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  1. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    The main E3 conference for Xbox has ended. You know what? I thought it was good. Damn good. It started off with the now named Xbox One X, and it seems like a cool machine, might pick it up. It apparently is quite small for a system of its type and that is impressive. Then, what was most of the show? Games. Game after game after game, it was awesome. Seeing all of these new titles was a treat and many of them looked so interesting. 
    The Ori sequel trailer for example, was beautiful and emotional, and there were some other reveals that were great like Forza 7 and and some games where the names escape me currently. I am tired so give me a break. XD 
    So what is not to love? We saw a gaming company clearly show the focus of its brand. Many games on display and a great direction going forward. 
    The thing is, were any of these Xbox One exclusive? Technically no, they all are for Windows 10 as well. The thing also is, I don't care. I prefer consoles, that's my thing and if PC gamers get to experience these games too, why the hell would I complain about it? My preferred platform is getting the game too, so it doesn't matter to me. People are getting so fucking obsessed with 'exclusivity' that they don't even talk about the great games shown. It is sad. The main thing of the industry, ignored because of some weird obsession. 
    I don't think the show was 100% perfect, Assassin's Creed should have been for Ubisoft's show I feel, but whatever. As a gamer, there was a lot for me to love. Not once did I think 'this better be Xbox One exclusive', because i don't give a shit about that.
    There's my rambling take on the show. I thought it was great. If you didn't, fine, all is opinion anyways. 
  2. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    **STRONG LANGUAGE AHEAD**



    Magic the Gathering is something that I would have never gotten into if not for the video games. In fact, I do not play the physical game, but the video games exclusively. I find it so much more fun and easier to do it this way. I have been playing these games since the Magic 2013 release and even with some issues, I have enjoyed these games.


     

    Then comes the free-to-play Magic Duels Origins, a game that SHOULD be fucking AWESOME. Apparently Stainless Games have no idea how to do that anymore. Even after working on nearly the same game for many years, they somehow have taken this release and turned it into absolute shit. Technical problems and balance issues are just the beginning to this game's shittiness.


     

    Oh, you want me to pay for coins to buy booster packs? Okay, fine, I can do that. Wait, grinding coins is unbearably slow and nearly impossible? Oh...I guess that is okay, I mean, you WILL have sales on coins eventually, right? Wait, you won't? Ever? Not even when a huge update actually gets released? That makes no sense, but you do what you want. What about the sets then? How often will you release updates? Oh, only one every 4-5 months? That isn't too great for this kind of thing, but at least you are gonna make the game even more polished and improved. Waaaaait, you are only adding in new cards, changing some layouts and adding MORE bugs? How does that help? I thought you have 4-5 months to fix this shit? Why is my fucking game crashing when I try to do a battle now? Oh, you mean to fix that, I need to delete the deck I am trying to use and completely recreate it?! how about YOU fucking morons fix your stupid shit game FIRST. WELL, OKAY. Fine, I will buy some coins because I am excited for these two new sets, it is gonna be cool to see all these new cards. Okay, I am gonna buy the $25 coin pack and......where's my coins? Where the FUCK are my coins? Oh, they aren't there? Well, awesome. Wonderful. Let me just contact customer service. Okay, customer service was nice and helpful, he said they will work to get my coins added. 10 hours later: NOTHING. NOTHING. SERIOUSLY. FUCK THIS.


     

    Stainless Games, I have been patient, it has been 9 months or so, and all you guys have been doing is failing. Failure after failure, and yet you still expect us to pay for these coins. You don't make it any easier to grind, you NEVER have sales. Hell, you don't even add more achievements to the game. Knowing the odds, you will only fuck all of that up too. What's next, all of our accounts are going to disappear for no reason? Keep on it Stainless, you have to keep your failure rate high.


     

    As you can see, I am a tad irritated by this. I have nearly had enough.


  3. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    *looks at calendar* Oh, it's been 3 years.....3 YEARS??? Wow. So yes, it has been 3 years since I joined this fandom and these forums, I am a few days late on this actually but time just goes by doesn't it? I joined the fandom in September 2012 and joined these forum mere days after that. It has bee quite a ride. So much has happened in these 3 years, some good things, some horrible things, some fantastic things. It is just crazy looking back on it all, you know?
     
