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Well all I can say is follow for heart warming friendship, a fabulous journey, or possibly RPing

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Let's play a game!

Alright so let's play a game, I am bored and sick of crap. This game is called what's up? As the game progresses more will probably be up!   1st drink- well that passed and happened I am now on 3 :S   3rd drink... I am so sick and tired of money. Money makes the world go a round and it sucks... you know why because I have none. I have a place to stay, addictions to feed, now 5 cats to feed thanks to my wonderful ex. Yup by by money... at least I am quitting smoking and not doing a half bad job.   4th drink- oh yeah I forgot to mention that my drinks are at least 2-3 shots of vodka, and just enough to coke to change the drank colors. Not the drug, the pop. I can't do the drugs no more. I work.. On another note my temp work has restricted my hours because me and my roommate could be in a relationship because we live together.. we are both sales associates and nothing more... the bs is real. So now we are making less because of what could be... god this sucks. So now we either have to fake break up or decide if we wanna do what the company expects us to do (fuuuuuu) no pun intended lol. Anyways so that means way less money and we don't make a whole lot as it is. So now I have to find a camp job and figure out when I can start working on a rig because it makes sense to live together so costs are lowered, but sense makes not when hours get reduced because we live together... so now to breed or not to breed... welp I just got out of a 2 and a half year relationship. I wonder if this said person will check my blog??? I kind of hope he does... See we were together and yes, IRL and he made an account so that he could see if I was talking about him or posting nudes on a pony site or something... I don't know, but he didn't trust me.   Yes said 21 year old man who works at walmart did not trust me his love and someone willing to give everything to him... because apparently he was a keeper. anywhore now I need another drink   Drink 7- so i downed a couple to keep up with my mental sanity.... this dinker that I had been with and given everything to be with. I loved the guy, only ever loved one other who wasn't my daddy... I mean we were engaged for crying out loud. at least he proposed, gave me a ring and we would let everyone know when we were more financially stable and ready sort of thing... Now I went to school, finished school and was there for a total of 3 months, 2 weeks prior to me finishing, he called to let me know a week ago he cheated and dumped me... yup that was nice. To top it all off he dumped me for someone who worked with him.... I am not stupid I had known things were going on prior to me going to school.... but with someone at walmart! Like come on dude.... Once I get a job in my trade I am making 6 figures, like really? Smart move. So now I am hurt, and while I am down I decided hey friend, let's cut costs and live together. Me and said friend live together, company we work for finds out and slaps us because we could be dating so now hours are cut and I am not in my trade! I am not a whore.... any more..... so why are people fucking me over??? Like come on if ya wanna take a ride you gotta pay! This is stupid, nothing comes for free so why does my love apparently cost nothing... I mean me and friend aren't together! Why are we then? Nothing makes sense and it is all dumb.   I have come to the conclusion that life hates me because in my past life I was a very bad person..     Alright, so I am done bitchin and if you enjoyed my random rambles lemme know, if not and somehow you made it to the end and you are now seeing this well good on ya. If you want some free art I wanna drunk draw someone's OC I have 4 slots available so first come first serve.

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

The Lady Behind Aixi

Hey guys, this is moi   I know I am sexy. Me and my girl went out for a photoshoot, she is best photographer <3         Lemme know what you think and what we should do next! Thinking of a few cosplays amoungst other things. So gimme some feedback

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Break Ups are Hard :'(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8LIRtPnuA8 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBsEF7Qx09o     Fuck people! Fuck them all! I do   Yeah I am a whore, I am a drug addicted hoe. You don't wanna know the things I have done to support my habbits.... they would make you sick. We don't walk there alone though. No laddies, we walk to it hand in hand with all of our problems. We turn to our pimps because there is not another way out. We did not just ask for it. We were lead there.   This is my lead.... Thank you babe, with out you I would have never been a whore. I will never miss you     Hey Alaynna; Two things: I got the letter back which I sent to your grandpa. It didn't get through. (he sent my grandparents a letter about my fathers death... like fuck off)   Secondly: Do you have anything from me still? I would like to get some of the stuff back which I gave you as it is proving to be a need in some cases. I would pick it up in August as I am in Germany til July. Is there anything I have of yours which you would like back? (dude It has been over 3 years since you left... I don't have your shit... I hawked the valuables for drugs to cope with the fact you abandoned me with a child... a dead one at that. You abused me mentally and physically, and you are an asshole)   Sincerely; John M. E.         To John:   Go fuck yourself. ~A sad little hoe

