I don't know about that. After I watch myself on camera, I would be more afraid of preforming in front of people. When I act, I am in another world. I am imagining everything. So when I watch myself without the imagined setting and props, it would look weird.
It's OK. I have no way of getting rid of my stage fright. The lack of opportunity to preform makes it hard. Why do I have to live in such a small town?