They call me Loyalty

Honestly, I would rather have my life back on the fields. Driving mr Robinson's tractor, after he unfortunately went missing with his nutritious family six months ago. But this is good, I guess. My family is here. We are still dying off, because we are wildlings or godlings. But yeah.

And I miss my own family. It reminds me of my drawing from early childhood. Picturing me and my sister. And then a bunch of people; some very small, some gigantic. Some with skewed features. We carbed wood and made idols that honored our animal nature. We brewed alcohol. We howled like wolves into the night, and then we hunted, and we let nothing go to waste. Not even the marrow. It was a ritual. It is our very spirit. Visceral and brutal. But also mesmerizing in a beautifully haunting way. So much so that the dreams are still calling to me.

But this is okay, too. If we consider that the alternative was getting killed by the civilized people. So, I will keep up with this civilized act as long as I can, without compromising my true nature. And then become a homeless beggar for the free food. Because I just don't have it within me to keep up with the sophistications of civilization. It is not the kind of animal I am.

But yeah. It was an interesting life, for which I am thankful. Though, a very fake one.

I really hope you are doing okay.

Great...

I second that motion. "Happy birthdaaaaay!!!!".

Ah , whatever. You don't need to disguise your hostility. And I didn't mean to impose. Also, my day was pretty awful, if that makes you feel better about yourself.

Regardless, I hope your are doing better.

You too, bud.

Yes, even violence. I've just read about this movement. And their association with militant behaviour. Which is not surprising given their substance abstinence. These guys must be on on the edge, quite literally.

*Hugs* Stay well, cute little wrench pony.

Yes, I was answering to it, right now. There you go.

Wow, okay. Tell me, whenever you like. But, what do you mean by eye to eye? That we can understand each other?

Wow, that's beautiful. Thank you!!!

Good night

Sleep well

If you worry this much. Isn't it perhaps wiser to simply let it go?

Just sharing my perception, you don't need to answer me.

Good night.

GN

Good morning

I like you

If you're not troubled by fear and doubt. Then tell me. Do you feel inner peace and well being? "My achievement" natural behaviour for someone which acts from ego. Which is not bad or good. It IS a learning experience with great purpose. Our consciousness is timeless, eventhough we spin in the cycles of life.

How can you understand that which you haven't experienced yet? That's not wisdom, but the notion of understanding. "Beat the world" yet again, survival. Once you find this beauty, inherent to all things. Ah, you'll trust, believe me you will. Because is beautiful.

You've been taught death is the end, in a world which acts out of fear. Wisdom is understanding, to be at peace with the notion of unknown. To transcend fear, and to trust in life.

I understand you feel cynical about it. But you also need to understand this is a world in a process of growth. So it's natural for new life forms to act within the survival thought. It's key for you to understand without judgment. To judge is to block that which we cannot fully comprehend.

To change this world is to take responsibility for ourselves, individually. Only then we'll grow as a whole.

There's an inherent beauty to all life forms. When people can't find such quality within themselves, then they project their inner rejection outwards. What I'm saying is that you're beautiful, just so you realize.

That's not true. I like you

Good night...