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Take a Walk With Me ~See what it's like to be me~ PP

Alright, so this is going to be a long entry maybe? It's going to touch on many different topics that not all people will agree with. I encourage you to leave comments and your own oppinions, however, no picking on anyone who leaves their oppinion. I don't care about me, I am fine with who I am, but the moment someone starts shit infront of me is the moment we are going to have a problem... So, we all have a voice, if you want use it, but under no circumstances is anyone to name names*   Just a precaution before I jumped in to just wrighting. People either love it or they hate it. I am not trying to start anything, I just am who I am.   Aight so this is not going to be edited, I do appologize for the bad grammar and spelling.... ma bad   We are taking a stoned adventure though my mind. So without further speculation let us venture forth into the chaotic web of crazy that has become the mind of the fabulous and utterly amazing Purple Pony. ~yes, I know... I am a mouthful   I am not quite there.... gimme a sec.....   ~~~~~~~~~~~~~There I am now?" there~~~~~~~~~~~~ Lol close^^^^^ xD   Currently I am listening to music that at one point spoke to me. I feel like some are new and exciting, while others meaning has changed. I hope some change once again but I won't go there right now. To protect people and their feelings I am not using any names in this post, as this is not anything but me and my oppinion and my thoughts and facts. (yall gonna hate, hate on me)       https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5kXaviCBrJE it gives me great joy hearing this song, I remember not wanting more. I remeber being content with screwing myself. Now I mean this both literally and figurativly speaking. We all have needs. I rushed into this relationship and this is the song that just jit with us.. just this cute love and it looks so perfect and fun and then all of a sudden it doesn't work out to be quite what you thought it would be. It feels like a smack to the face, the smile is both happy and knowing, I wear it with pride and confusion. It is the same confusion I once had before.           https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAWcs5H-qgQ This one is past me, not to this extent but quite close. It is something I still struggle with, something I want to go back to, something I miss. Perhaps it's just thhe past that I miss, but it was easy and satisfying. It was life. I am better than that now, I don't regret it or anything I did or anything that happened. I don't want to go back but it seems I want to. I just want to feel again. This would ruin everything. I can not, but I want. To hurt is to feel, to feel is to live. I just don't care, but then I do. It tears and one side will eventually win. I am sorry. I can't do everything and make everything work.... no one will be happy in the end.           https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fngvQS_PmQ Mmmmmmm Legalis (or however you spell his name) I can't even begin to explain the things that we would do and perhaps did do...... Oh the interesting memories.My obsession with him turned into a LOTR obsession, and then a Hobbit obsession lol. This song explains an unachievable feat. This song has been my new inspiration for my RP, as I write I feel this song. The words "I hope that you will remember me." rings through my ears. I will finish this, no matter how long it takes. For my guilty pleasure... it feels beautiful <3 I know it has changed a lot, however the roots remain the same and it is nice to see a small constant that has stayed with me. I will finish             https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pLvq_1Rx95Y This one is slightly embarassing.... I haven't sung this song in a very long while. I don't know if I can. I feel sad, guilty, but some how there feels like hope. Maybe the stars will shine for a future, but they have been dim for a very long time. It is not you it is me. You need something better. I am no good, I am nothing you should want, nor deserve. You want a good girl, you don't need someone like me. I am sorry this probably isn't what you wanted to hear... The song makes me sad because I will always love you, it's just too bad. Maybe one day the stars.... but I can tell you now they won't :'(               https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Up06CryWQpE It wouldn't even matter if I mentioned your name here.... you will not ever see this. I am ok with this... You remind me of the things I always fall for. True you are stability, but everything else tells me no. Let it go... he has to go. He is on a journey to better his life. I know you would do anything and give up anything to have a shot with me..... but I just can not jump into a relationship again, spend years of commitment only to have to pick up the pieces and move on.. It wouldn't be you either, honestly it is me.. I am so sorry for this. I should tell you but I can get it out, perhaps I like you but you are moving forward in your life, don't not because of me, I won't work.. I am far past broken. Sorry </3               https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQmEd_UeeIk To all the nameless boys, and girls I have hurt..... I know there are a few of you. I care about all of you. All of you are cool... I am sorry it didn't work, but thanks for the night out. I just want to find myself and my own happiness, honestly thank you             https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnQ8N1KacJc   Tears no longer well up in my eyes... perhaps I am speaking too soon... I will see by the end of the song. I used to bawl when I heard this song. It portrays my idea of death so well and I just didn't get how a song could connect with me that much and make me feel so guilty for not be 'sad' and mourning the way i was expected to. I will forever miss you Danny, but you taught me the value of life. It was not imediate but it finially sunk in. May you rest in peace, but I will not make the mistakes you did. It was not worth dying. ps.... no tears, wow             QuirkyUsername Clockwork ChaosI seriously am so greatful for you guys, this is our song <3 I love you both very much. You both have helped me in a really weird way that I will forever be greatful for...         This song is a gooder I liked it back when I was an escort makin dollars for my addictions... it was my crawling out of the darkness song. I could maybe love myself............. Flashforward to where I am now and realizing that nothing has changed..... I am who I am and I will always be this.... I will always be me </3         So here it is, without the music, with out the fluff. I was this care free young lady who took chances, grabed the wrong ones in hopes that I would not be left behind. I asked you to call me later. but in the end our love was not to be, you sent me into a downward spiral. It was what I wanted I wanted to love and to feel. Soon you learn to not feel because it hurts less. The pain of the past that every soul carries with them.. I ran and hid behind things like speed, mdma, ectasy, and many other drugs. In order to support my escape I took opportunities. I soared high with the A team. It felt great not to have to feel, to close my eyes and see a better life, to not feel pain, it was all I wanted. Then I realized we are all under the upper hand. There is no winner in this cruel thing called life.   I crawled away from drugs*, addictions, habbits and opportunities, but you can't come out of that whole... I watch the flames, they burn over life. I see fire. I see death and unpassable obsticles. However I have come to realize that no matter how dead I feel I affect others, I only hope that you all wil remeber me when I am gone. I am getting to close to the flame and although I got out I want back in. because I see life not being worth anything. People came into my life and saved me. By being there the fire I saw was extinguished. I got better and felt like I was better than I once was..   I have found many people I love, I am going to hurt most of you. In the end I don't think any of you will 'win' or be happy with me.I don't think anyone will to be ...honestly.... and to all of you I am sorry... There are so many names... I am sorry But to all of you honestly I do not think it was you.. I am just a no good whore. There is nothing about me anyone should want, I made too many wrong turns and I am afraid I am running out of gassoline. going around in circles... I am about burnt out. I know I have to let it go and many of you have shown me this. I just don't think it's enough or worth it.   In the end, the very end. I don't think it is a costume I can just take off. I am destined to be used. Destined to fade away. I am sorry, so sorry to you all.   Forever I will walk hand in hand with Anna, and Mia. Forever I will walk with my bruises and wounds. They are who I am. I no longer know love, or sadness. I simply do not care, the feels are gone. Like I said it's not you. It is the fact that I am used and hurt and broken... I no longer can belong to anyone, there's just not enough left to claim.       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~       Alright, so there... that is me in all my shame I feel nonw, I am who I am... It's just realizations and interesting moments that has brought about my crazy confusion. If it wasn't for these events though, I would have realized later just how damaged I truly am.   ~PP