    Just over 3 years ago, I was some guy with no major interests except for video games, with almost no friends and no real hobbies anymore. Then I find this show, decide to watch it, and everything changed. It was one of the best moments of my entire life and that feeling is something I will cherish forever. I remember when I ordered my first ever piece of MLP merch, a Fluttershy shirt of her saying Yay. When it arrived, I was so happy, I was filled with absolute joy and I felt renewed in my life. This show and its fandom did that for me, I will never forget that. Nowadays, I have...problems. Many problems. Depression, self hatred at times, inferiority complex, these different issues that have randomly gotten worse.
     
    Despite that, I still love this show and I cherish these past 3 years and all of the friends I have made here. I really do. You all have been so kind to me, so wonderful, and I cannot thank you enough. I truly mean it. On top of this, the forums eventually led to me meeting the person who would eventually be my boyfriend now, NothingIsEverything. ^.^ That is something I never would have expected but it makes me reflect on how this show and fandom even helped me to come to terms with my sexuality.
     
    I remember when I did not even have a Ponysona, my first avatars and whatnot were all about Fluttershy, my original favorite pony. Then I created Kyoshi, the original version was one that I abandoned after a couple of years, because he did not match me at all. Then I created the Kyoshi you see now, who is actually me in pony form really. Then of course I did get into Photoshop and stuff like that early on, stuff that I never would have expected that I would get into before, then I did. I am no good at it, but it still has given me a lot to do before. More than I had before in my life.
     
    This show and fandom has changed my life completely and I am a much different person now, somewhat. I might have my own problems and weird feelings but I still love these forums, this fandom, this show and all of you. Thank you all for being who you are and being so wonderful to me. ^__^
     
    By the way, I am not leaving or anything, just wanted to give a reflection on these 3 years. It's been quite the 3 years indeed. I hope you all are still enjoying the ride as much as me.

     

    I do apologize for my odd wording, it is just a little overwhelming thinking of all of this now.
  4. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Hazah! The Kyo family has a couple of new members in my room. Went to an exot pet store over the weekend and made a purchase that I am really happy for.


     

    Behold, the latest and greatest in Kyo-petness!






     

    This is Stabby and Fwoomp! They are Zebra Finches and they are absolutely lovely. :3 This is the first time ever that I have owned a bird of any kind and already, I am so happy I did this. Their meeps are wonderful and they just seem to have so much personality about them.


     




     

    So what do you think of the birdies? :3 Do you have any birdies?


