all that much any way. So yeah I feel a little stuck.

I appreciated the comment and support I have been getting, this community is soooo wonderful.

I love and appreciate all of you <3

I just gotta remember to keep calm and pony on!

Nighty, night fellow pony lovers