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Ranking YOU

I am leading a horde of evil minions, all of which are important to me so I should rank them no? I'll do that in a sec. What may be odd... maybe I shall have a female rule with me! *possible video cumming soon (lol I noticed this unfortunate typo reading over it.... I think it stays ). What's odd about this? It's real life... so we may start videos together... a youtube channel perhaps? That means growing our reign!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! Taking over the world= a piece of cake My evil minions contributing to the society of evil: http://mlpforums.com/topic/88929-evil-minion-sign-up/   We are always accepting.   Minion's +rank: Wayzer aka Kronk Right hand Commanding officer to The Lord Queen Her Majesty RoguesWolfe aka PrivateTatsu Evil Nightmares aka Comanding officer of project S1 Pinkmena Charcoal Embers aka Comanding officer of project Sabeleye Whiskers The Author aka Second in command, Swanky, overseeing opperation Sabeleye Commander Tangent aka Fluffy Chief Grunt mrerik314 aka Shy guy grunt   The rankings were determined by what they sent me, a pic video, w/e that is how placing works the best show of devotion gets to start off best. This being said, rankings will change periodically as minions grow and begin to concur the world, as welll as minions who join. It is possible to have your rank stripped and be demoted.   So your first task as my minions is to establish a way of communication between acting members. The person who comes up with the best idea will be rewarded.     If you are looking to get in on this New World you may submit me something, anything here: http://mlpforums.com/topic/88929-evil-minion-sign-up/     Your Queen, Her Lord Majesty, ~PurplePony