  5. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    As some may know, I have decided that I am not going to watch the last season of Friendship is Magic. Was giving it a think last night and I wanted to make it clear as to why I have made this choice. Obviously, watching a show that I love and has had such a huge impact on me come to an end isn't exactly the most uplifting of things. The way Hasbro has been pushing this fact has also been a troubling thing, pushing so hard that this is the final season even though we already know this. The initial trailer for S9 basically killed all of my enthusiasm and just made me feel sad. What I hoped is for the final season to be a grand celebration of what FiM is and how far it has come along over nearly 9 years. Instead, it is being marketed as saying goodbye forever. Not exactly the happiest of things. After all these years and the show's sheer positive nature throughout and THIS is the best they can do for the marketing? I would have preferred it to go out on a high note, and who knows, it probably will by the end of the season, but like I said my enthusiasm has already been punched in the face by Hasbro themselves. On top of that I have already heard mixed opinions on the premiere. It doesn't quite sound good, at least not to me and the leaked episode premises don't sound all that promising either.
    This show had to come to an end eventually, that is something I accepted after the 2017 leaks. Still, I think I am taking this a bit worse than I would have hoped. I don't want to watch a show like this end, I don't want to basically watch it die before my eyes. Take something like Spongebob for example. I love that show, but really I only love the first few seasons as the quality plummeted after that. Spongebob is somehow still going on after all these years, but if it were to end this year as well or something, I wouldn't feel that bad about it, because to me, the show essentially peaked and ended after season 3. While FiM has had some very rocky and terrible episodes, like Newbie Dash or Fame and Misfortune, I still think the show was maintaining a solid line of quality since season 4. Many may disagree with that, that's fine. I just found myself still having new top favorite episodes all the way into season 7 and that is impressive. So for it to stay relatively good for this long, it makes seeing it all vanish harder to take in. Especially considering all of the stuff in my room and the memories I have had over these years. After season 9, I will look at all the posters and merch in my room and have to say to myself "This is all merch for a show that is now over." The thought of that gives me chills and not in a good way. Maybe me not wanting to watch the season is some form of denial. Hell, maybe it is the stages of grief I am going through. I am a pretty depressed person at times, you all know that well. I get emotional and sad fairly easily. I'm pretty weak like that. Some show about cartoon ponies in a fantasy world ending soon is able to make me cry just by thinking of that. Weird how that works. I know I am a negative guy at times, often far too much, but I do try to take joy and pride in things I love. This show is one of those things and we are near the end of its road. I just can't bring myself to witness it happen. The trailer sealed that deal. It gave me a sense that Hasbro itself is celebrating with glee that FiM is finally ending so they can finally trot out G5 for more of that sweet cash, all while most likely giving the fandom two middle fingers, if the leaked documents are anything to go by.
    That's just me going into total rambling territory. I am simply feeling down about all of this. I've tried my best to not let it get to me, but it obviously is. So I am just going to ignore the new episodes to the best of my ability and keep the memories intact.
  6. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    So some of you may have seen the blog post I made recently. About Atari being greedy beyond comparison by crowdfunding a horrendous port of Rollercoaster Tycoon Touch, a terrible mobile game, for the Switch. If you have not seen that blog, check it out here first: https://mlpforums.com/blogs/entry/23099-rollercoaster-tycoon-on-switch-the-worst-thing-ever/
    Thing is, IT ACTUALLY GETS WORSE! Somehow. On their StartEngine campaign page, Atari recently updated it with a new 'Q&A' to answer people's questions. Of course they won't answer why Rollercoaster Tycoon World was not mentioned at all on their page but whatever. One of the questions ask about what happens if the overall goal of 1.7 millions dollars is not reached. Check out their AMAZING answer to this question:
    "As a publisher, Atari has started the development of the game and will release it no matter what the outcome of the campaign, because it has the resources to do it.  This is clearly set forth on Page 14 of the Offering Details:  “For the further avoidance of doubt, if we do not raise 100% of the funds, our majority stockholder intends to provide additional funding or credit in exchange for the balance of the Net Receipts not distributed to the Investors.”
    From a big picture perspective, bear in mind we have a portfolio of more than 200 games.  This Start Engine campaign is a test of alternative financing resources to see if this could be applicable to other games of our portfolio to accelerate our growth. For this test, we selected RollerCoaster Tycoon for the Nintendo Switch given the awareness of the brand and the growth of the Nintendo platform."
    Dear Celestia in whatever version of heaven they have. You didn't misread that. They straight up say that the game is already being developed and they have the money to make the game regardless of this crowdfunding campaign. The only reason they are doing this is to save even more cash. That's it. They just want to save even more money for their stockholders, which is gaming fail 101. They don't care about this product, they just care about their bottom line. This crowdfunding fail 101. You don't do a crowdfunding campaign and then say that you have the resources for the product regardless of the campaign. That means you DON'T NEED CROWDFUNDING!!!! HOLY SHIT. This is amazing. AMAZING. Like...what! How stupid, how dumb, how greedy, how bjbjbjjbkibkjsbdgfksdfkjsdkjfsdkjbfkjds can one company get?! Damn! I am legit furious and laughing my ass off at the same time. WOO!
    So yeah. I didn't think this whole situation could get any worse. I have presented to you, 'any worse'.
  7. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    If you have read a certain blog post I made a couple of days ago, you may think I was leaving entirely. Well, I'm not, I have decided against it, but to be honest, it is ONLY because of my friends here. I have no other reason to be here anymore. So it is because of my friends that I have changed my mind, which that is worth it alone, even if there are many, many things I have problems with on this site.
     
    Just to give a heads up, my status stuff is still disabled, and who knows when they will decide to put that back on, but whatever. I will probably post around for a little bit, but I will try to think of my friends, as it is the only positive I can think of here.
     
