Sazama Ichida

This has become a recurring problem, so I'm going to say this here. Please do not send me a friend request unless I know you and we've spoken before or unless you want to RP with me. If we are compatible for roleplay and end up working something out, or have spoken before and gotten along, then a friend request is acceptable. Please keep in mind that RP is the only thing I can do to hang out with online friends since I'm terrible at videogames.

My personality? Well I am quite eccentric...I like to think of myself as reserved and introverted but openminded...And I'm definitely a very generous and honest person. But I'm not exactly what you call a social butterfly. If I have not messaged you it's because I'm just sort of the type who doesn't message someone unless they message me first. I guess you could say I'm just sort of what you call a "recluse". But that doesn't mean that I'm not willing to talk to you. If you ever wanna talk just message me anytime.

Also I suffer from Autism and Asperger's Syndrome. And because of that I may not understand sarcasm or figures of speech. I also show many symptoms of ADD, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, and Bipolar Disorder. It's possible to have all of them at once. And I'm certain I do.
I was only diagnosed with Autism and Asperger's but I feel sure I have all the others. I also have Depression, Insomnia, and Separation Anxiety. So please be as patient as possible with me.

Some people think that I have a bad temper but I just get really irritated when people get stubborn with me when I know that they're wrong. I have VERY low tolerance for stubborn/hardheaded people, stupidity, and closedmindedness... (- _ -; But if you don't judge me then I won't judge you. I'll be nice to you as long as you're nice to me.

As some of you already know, I suffer from Autism. But not just Autism. PTSD from abuse. And because of Autism, I may not understand sarcasm or figures of speech. I also show many symptoms of ADD, ADHD, OCD, and Bipolar Disorder. It's possible to have all of them at once. And I'm certain I do.
I was only diagnosed with Autism, Asperger's and PTSD but I feel sure I have all the others.
I also have Depression, Insomnia, and Separation Anxiety. So please be as patient as possible with me.

And I have some...trouble being social...I'm sort of socially awkward, you know...stuff like social anxiety. You'll likely notice it at some point. That's Autism for you. I may be too afraid to approach someone that I'd like to RP with, or simply don't want to say anything in the room due to a constant feeling that I will be judged silently, or somehow step on somebody's toes. And I may not pick up on most social cues. I far prefer getting along. And past experience and a life of being a game-focused and RP-focused shut-in hasn't really helped me all that much with those issues. But with patience and effort I can certainly warm up to regular people, especially if they share any common/personal interests with me, or happen to be highly capable in a certain field and/or activity I've grown curious about.

It's something that I struggle with more often than not. While this is a weakness of mine including having more than my fair share of difficulties with intuitive learning in this department, I'm very well capable of learning what to do and what not to do as long as someone tells me straight up what they're comfortable with and not comfortable with.

I've neglected to mention that my general life for me has recently become more stressful as of 2020. On top of the failure of some people both well meaning and not, it's come to my attention that I'm pretty much going to be forced to lay out an important fact about myself that vastly affects not just how I simply act, but my entire actual life as a whole since it's become apparent that some of my actions and reactions are serving to drive some of the good people I've met around here to distance themselves from me or just can't seem to comprehend that I'm not like regular functioning adults around here.

I'm not going to mince words here on the subject or sugarcoat the truth. To make a long story short here, I in actuality am diagnosed with Autism, albeit I'm considered to be in the category of higher functioning autistic people, which means most of the time it might be difficult, or in the case of internet interactions perhaps even impossible to tell that I am autistic to begin with. Now I can probably guess what some of you might be thinking about me just reading this now, thinking that I'm overreacting or just trying to hide behind my diagnosis as to not take responsibility for having hurt your feelings or acted immature at you over something that seems totally inane, but that could not be further from the truth. For those of you reading this right now, I'm going to lay down a few small facts I've learned about it since having been diagnosed and hope that those of you with the patience to read all this through might be able to glean a better idea as to why I say I require as much patience as possible from people, I want to make it clear here and now that it's not simply just to help prevent me from getting any more warning points and to protect my admittedly fragile ego. I'm telling you this to protect ALL OF YOU from pushing the wrong buttons and causing me to utterly explode on you in the baddest possible ways when you obviously might not deserve to be treated so harshly by me. As well as to avoid getting any more warning points.