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Work.... It Goes... Interesting? lmao

Alright, alright. Just got back from drinks with my work buddies... we were celebrating getting through work with out killing someone! xD   In all honesty it's not bad it's just a punch to the ego.. You know? They even treat us like that... as if working in fast food as an adult (Just general employee nothing special) All we want is some respect..   So in honour of our ability to plaster a smile on our faces and make light of our situations I raised my glass! lol to work and not killing people!

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

My Almost Goodbye

*Quick edit this was written when I was really down and not sure what on earth I was going to do. I had a lot of conflicting emotions. The thing is, I realized I had to take my own advice. That was a hard pill to swallow. I was wrong, I am still here but this is a bit of what was up #eatinghumblepie   Hey guys this could be my last entry here on this forums. Now before you get mad. Please take a second to at least listen and hear me out. I am not leaving because people are mean, or I stopped liking mlp. I feel a lot of emotions surrounding RP's and people.   My OC or ponysona Aixi was born in a round about way. It was never intended but it happened. I am very happy with my boys and what they did with her story it was fantastically wonderful! Stuff happens. I have completed RP's and I haven't. I was really hoping it would be one that got the attention. Unfortunatly I think I am going to have to shelf it. For now that one is broke. Whatever, I will pick up the scattered remains of my heart and fix it later No big deal. *NOW k so now after I took some time to breath and just step back and realize what I was about to throw away. Yes Aixi is my baby. I intentionally backed away from her and her story. In all honesty at that moment in time it just hurt me too much. I cried everytime I wrote and I was begining to portray a character that I did not want to and that bothered me. After a step back and a good look at what was going on, I believe I have a better handle on my emotions and where me and my boys should take the story. It would be wrong to rob myself and my crew of this opportunity, We have become a family of sorts. I want to take the time to say each and every one of them has helped me in some way, they have all helped me significantly I owe them so much......... If only they knew. Honestly they could have saved my life. I owe you guys lots, you have made me a better me. I am so grateful for you all and I love you all so much. Please forgive me for my dumb stupidness. I have been careless as of late and I am sorry, Here is my word, and that is to revamp, restart our journey from where we left off and go out with a LOUD BANG! You all rock and I know we got this. Again thanks. If you (my RP crew wanna know more on what happened send me a PM I will tell you there... It's just not for others eyes and each person impacted me differently.)           The other parts well. I just can't deal with! People, I can't just make a choice! I have none to make at this point. I am stuck and I can not do anything. The choice isn't mine to make. I am making myself myserable. So perhaps my time here is done. Maybe it's just time to throw the towel in. Either way I need to think about stuff. *This is one that is frustrating.... but ever so slowly my choices are getting better so I will try to remain hopefull for the best and not be so negative. I really hate when I get down on myself.     So yeah, no pitty please. I don't want it. I am ranting to myself ATM and I guess I will decide later. ***So I ranted and thought, let you see my raw emotions (don't judge too hard pls) and I came to a conclusion, I will stay, I will work, and I will give back to those who helped me when I couldn't see anything but darkness

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Crazy Thoughts of the PurplePony <3