    I am also dropping my Ponysona for a little while, as I would rather not be reminded of myself.
  8. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    With the movie coming up, and from what I have seen of it so far, it feels like an epic celebration of what the show has become, how far it has gone. A big reason of that is because of this fandom, supporting it to the point of putting it into history. A fandom I joined over 5 years ago.
    I am feeling a bit emotional right now, but in a good way. If that makes sense. I am thinking a lot of these past 5 years. Time sure does fly by. I joined this fandom at a time when I was so depressed and lost in life. This show and the fandom itself changed me. It made me do things I never had interest in doing before. It made me feel like I belonged somewhere. This forum mainly. I know that sounds weird, but I mean it. For once, I truly felt like part of a community that I belonged in. This show gave me that.
    I've done a lot in the past 5 years in regards to the fandom, for what that is worth. I have made 100's of signatures, met all sorts of people here, I met my boyfriend here as well, I have gone to Equestria TV to watch the show with others, I have watched the show with the couple of offline friends I have left. Every single bit of this, all of it has created memories for me. Memories that I will forever cherish. I always used to think of the good times in my youth whenever I felt hopeless, but while I have had some bad moments, these 5 years are memories too. Things I can always remember.
    It hasn't all been so easy. I still struggle with depression, hardcore anxiety, feelings of futility, self-doubt and even at times, self hatred. That struggle may continue for years. I often still feel lost in my life because of my many limitations. Life is about being happy though. Life is about feeling joy. It is about laughing, crying, hugging, joking and loving. This show and as a result its fandom and these forums, have all given me more chances to do that. Even if it is just over the internet, it means more to me than many may realize.
    I often don't afford myself the time to simply stop and think of all of this. To appreciate what has been given to me over these years. Seeing this show receive a major film and on its way to its 8th season, it truly makes me think of it all. You all have given me memories, and more. I thank all of you for that, and I love you, all of you. I know it might sound sappy, but I need to show appreciation to all of you and to what this show has given me. A lot of things in my life might still be up in the air and I even have many fears about my life, but at least I can be here to experience what this show is about, friendship. My offline social life just doesn't exist now, but I have all of you.
    If you have ever communicated with me, and you ever feel down, just know you had a part in this. I might just be some person, not famous or anything, but even helping me is something I can't thank you enough for.
    Sorry if this seemed sappy or anything, I needed to get all of this out. I think it has built up for a while, to finally say all of this makes me feel happy.
  9. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Hello all and welcome back to Turbo Highlights! This time, we are looking at a Youtube channel that is all about the beloved game series....POKEMON!

    Sounds exciting? It is. Pokemon is a very fun series of games and this is, in my opinion, one of the best Pokemon related channels on Youtube. It is called TheNationalDex, hosted by Pokékellz and Alex, whom always has a different subtitle. Every week on TND they pick a Pokemon and discuss it in depth, explaining its origins, facts about and myths about them, and so much more. Not only is this really fun to learn about the different Pokemon and how they came to be, there is a surprising amount of educational content present as well. Each week, they have a ridiculously awesome segment that is always informative and it centers around a specific subject, like a how mythology and Pokemon collide and other neato subjects. After they tell all about the Pokemon, they go into very in depth Battle Strategy for that Pokemon, giving you some fun advice on training them.
     

    Here is episode 2 of The Dex, Gengar! Watch and learn, a lot.
     
    As well as this weekly show, they also have the Mini Dex hosted by Rival Jimmy, which quickly goes over a Pokemon that might not be as popular as others. These are very short and a nice diversion if you want something quick to watch.
     

    Here is the Mini Dex for those wanting a quick treat.
     
    As well as these two shows they also have weekly shows where they battle different teams of Pokemon usually centered around a theme. Reptiles vs. Mammals? That's a thing. They also do a weekly Podcast where they discuss all sorts of Pokemon related subjects and even have viewer mail. Yay viewer interactivity!
     
    These shows as well as the wonderful hosts and special guests make for a great way to learn more about a game series you may love. While some of the comedy may seem cheesy, to me, that is apart of the charm.
     
    I highly recommend you check out their channel if you are a fan of Pokemon at all. It is a fun and informative way to indulge in this wonderful game series.
     
    Here is there channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7gnV9U47_yawcpfOUnipSw
     
    Thank you for reading this Turbo Highlight!
     
    Until next time,
     
    Turbo out!
  10. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    This is a big problem that I have. I have a very active mind, so I am constantly thinking about many different things, this being a big thing. I wish that I didn't think about this though. I don't many remarkable traits. I do not have any major talents or skills. I do have a nice and quirky personality and an active imagination which I am happy about.
     
    The problem is that I compare myself with everyone too much and this has negative effects. I always feel that I should be just as good as this person, or that person, or I feel inferior. I know that sounds stupid, but I have a weird mind. Example: Say I find a Brony song and it is really good. I will enjoy it and appreciate it, because I love music. The problem that will arise is that I start to get feelings of inferiority, because I will feel that I cannot do anything like it. I do make some music, electronic because I am not skilled with any actual instrument, but I have a great ear for music, so I should just be fine with that, but my nagging comparisons get the best of me and it brings me down a lot. The music that I make does sound good and that should be enough. Again, I know it sounds stupid, but it is something that I go through.
     
