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  1. FullMetalDash
    Hey, HEY, HEEEEEEEEEEEEEY ponies. How is everyone doing this fine, whenever it is in your time zones 
    What, you want to know how I feel?
    Well... I feel great. I feel happy. 
    I
    FEEL
    stressed out because of work.
    So the army lets me reinstate but i have to go through a lot of hoops to get back to my old position. But i am willing to do this. Yes in my previous post i bashed on the army. But i am sorry, because i ment some of the army. Not the entire army. 
    I still have to clarify something tho... About some baby i mentioned.......
    yeah so uh......
    I have a baby.. a cute little girl... Well i dont really see her a lot anymore due to work stress and no time and she mostlly stays at my brother (<3 thank you bro <3) and she is happy there. 
    The reason she likes it there is probally because her parents are always fighting and one dissapeared for sometime. 
    I got told all the things i missed while i was gone. I got told she cried a lot in the beginning, asking for her mommy. Well... How are you going to explain to a baby that mommy ran away. 
    I stopped drinking BTW. I am no more a active alcholic! Yay.
    Back to the baby, turns out she nearlly died while i was gone.... 
    She was in her buggy being pushed around by my sister-in-law when she accidentlly slipped and pushed the buggy on to the road. Thank god somebody saw it and saved the buggy or else.....
    I dont blame her for that tho... 
     
    I blame me for leaving... 
    Being a bad mom... 
    A bad wife.... 
    A bad sister....
     
    A bad everything
    I am sorry.... To everyone in my life...
     
    Also my ex-husband is trying to get me back, it is for a later day.
     
    STAY STRONG AND TELL YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS YOUR PROBLEMS BEFORE YOU DO RADICAL STUFF <3 
    MESSAGE ME FOR FAMILY/FRIEND/DEPRESSION HELP. I ANSWER ASAP AND KEEP IT A SECRET.
    ~FML
  2. FullMetalDash
    Hey hey HEY!
    How everyone is this here uhm.. internet forum doin? 
    Is it all radical and LIT?
     
    Okay ill stop, i write stupid stuff when i am stressed out. Which i miiiiiiiight be a tiny, little, miniature, very much stressed out. 
     
    So! Some context on my title of today and me being S TO THE R E S S E D out.
    "Reintergrating" is going rougher as planned. People arent really accepting me back. People are mad, confused, down right.... Hatefull towards me. I get why but i dont want to brag but 
     
    HOLY SHIT (Forgive me lord jesus) IF ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT COMPLAIN NOW CARED FOR ME BACK THEN, THIS WOULDNT HAVE HAPPEND.
     
    And i qoute a... Ex relative of me: HURR DURR BUT IF YOU TOLD ME I WOULDVE HELPED. 
    excuse me nameless man, but if you keep being "busy" with seeing other girls behind my back, no wonder i dont trust you. No wonder i didnt ask for help since you were one of the REASONS.
     
    I digress
     
    On to the title of today 
     
    First off all, Turns out people were exploiting my vanishing as a excuse to missuse and say stuff i supposedlly said, which at this point lost me friends and family, right down to the point that my own baby is.... Yeah other blogpost about that.
    Secondlly, the betrayal is basically...
     
    EVERY.SINGLE.THING. i did for the army for:
    Safety
    Health
    First Aid
    Train new medics
     
     
    All have been thrown in the bin and they are back to being a bunch of headless chickens. 
    Which angers me. Oh well,
    Not my army
    Not my duty
    May they all burn in hell
    Fuck the Russian Army and their entire staff.
     
    ~FMD
    no heart today
    Only hatred
     
  3. FullMetalDash

    suprise

    By FullMetalDash,

    So hey everyone that might read this... 
    I am back..
    The great something 
    Back to this fandom and live. 
    With changes that i shall go in right now.
     
    As some of you know. I had been declared dead which was a intersting way of explaining what i did. 
     
    So! What did i do, instead of being dead?
     
    I killed my former self and returned a new person... 
    I buried her in Warsaw 
    Dont go searching for it. I never will again. 
     
    Well. Something i didnt mention in my blog posts that my biggest hobby beside the army was being a active alcholic. Which i became because of personal problems and issues.
     
    Between now and my last time i spoke, a lot has changed. A lot in a positive with some regrets.
     
    First off all.
    I quit the army. I couldnt handle somethings that happend there and i left it behind me.
     