Ok so I haven't done one of these for a while but something or many things are on my mind. You will have to excuse me for a my bad grammar or spelling. I am not going back to delete a thing. If you care to read cool these are my scattered brain thoughts for the moment.   In this "excersize" I am going to write for 30 min. straight. It may be boring, it could be good I don't know, depends who you are I suppose.   Alright I will start, have you ever just wanted life? Have you ever just wanted to breath freely knowing that you are protected? I know I will have that and I am super stoked for it one day soon   Another thing that I will kind of mention but not really due to controversy and really strong oppinions on this site... but that thing that I was doing, well I broke.. and it is about time that I start again. Here goes nothing xD   My bf is an ass hat, he meowed at the cat and I looked over.... he laughed *facepalm *meow   My RP is falling apart. My baby is gone. In retrospect I can only blame myself. Now it is not gone yet but it might as well be at this point. I need people to join or ppl to get interested in the story once again.... If not I will reboot it. If it's even worth it at the moment I am unsure. I wanted to do so much art, I wanted to make it into an animated series lol. I would have too.. I can only blame myself. But reguardless it is frustraiting. I don't think I could resarect her either. She would be gone forever. I wrote that my father in the RP had died... 2 min later I get this call that my IRL dad had passed away. he was 45. This story, this OC became a weird part of me. She is my OC, my ponysona, it touches my heart in a really weird way and I feel like I am just closer to my dad. I don't think I could re write that, nor do I think I can. Her story has already been born. I can't just restart it. It could never be the same.   So I suppose that would be that and I would never write as her again. It would be crushing and heartbreaking. Honestly, that made me tear up a little. But it would be symbolic reguardless.   As one falls closer to it's end another rises up out of the ashes. The group reminds me a lot of the other one before stuff went down. I just won't make the same mistakes.Shit happens and that's ok.   Other than that I am feeling numb, a little sceptical, yet hopeful and excited. I feel that life is going to pick up and start being better. Not only that but it just looks that way. Now the only thing that stand in the way of all my success......... perhaps it's me?   If I can change me by myself, become a better me and succeed in life, well then shitfucktittesbatman! I think I know what I gotta do           Alright, that's my time limit for now, just in time, it was getting weird lol. Anyway, feel free to comment on my blogs as always it is appreciated, and also if you have a possible topic for a story, even just one word, tell me and I will write something sometime if it peaks my interest I also draw so if you want me to maybe draw something, again post your idea in the comment section below, Your comment maybe featured in my next blog!   Thanks for reading

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

The REAL Problem

Hey so I just deleted this old post... won't be as good as the last but what ever I didn't write all that long anyway *Insert pissy face* ... I hate that.   So I wanna talk about respect yo! I feel all of us, yes me too, I am wrong too. I will admit that. But why cant we see that everyone is? That both sides are wrong in every situation. This is always the case. Now why can't we all be decent humans be all like oh hey! I am wrong, oh yeah, man you know what? I wronged you too. Wellshitfucktittiesballs man, I am sorry man.   You all get what I am saying...?  

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

All the Love

Aight so I got a problem. I am a slightly attractive gal who has many crushing on her....I have many ppl in my life who I love. I love all my friends dearly. You can lose so quickly.. In an instant life can be gone. I know this first hand. So I make it a point to love.   Now maybe I love some more than I wish to and I wish you* wouldn't give up.....   The thing is I got a bf... Dunno if it'll work or not. We haven't been good like we once were for a while. I know we both feel this way we just can't get past it. We talk about it often. I believe in being completely honest with ppl in affairs concerning the heart. I just want to love and be loved.. To be cherished and held is all I want. It's all I ever could ask for.   Now I am at a loss for words. It seems perhaps I have loved and hoped too much. Reality shatters everything and leaves me feeling broken, angry, and alone. If you read this you will probably hate me more.. I can't lie I love and care about you. I have thought about doing many bad things with you. I want, I do.   Right now I am so confused and I feel weird because I miss you and I care about you... and I think that maybe I hurt you. Just know that wasn't my intentions and I am so sorry if you feel angry, or hate me even. Heck I couldn't blame you if you did... Just know I care. I care a lot about you.   Now to be honest you applies to 3 ppl...1 not on this site, 2 on this site.. I know you two both know who you are, I know you know each other... Please try not to take offense to this boys I really do love you and could see us being together   The truth is I dunno what I am eating tomorrow, if I eat at all... Let alone who I will be with. Life is an adventure and what you make of it. Anything is possible and anything can happen. The thing is I just don't know, do you?