    Another good example is this. I have noticed that a lot of bronies attend college. I do not, mainly because I have no interest. That should be perfectly fine, but my comparisons kick in. I see people, like on the forums, and see that they talk about college and I feel inferior. I start feeling like I am not doing anything great with my life, which shouldn't bother me because I normally am fine with my simple life.
    I live a simple life, enjoying simple things and loving this fandom and show. Another one is that I cannot drive. I constantly compare myself with other people because they can drive and I cannot (due to horrid anxiety problems and aspergers syndrome) and that again makes me feel I inferior. Luckily I am slowly but surely accepting this particular thing.
     
    This is a reason why I do not go to certain websites or I try to avoid certain things and places, because I want to avoid these thoughts. I am also very anti-social so that doesn't help (Aspergers Syndrome ahoy) and I usually have a difficult time expressing these strange feelings. I really wish I didn't have these feelings because it can greatly impact my ability to enjoy certain things. Again, I know this seems strange but I am a strange person, which personally I like about myself. I just need to stop comparing myself with other people be happy for who I am, flaws and all. This is a weird first blog, but I wanted to share my thoughts. I like sharing my thoughts on things I think about a lot or am passionate about, hence why I post a lot about the Twilicorn subject.
     
    Either way, I am getting off-topic. Thanks for reading. It feels nice to just express my thoughts, I don't have many people that I can express my feelings to.
  11. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Now that I have my Worst Game of 2014 out of the way, I think it is time we go into something more positive. This is my favorite game for the year of 2014. While it might not be the most innovative game or the longest, but it was an experience that I enjoyed literally every second of. It is a game that rose above the rest for me in terms of art direction and music and overall atmosphere.
    My 2014 Game of the Year is...
    That is my best game of 2014. It truly was a wonderful experience. What was your favorite game of the year?
    Here are some honorable mentions for me:
    GTA V (Xbox One)
    Tomodachi Life (3DS)
    Have a great New Year everypony!
  12. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Frosted Shredded Wheats



    Platform: A bowl, usually



    Genre: Delicious



    Publisher/Developer: Lottsa different companies






    Frosted Shredded Wheats. A cereal that is made by many different companies. It is delicious, healthy, and all around heaven in your mouth. With the high fiber content, it is heaven for your colon too! :3


     

    Frosted Shredded Wheats are a cereal that has a bunch of whole grains. So much grainy goodness that you will be baffled that you are eating something that is good for you, the taste is unrivaled!


     

    But Kyoshi!!! Just a bunch of whole grains? How nasty! WAIT!!! There is more to this cereal of the gods. Only one side is pure grain. The other, is sweet, delicious, frosty substance. This adds a whole new dimension of taste and when this cereal is lathered in the cold embrace of milk, the sensation in your mouth is beyond compare.


     

    Final Verdict:






  13. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    I have been thinking of new ideas for my thread called 'Kyoshi's Sigs For Everypony!', which if you don't know what it is or haven't seen it, it can be found here: http://mlpforums.com/topic/77071-kyoshis-sigs-for-everypony-wip/ . I have different ideas for characters and pairs so far but I have thought of another idea. How about a weekly thing, called 'OC Highlight of the Week', where every week I choose an OC out of a list of submissions at random and make a sig specifically for it. It will be at the top of the post, with a link to the character's info page (if available) and a link to the submitter's profile. I will accept any OC's regardless if they were made with Pony Creator. Many seem to hate the PC, I don't mind it at all. I can then have a different database in a spoiler of past highlights and have a new collection . What do you all think?
  14. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    It seems no matter what I do or think about, eventually the day will give me some type of reminder to why I don't like myself at all. Makes me wish that either my existence never happened or that I wasn't me at all. Either one would have solved a lot of problems not just for me, but for everyone else that has the misfortune of stepping into my life. While I try to live within my means, I don't think it will mean shit when the years go by and I cannot do anything right. Goes right back to me wishing I was somebody. Self-acceptance is important to me, I try to live by it, but I am having an incresingly difficult time accepting someone that is so insignificant and drowning in failure. That being me, obviously.
     