I've been told countless times that I shouldn't use my Autism as an excuse for my actions. But how can that be right when it affects my ability to feel for others as well as so many other things about me? I get stressed out VERY easily. And I lose my ability to feel and think about the consequences of my actions when I'm stressed and/or angry. Rage and stress blind me. And they cause me to do and say things that I always regret later. But I don't ever want to intentionally harm someone I care about. And anyone who claims to have Autism but not have any struggles or says they aren't disabled in some way is lying their ass off. I've met a lot of jokers (not on this site mind you) who claim to be Autistic and yet say they don't have trouble with communication skills or social skills and pretty much any of the other struggles that Autistic people are known to have. But if you meet one of these people, know that they are lying to you. For anyone who truly has Autism like myself knows the struggle and the impaired communication skills and impaired motor skills that come with it.

People with Autism see the world different than other people do. And I would like to shed some light on the mind of an Autistic person, since I am one myself.

Autistic people are more prone to taking things personally. This includes even some of the most harmless of jokes. It can go the wrong way and they can end up lashing out on someone causing tensions or even broken friendships. It is difficult for autistic people to control their emotions. Like the above point, this leads to them taking things more personal. I myself hate confrontation, which if I'm pushed to the limit, I may burst. This can lead to severe and I mean SEVERE outbursts. Even if the lashing is limited to the internet (like holding grudges against people if I've been hurt)

One of the biggest points that needs to be drilled is that Autistic people may act younger than their actual age. This can lead to behaviors that don't reflect the actual age of the person, such as responses to losing something like a game, or any other situation that incites a negative attitude.

And if you think I'm full of shit and don't know what I'm talking about, you can just go on Google and do research on this for yourself or ask some expert or therapist.

Anyway, continuing onto the main subject at hand, let me teach you ladies and gentleman some facts about my disorder that I've been trying to learn and keep in mind for the sake of trying to improve my overall health and quality of life as a whole. First and foremost, for those wondering, the actual technical term for what I have is Asperger's Syndrome or Autism Spectrum Disorder, and the reason why it's called that in my short paraphrasing of this entire subject is because autistic people don't have a simple and short, concrete list of symptoms that most other disabilities happen to have. Also of key note to mention is that Autism is NOT a mental disorder as you likely thought, it's actually a neurological disorder like Tourette's Syndrome, meaning that it's a disorder rooted in the very hard wiring of our brains functions. As a result, it's a disorder that modern medicine and science as of current cannot fix and therefore those of us diagnosed with such have to live out our entire lives with the disorder, requiring those whom do have it to remain all the more aware of ourselves and our actions as compared to regular folks in order to ensure it doesn't end up wrecking our lives as a whole.

Now as to why it's called Asperger's Syndrome or Autism Spectrum Disorder, that's because Autism consists of a vast spectrum of various different complications that have to be carefully sorted out & identified by doctors out of a pool of known complications that go hand-in-hand with the disorder as a whole, including but not limited to...Abnormal emotional intensity, abnormal emotional/cognitive disconnection, obsessive fixations, and a vast majority of other complications that can vary on multiple levels depending on each diagnosed individual in question. This, from what I've come to learn and understand about it so far, is one of the main reasons why it's difficult (Or at least hard at the point in life I was diagnosed.) to pinpoint and diagnose those with Autism compared to other individuals since there are many symptoms that also go hand-in-hand with other mental and/or neurological complications like OCD, ADD, ADHD, etc.