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Punk Princess <3

Hey guys so this is what the lady behind the blogs looks like.   I was feeling punky and rather couragous. I hope you enjoy                 P.S. Yeah, I am dangerous And yeah that is from Legend of Zelda Majora's mask. I just wish I could go out clubbing tonight!

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Suicide :(

So many members of my family have commited suicide. I will forever and always miss you my dear cousin Danny. Why it was worth it I will never know, but I will always remeber you, our last conversation, a sickening crash and then silence. I will not ever forget you </3   The song played at his funeral. It was what he enjoyed playing on the guitar.  

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

To Do:

Because I haven't been the most faithful to some of my plans I am now posting my to do list publicly... It makes me feel like I have to do it.   1. send out emails for pubcrawls, limo's and advertising. 2. Post in Time that Bonds. 3. Finish Character and it's page. 4. Start new RP 5. Sell a pinata? 6.Try to not be stupid*   Things That Should be Done but I Think it Can Wait: 1 Cat Box 2. Sleep 3. Food 4. My pokemon game </3 5. Getting dressed??   * Don't think it's possible. xD   Alright I will hopefully get all this done

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

To my love <3

I wonder if you woul ever persue me.... I love you my speecial somepony. I love you <3 I do with all my heart, which is odd for me because I don't do interweb relations, but I find myslef loving you more and more each day. Should I go after you??? I wonder?... hmmm

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Hearts and Hooves Day.... :(

Now before you think I am whining because I don't have a special pony. That is not the case. My special pony is working tonight. All I wanted was a cup of tea and I love you... Think I got any of that? No... Made me a little sad. I am not all that needy but I love you would have been nice. Boogey you will always have a special place in my heart I love you, wish I heard it more but I do.   So I have a crush. I have had a crush on a pony here for a long while now. I don't think you will read this I don't expect you to.... But my Hearts and Hooves day crush is Mr. Critical... You are my special pony. You will always be and I love you. You have helped me get through so much, I am forever grateful to you, my special pony.... wish you knew how special you were to me. I love you man <3

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Randome Rambles

Random convo's with Mr. Critical lol I love our randome chats xD   Bingle bongle dingle dangle woah man so off topic, the sexy wolf thing whats up with that? I don't know, what the balls that is I just wanna cuddle naked with a wolf. They would die of dehydration, do you think you would like it you were covered in thick black fur?? No! No you would not Oh my jezus crist I know that song...     Lol ugio destroyed it I knew the origional by heart but I can't do this one yet... You'lll die!!! It'll be worth it what really??? ................... .... longestpause good god is it still going??? Guy who play 10th doctor in harry potter!!~!!~ WTF This is seriously all pokemon (song) Wtf No snacks for slaves Jinx was black but now is purple!!! Understandable. No But blacks are people too Mr popo makes me sad but if you are going to have an issue with orrigional content do not post it!!!! 4 min in!!! Rapping pirates, go into the corner be all like no, no I think of the pirates who don't do anything. Christians are awful people!! Well I hope you are going to have trouble catching those pokemon!! POOPER SCOOPERS!! Smoke break lol nm I want a new pokemon yellow!!! I think yellow was just too dark...... convo dies just like that kids Raticate......

PurplePony

PurplePony

 

Red tears

Blinking rapiidly holding back the tears, the anger the regret, and fear. Never again will I do this I am sorry to make you cry. One last time to shed the hate to be rid of all of the loathing and self hate. Crying red tears, I realease all of my fears It is gone, all gone, and I will have rejoined you once more by your side where I belong. I am coming home, I didn't mean to leave you all alone. But cry no more your baby girly is hear once more. I won't leave you this time, I will join you forever this time.   To the one who caused this pain, I really hope you are happy and can live with yourself.. I know I couldn't       Yes this talks about death. Yes this means death. Yes I want to die.. Just do yourself a favor and don't respond to this. It's not cry for help. I am not going to go kill myself, I want to I really do but I dealt with those demons long ago. I find writing to be a better alternative. So yes, this is purely an outlet... Now I am going to go and distract myself before some self ritous ass hole decides to comment and I do off my self becuase you know what??? I am going to find all of you ass holes, and before I die I am going to slit your throat and make you choke on your words that hurt so many people. How dare you push someone so low! How dare you.. If I find you, run.

PurplePony

PurplePony

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