     
    Then i left my entire life behind me and died. I traveled away from home and had to find my newself and bury my oldself.
     
    But i am back and will start posting soon on here. 
    Probally not about the army since that... *chuckles* difficult.
     
    Probally life advice since i am wiser than ever before!
    Happier then ever before!
    Younger then eve.....ohwait ;(
    And hey... Maybe the army lets good ol me back someday if i ask them nicelly...
     
    "Oi havent you boys learned to stop sucking that cannon barrel. If not you still need me ;)"
     
    Nah jk
    I am happy tho from all the love i got for the most part, for being half a zombie atleast.
     
    ~FMD
    <3
     
  4. FullMetalDash
    So, i havent been Active or posting in like a year..... Yeah.... Sorry :$
     
    So. My life been busy lots has happend. And i will make more posts on this blog about those subjects. Now i just want to tell you how my Army career is going.
     
    So, i am a Combat Medic now, and i teach medics in training. Which i really enjoy, even though it is time consuming, and very very busy. Yet it makes me happy teaching them.
    Being a Combat Medic does make me the person if you act dumb or Dangerous in the base. Like,jeez is it that hard not hurting yourself? Talking to you, Tank Battalion. nah, love you guys, love seeying you know how to drive tanks, but now how to fix a tank while not hurting yourself.
     
    Anyway, the other reason is this will be my place to tell you my worries about the world and my own life.
     

    This blog will become more of a life of a private...first mudafuck- class XD i got too excited for that line.
    But i'll be posting more probally once a week
     

    Remember: the louder you scream, the faster we come
  5. FullMetalDash

    Life Advance

    By FullMetalDash,

    Dear Putin,thank you for pulling back 2 third of your troops,please me too So,ill be going home next week because of problems in the familly,but the past 2 days were fun but tirering. Not much has happend,after the past days i did have made new friends. And i now have a boyfriend,which is not here nor from Russia,but he is on the forums ans he's American.
     
    Sorry for the short one,but ill be posting more soon
  6. FullMetalDash
    Hi,so giving current conditions,i don't feel in a comfort position here. On the one side is Russia,a safe place to go to,on the other side we have Ukraine. Which is nothing to even close to safe. You all probally have heard about the shot down chopper. This spills even more oil on an almost burning fire. The fire i am reffering to is the problem when Ukraine military engages in East-Ukraine. Thanks to our law,we are allowed to go into Ukraine with Russian forces to protect our citizen in East-Ukraine. Which will end up with NATO and the US involves in the problem.
     
    But Ukraine is really in a no fire situation,any engagment toward East-Ukraine would result in complete lost for them and occupation by Russia. And knowing the Motherland.. it won't end with East-Ukraine :/.
     
    But back to my life now. The job is still boring,but more Russians have passed back to Russia then normally. Probally the civil war is getting worse. We got a supply truck came in today,bringing food,meds and ammo. That last was more then usual...Hoorah for optimstic cheer up by Russia towards their soldiers. But i asked a few why they went home to Russia,most answerd with fear or just to be safe from that war in Ukraine.
    But hey,i go to go my comrades. Have fun.
  7. FullMetalDash
    So,my first night at the border was a fun expirience. The two other persons,who i shall be naming Yuri and Star,are friendly and we trained together so we know eachother. We take this task very serious,and by that i mean sit on our ass,drinking vodka and playing cards or watch TV. But what can you see on TV at night? Beside from porn and -2 stars movies,not much. Introducing the gaming console! Order now for borderpatrol for free Wolfenstein:The New Order.
     
    So,we sat just killing Nazi's,laughing at dismemberments and head exploding from a shotgun to da face. Also,i bring my Razor laptop,so i could just play some good o' Team Fortress 2 or Dota 2. Nothing really happend apart from a guy who drove past, and we stopped after 1 minutes with our awesome power.(The local police stopped him,we just sat like:"Oh,aah the police will do something").
     
    We are very motivated...but thanks to numerous factors(Vodka and my ever going dream of VA :/) somevody started singing with her MP3. So,after some Let It Go, and German dups of Western sings from W:TNO,my two friends were happy....Well,i am not bad with singing,not good but good enough for me! But they asked me to shut up. After that,the holy end of shift came and we celebrated like it the freaking Bday of Rainbow Dash! Without the giant cake cannon though....Imagine,instead of killing with bullets,fill your enemies with cake or confetti till they explode!
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