    Just feeling a healthy dose of self-loathing tonight, mixed with some depressive thoughts. Ignore me.
  15. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    I will say this right off the Flutterbat, the Xbox One X being smaller than S is very impressive. This definitely shows with how heavy the system is, which it is surprisingly somewhat heavy. Seems a lot was put into such a small unit to make it work and it seems to work wonders.
    From what I have seen thus far, the X is an impressive machine. Forza 7, a flagship title for the X, runs at a beautiful native 4K and 60fps, but another thing impressed me was the rearview mirrors. On the other systems, the mirrors did not match the framerate of the game itself, most likely due to having to render multiple very detailed things like that from different sources. On the X though, the reflections in the mirrors run at 60fps as well, which at first was jarring as hell, but it is friggin cool. It makes the racing experience even more immersive as cars at your bumper in the mirros will be moving at the same buttery smooth rate that the rest of the game does. Forza 7 is definitely a wonderful showcase for the power of the X.
    I then tested a few other 'Enhanced' games, firstly Call of Duty WW2. Honestly, I can't tell much of a different on this once, but that could be because the Call of Duty franchise has been behind on graphics for years. Then again I only tried the multiplayer portion and since I didn't start the campaign on the S, I won't have a major point of comparison.
    Next, Killer Instinct. First time I played this one in a while and damn does it look good. I am not sure how it compares to the S since I can't remember, but on the X the game looks incredibly crisp. Crisp and clear are good keywords for the X. It truly does make a difference. The particle effects in KI look better than ever.
    I also booted up Skate 3, an Xbox 360 title compatible on the Xbox One that has been enhanced for the X. This is one perfect example of the crisp and clear thing I mentioned. The jaggies from before seem to be completely gone on the X. The textures look better and HDR was added as well, making the colors more vibrant. This is one I was able to tell an immediate difference and if this is what we can expect for 360 games on the X, then I am very excited for more.
    Lastly, I tried a 360 game that is not specifically enhanced for the X, yet. Grand Theft Auto IV. What a classic. I played this online with my boyfriend for a couple of hours and the main thing I noticed, was the framerate. While it wasn't locked, I saw the game clearly jump to 60fps multiple times, sometimes for a little while. This is something that impressed me greatly because again, this game has not been specifically enhanced and it is a 360 title, which means it is being emulated, and there still was very noticeable improvements in performance. I hope the game gets fully enhanced at some point.
    So far, these are my initial impressions of the Xbox One X. From what I can see, this machine is beastly. It clearly shows its prowess in most of these games and Microsoft's goal of making a new powerhouse in the console market has succeeded with flying colors. I still need to try more games out to see any improvements, but so far, I am mostly impressed. I will say that while the X is impressing me, I am happy that Microsoft is pushing the Xbox One S very hard for the holidays. They are making amazing bundle deals that include things like 3 month of game pass and even 1 or 2 full games with it. That is immense. It is a very good deal for gamers.
  16. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Like clockwork. I was actually looking forward to Thanksgiving. Going to my mom's or something, having a nice meal, hanging out with family. nah, didn't fucking happen. I went to my grandma's, on my dad's side of the family, whom I hate almost everyone in, had some Turkey, some mashed potatoes, with no gravy or anything extra really because there wasn't any. Then I went on a walk around town. trying to be positive you know. Just looking at the simple joys. Then I go home and I ended up passing out because I didn't sleep well last night and there wasn't anything going on so I drifted off to sleep for a bit. Woke up around 9pm.
     
    Then I find out that my mom and a bunch of family on her side went to Indianapolis for Thanksgiving. I wasn't asked, at all. She thought that 'I wouldn't want to go' so she didn't even consider asking me. Lovely. So that is a bit mood crippling on its own. Then I found out my brother, one of the only people I can connect with in my family, him and his girlfriend went somewhere today, a few places actually. Was I ever considered? Nope. Not even once. I was never told. Never was asked. Sure, I spent around $50 or so on my brother in the past month despite my limited funds, because I want to be a good person despite me being entirely worthless. I guess that isn't even deserving of going somewhere with him.
     
    And that is it. That was my Thanksgiving. Wasn't even really a Thanksgiving at all. Completely ignored by most of my family, having no friends to hang out with and now I literally feel nothing. I don't want to play any games, I don't want to do anything. Can't bring myself to fucking care. Tomorrow is Black Friday and Cyber Monday will also be upon us, but I don't have any extra funds, so who cares.
     