The examples I listed above are just the ones I've personally been able to identify about myself through internet research since my diagnosis since apparently neither my family nor the doctor that diagnosed me at the time felt it prudent to actually sit down and try to explain to me what Autism was and why I was given the diagnosis. But I believe it is because at that current point in time on top of my home state's poor management of mental health care overall that not too much was really known about Autism to begin with, so I've been having work by ear and whatever little scraps of information I can get from various official sites and videos I can find in order to better understand my diagnosis and figure out the best way to try and at least eek out some semblance of a normal life for myself while also trying to make sure I don't unduly hurt or upset anyone undeserving of my ire and indignation whenever someone upsets me with one of my pet peeves. While I can be somewhat aware of myself and that what I'm saying might be overboard at the time, I'm none the less expressing my immediate true feelings within the current moment and my emotional range can vary wildly from being over-joyous, vehemently indignant, all the way to being abjectly apathetic altogether towards whatever and whomever I'm faced with at the time, and this can take place over either several months of interactions all the way down to the very moment something either personally wrong or right is said to me in order to make one of those sudden mood shifts end up happening.

It's for the above stated reasons that I'm a major stickler for anyone that's everyone to pay close attention when I say not to do or say something around me and for whenever I post a given status of mine because, while I can definitely be understanding, considerate, and empathetic towards the feelings and given plights of anyone I've been blessed with the chance of meeting here, it also means that saying the wrong things to me or pushing the wrong buttons (Which again I do my best to try and highlight) could cause me to pull a complete 180 and tear you a new asshole, especially considering my other range of real life complications I have to deal with including shitty parents who raised me like a pet instead of a person and beat me with a belt when I was just a defenseless one year old, and even the state of the greater world at large; especially within my own home country that leads me to having strong and even polarizing thoughts and opinions I can't otherwise express because who-the-fuck knows what kind of complaint or differing opinion another might have that conflicts with my own which could lead into a serious verbal altercation or even worse if I were to actually speak my thoughts out loud and in the flesh.

Now, I'm by no means an expert on the subject as a whole, let alone a licensed doctor here, but given that this is something I've personally been diagnosed with, I'd like to believe that I'm doing the best I can within my own limited power to try and manage my personal issues having to live with this disorder in a manner that avoids causing any undue harm to either myself or those I've grown to care for, especially some of you lovely people here in particular that I've admittedly gained some legitimate emotional affection towards for being the good people that you are and even indulging me during points when I previously felt like I'd never regain the traction and fun factor that I'd once been able to enjoy in past role play endeavors years ago before I even knew what role play was to begin with. For those of you who've taken the time to read this far and not just dismiss or even scoff at my earnest explanation and self-expression here, I know I'm not the best by a long shot in trying to explain complicated subjects like this, so I'd like to share with you a particular and reliable youtube link that helped me to learn a lot about my own diagnosis using one of the few subjects I'm truly passionate about as a theoretical backdrop to explain Autism in a manner that I personally could never be able to express in truly fluid detail at this current time. And while the dude might not be a doctor or expert on the subject, he's already stated in the beginning of the video that he had to do extensive research on the subject himself to make sure he had all the known facts and misconceptions set straight, so this should be a fairly reliable information source on the subject as a whole. I'll be providing the video link here. And again, for those of you who were either curious or considerate enough to read through the entire thing AND check out the video link below, thank you greatly for your time and I hope this serves to help smooth things out if ever we happen to find ourselves at odds with one another either on accident or over a deliberate subject in order to avoid any conflicts both now and in the foreseeable future.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yeh7D0zz8G0