    This is currently one of the worst nights I have had in a very, very long time. I guess learning that you are entirely insignificant to your family will do that.
  17. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    So I have been thinking quite a lot lately. Actually, when am I NOT thinking about something? Well, this time I have been thinking of something more specific, that thing is love. What? Love? How incredibly unlike me to be thinking of such a subject!
     
    Yeah, it is a little strange I suppose. I do not have much of a social life at all. The social life that I do have is on the internet, mostly on these forums. I suffer from severe Aspergers Syndrome and crippling anxiety so I have an incredibly difficult time meeting new people, not to mention getting to know them well. Normally, I am a loner. I live with my dad and I usually just stay in my room and I do not leave my home much. It doesn't sound like much of a life, but I am happy with it. I get SSI due to my problems and I try to live within my means and keep things simple. I like a simple lifestyle.
     
    Anyways, I really cannot live alone. Due to my many problems, there is just no way that I can and I will fully admit it. I was born with these problems and all I can do is just accept them and accept myself and just try to be happy.
     
    This has made me think though, about the future. I tend to do that a lot, thinking of the future. Probably not a good idea in my case but I do it anyways. Because of this thinking marathon, I have recently become very scared of the future. I have tons of anxiety over many things, but this is a feeling that I have not felt before. I fear that I may be completely alone in the future.
     
    Why is this? Well, it is because of my problems that I have mentioned. I cannot drive due to my problems and I do not get out much and even if I did, I live in a small town.
     
    I have thought of something more though, that is love. Love is something that I have not thought about much in my life. I have had only one relationship and it did last for a decent while, but it ended on a bad note. Why am I thinking of love? I honestly do not know the exact reason, but I have realized that it is something that I truly want.
     
    Because of my awkward wording, this may be difficult to explain but I do want love in my life. I want to find my special somepony. I truly mean this. I want someone that I can say 'I love you' to and for them to love me back, despite all of my shortcomings. I want someone that will hold my hand and hug me, and me do the same for them.
     
    This is where my complications come in. I am incredibly shy and socially awkward. I also have very low self esteem, basically the self esteem of a rock. Which is weird because I will admit that I am a good person for what I am, but I am weird like that. How will I meet anyone majorly new to even have a chance? If we develop something, how will we see each other? I have so many worries and questions that honestly it makes me cry. My limitations keep me from doing much. I cannot travel and like I have said I am very socially awkward.
     
    I know that these things take a lot of time and it does not happen instantly, you just cannot force it and I realize that. I just feel so worried about it all and the future. Maybe this worry is unjustified but I am very weird like that. Does any of this make sense?
     
    The only real way I will find anyone is online. I have made a small step by making a post in the forums here, but I am unsure if that will do anything. I worry that if I find anyone, what if they live really far away? It is stuff like that, that depresses me. I don't know what I will do at that point. Will they come to me? Am I worth that? I probably would not be able to come to them, but if I could, I absolutely would. Who knows, maybe they would come to me. I know it is a lot to ask, but if we truly love each other, then they may not have a problem doing so.
     
    I am very serious about wanting real love and I want something like this to work, but I know that I need to give it time, a lot of time. Hopefully someday I will find my special somepony. That is what I need to have, hope, not doubt. I get depressed very easily so I am vulnerable to doubt and fear, but I just need to have hope. One day, I will find that special somepony, I will. It is just keeping this spirit up that is the challenge.
     
    Thank you for reading if you did. This was very confusing to read I bet but my wording can be weird. It makes me feel really nice letting these thoughts out and I am glad I was able to share them with you all.
  18. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Yeah, this is a bit sudden, but this is a thing I have been wanting to do for ages and this subject is perfect for it. I made this video talking about how I think Apex Legends is a clear sign of gamer hypocrisy.
    What do you all think? How did I do? I would love to continue doing this because I am quite passionate about gaming.
     
  19. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    One thing I think about rather often is space. The glorious blackness in the universe that contains all that we know. Looking out at the stars at night, thinking, "Wow, we are just a tiny little pixel compared to all that is out there. Standing on a rock that is dwarfed by the massive star that we orbit." It is a rather humbling feeling but also it fills me with determination (save point), a sense of wonder. Kinda makes the hairs stand up if I think about it. Thinking about the things that make us so small.