Due to various conditions both mentioned here and unspoken, I cannot consistently keep up an immediate RP with more than one person at a time without severely compromising my posts in one way or another. For everyone involved with me, if I happen to say either directly in a message or in statuses that I'm busy at any given time, then I ask that you please kindly wait for me, even if it's been a long time or we have yet to actually do a proper scene together. I've left far too many in the past both distant and recent waiting on me to start something or with scenes unfinished due to burnout from multiple people trying to vie for my attention, being jealous of my time with others, and especially an immensely draining real life for me to be soft with people on this subject anymore. So if you do not have the patience for this much, then I am more than likely not the kind of RP partner you are looking for. I've been around the block far too long and have been far too lenient on such issues in the past. Trying to better myself as both a role player and person alike. I need to learn how to start putting my foot down more firmly on such issues without letting my own softness and doubts get the better of me while simultaneously making sure to take proper responsibility for my actions without blowing things out of proportion. If for any reason you're having ill feelings about anything concerning me, for better or worse, just swallow your fears, pride, or whatever else is holding you back, and just address me about it outright. I'm willing to handle the confrontation and listen. Beating around the bush and letting vexing issues wait, no matter how big or small they might seem isn't a smart thing to do, and even the smallest of issues can tend to boil over if left unchecked and ignored for too long as I've had to learn and be reminded of from hard experience far too often for my own good. I've never been all that good or graceful when it comes to expressing my negative feelings in a calm and civil manner to a point where it's even costed me the respect and friendship of more than a few people I've liked, admired, and even outright loved.

This is the raw, unfiltered truth of how things have panned out for me. So if ever you find yourself feeling discomforted or disappointed about how things are turning out between us, please just speak your mind to me about it outright either in PMs or whatever Instant Messenger that you happen to feel comfortable discussing these things through. I don't want anymore bad blood or ill feelings developing between you and myself, Especially those of you I've spent quality time with. At the very least if such feelings can't be avoided and you feel we truly have no choice but to end our relationship, then let us at least have it be on honest and amicable terms without anymore fuss than what might have been already been raised at any given time. Whatever your opinion or impression of me is, I really don't care as long as I have something to learn from. I just really can't stand it when someone won't even let me have closure. To you this probably doesn't seem like a big deal. And you probably think I'm overreacting. But back in September of 2020 one person that I dearly loved and knew for years just immediately blocked me without even so much as a heartfelt goodbye. And I do not EVER want a repeat performance of this. This was the most painful thing that I have ever had to deal with in my entire life. And I was never the same again after it happened.

I both respect and adore those who happen to have great patience with me and receiving any kind of response from me, be it roleplay related or otherwise. People who can display this virtue with me will be spoken very highly of, and I'll be more than certain to show you the same due respect as well.

Aside from all that, I'm pretty much just a laid back person who enjoys gaming, movies, anime, RPing and cartoons.

My Favorite Animes:

1. Rurouni Kenshin/Samurai X and Trigun
2. Demon Slayer
3. DragonBall Z/GT/Super
4. One Punch Man and Mob Psycho 100
5. Bleach
6. Inuyasha
7. Yu Yu Hakusho
8. Zatch Bell
9. Naruto/Naruto Shippudden
10. Beelzebub
11. Hunter x Hunter
12. Death Note

Honorable Mentions:
1. Beastars
2. Jojo's Bizarre Adventure
3. Fist of The North Star
4. Kill La Kill
5. Sailor Moon R/Super/Crystal
6. Attack on Titan
7. Elfen Lied
8. Black Butler
9. Blue Exorcist
10. Akame Ga Kill
11. Assassination Classroom

I'm a little iffy about some but Rurouni Kenshin/Samurai X is my very favorite Anime of all time without question.

My favorite cartoons:

1. Samurai Jack
2. Jackie Chan Adventures
3. Dexter's Laboratory
4. Dan VS
5. Spongebob Squarepants
6. Danny Phantom
7. Teen Titans (The old series not Go)
8. Ed Edd n Eddy
9. Jimmy Neutron
10. South Park
11. Mike Tyson Mysteries
12. Regular Show
13. Futurama
14. The Simpsons

My favorite Movies and their Franchises:

1. Star Wars
2. Rurouni Kenshin
3. Ted
4. Death Note
5. Disney

Favorite Video Game Character/s:

Marth, Ike and Roy from Fire Emblem

Sora and Riku from Kingdom Hearts

Sonic The Hedgehog, Knuckles The Echidna and Rouge The Bat from their franchise.

My Favorite Cartoon/Anime Heroes:

Goku, from DragonBall Z

Jack, from Samurai Jack

Kenshin Himura, from Rurouni Kenshin

Ichigo Kurosaki, from Bleach

Inuyasha, from Inuyasha

Aladdin, from Disney's Aladdin

Vash The Stampede, from Trigun

Naruto Uzumaki, from Naruto/Naruto Shippudden

Danny Phantom, from his series.

My Favorite Cartoon/Anime Villains:

Aku, from Samurai Jack

Sosuke Aizen, from Bleach

Shishio Makoto, from Rurouni Kenshin

Perfect Cell, and Frieza from DragonBall Z

Madara Uchiha, from Naruto/Naruto Shippudden

Light Yagami, from Death Note

Mozenrath, from Aladdin

Maleficent, from Sleeping Beauty

Frollo, From The Hunchback of Notre Dame

Vlad Plasmius, from Danny Phantom

Chase Young from Xiaolin Showdown

Zarm from Captain Planet

Sideshow Bob, from The Simpsons

What do I like in an RP? Well I usually like for RPs to have some sort of villain for me/us to fight and defeat whether it's one of mine or one of yours so it would be preferable if you have OCs who are combat based or at least ones know how to fight/are capable of fighting somehow.

And I like to use a wide variety of characters so I'm looking for someone who can play/add new characters and/or NPCs when needed and actually make responses with detail that helps move the story forward. Simply replying to the RP doesn't help move it forward. I'm most likely going to be adding and controlling a lot of different characters as the RP goes so my post length will be on the long side for the most part, if I can help it. But I ask that you don't expect too much detail in each post I make. I'm able to make good and detailed posts, but I can't make such posts over and over. I can't come up with lengthy posts all the time. Sometimes inspiration strikes, and sometimes it doesn't.

You'll also be happy to know that I do a TON of stuff in RPs. Intense Storylines and World Building are a big part of why I'm an RPer. I like to follow along with and interact with people in a different world/story that people create together with action, adventure, suspense, comedy, epic fights, drama, character development and plot twists. I do admittedly play a much better villain than I do a hero but I can play any alignment. Good, Evil or Neutral.

And if you're not interested in my OCs I can also play a lot of canon characters too so you're in luck there.

I can and have played the following:

Princess Celestia
Princess Luna
Nightmare Moon
Shining Armor
The Mane Six
The CMCs
Silver Spoon and Diamond Tiara
Spike
King Sombra
Queen Chrysalis
Prince Blueblood
Trixie
Sunset Shimmer
Starlight Glimmer
Tempest Shadow
Discord
Starswirl The Bearded
Daring Do
Mrs. Harshwinny
Cheerilee

And here are some canon character roles I've done in other different franchises:

Naruto:

Naruto Uzumaki
Sasuke Uchiha
Sakura Haruno
Kakashi Hatake
Might Guy
Jiraiya
Tsunade
Orochimaru
Kabuto
Itachi Uchiha
Kisame
Hidan
Kakuzu

Bleach:

Ichigo Kurosaki
Orihime Inoue
Kisuke Urahara
Byakuya Kuchiki
Kenpachi Zaraki
Shunsui Kyoraku
Ulquiorra
Grimmjow
Starrk

DragonBall Z:

Goku

Yugioh:

Jaden Yuki
The Supreme King
Aporia
Yusei Fudo
Jack Atlas
Tetsu Trudge
Gill Randsborg

But I will not be doing Yugioh RPs anymore since I no longer Duel. So please do not ask me for them. Sorry to disappoint you.

Pokemon:

Jessie, James, Meowth and Giovanni
Guzma and Team Skull underlings

Death Note:

Light Yagami

Zatch Bell:

Zatch
Kiyo Takamine
Brago
Sherry Belmont
Zeno
Dufort

Rurouni Kenshin:

Kenshin Himura

Aladdin:

Mozenrath

Sonic The Hedgehog:

Rouge The Bat

Teen Titans:

Raven

Marvel Comics:

Deadpool

Portraying a wide variety of characters and different personalities is what I do best. I don't think you'll be disappointed.