     




    The Sun has no interest in our petty politics


     

    The Sun is a massive ball of gas and flames that is a million times larger than the Earth. It is something we have no power over whatsoever, the star can destroy us at any instant. Yet, this makes me feel humble. Space humbles me. One day, it would be amazing to see a gas giant planet up close, to witness the behemoth that has size that we humans can barely even comprehend. A skyscraper is massive compared to any of us, what about Jupiter? Image staring at it, close to it, what would that look like?


     




    Earth has hurricanes. Jupiter has these. The Great Red Spot is an ongoing cyclonic storm that you can fit 3 Earths in.


     

    Rambling aside, this is just me talking about one of my obsessions. The wonders of space and the fascination that I continuously have. Imagining all that is out there, knowing that we humans aren't even a blip on the galactic radar.


     




    Endless wonder


     

    So yeah, there it is. Me rambling a bit about space. Gushing my own obsession. How weird. Kyoshi, me, is weird isn't he? Isn't I? Me. Now, I need to go play some Elite Dangerous. *-*


  20. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    E3 is coming ot a close, and after Microsoft's stage conference, there has been soooo much damn negativity surging the internet. Microsoft revealed the new Xbox One S, which is an amazing deal for what you get, but so many people are saying Microsoft's vision has already killed the S with the Project Scorpio reveal, as well as concentrating entirely on both consoles AND PC. Micorosft wants to 'bridge the generations gap' and many people aren't on board with this.
     
    You know what? I am a huge fan of the Xbox One, it is my favorite game console of all time and as a huge fan, I am not worried, at all. What Microsoft showed actually excites me. Why? Because it shows Microsoft has an immense focus on gaming and gamers. For them, it doesn't matter if you game on a console or PC, we both will be getting all of those new games and in some cases,we can play together! Now what about the S and the Scorpio? That is simple. The S model is a very nice deal. For those wanting to get a fantastic video game console and a great media machine, this is a truly good deal, especially with 4K support. The Scorpio will be costly, we all know this. If the specs are true, it will cost easily several hundred dollars, so I don't know why people think the Scorpio is a direct competitor to the S. Not everyone wil l have the budget to spare for the Scorpio. Not everyone will be interested in the Scorpio at that time, so now, they will have a much cheaper alternative to play the same exact games.
     
    And this 'bridging the gaps thing', my theory is this: The Scorpio will be the next Xbox console, but still under the Xbox One name. I believe that after another 4 to 5 years, games will start becoming exclusive to the Scorpio, which will then start phasing out the old system. Everyone expects this anyways, so this seems like a smart way to go about it. On top of this, the Scorpio will have %100 compatibility with all Xbox One games, so that could be a smart move too. I could be entirely wrong about all of that but that is a theory. So many people are obsessed with the specs and what the system will mean, but for now, all we know is that all Xbox One games will work on it and other Xbox One units, of course, so that keeps me perfectly happy.
     
    In short, I am not worried about the future of Xbox. It seems Microsoft wants to focus less on exclusives and more on gaming as a whole. I don't care if a game is coming out on both Xbox one and PC, I will still be able to play the game on my Xbox One, so I really don't care where else it goes. Some are saying 'But this gives nobody a reason to buy an Xbox One!' Which that is entirely false, as people who are going ot buy an Xbox One are going to buy one anyways. 'Exclusives' are not the only reason to get a console. To me, Microsoft has a clear vision for what they want in the future of Xbox, bring console and PC gamers together in a huge community, rather than splitting them apart for whatever reason.
     
    On top of all of this though, I just want to be positive about gaming in general. Seeing Nintendo fumble as much as they are in my eyes really makes me want to be positive about gaming, so this is an attempt for that. Friggin N4G.com is doing nothing but negativity, so I suggest not going there.
     
    Anywho, there is that.
  21. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    "If a game isn't fun, why bother?" 
    That is a quote I didn't think about too much when Reggie first said. After playing Elden Ring, I understand the true meaning behind those words. Elden Ring is, simply put, one of the most unfun, infuriating, not worth it gaming experiences I've ever had and I gave it my all, I gave it the best I could give it. Being someone who is a huge fan of the Souls franchise, I was eager to see the next evolution of what FS is capable of. Instead I got the great gameplay of Dark Souls, if nothing else that makes it good or, most importantly, fun. 
    Elden Ring is essentially Dark Souls 4 in all but the name. The gameplay is lifted straight from DS3 with elements of Bloodborne and Sekiro sprinkled in. Only now, the world is massive. Sounds like a winner, but it doesn't matter if nothing in this world means anything. Oh sure, the world is gigantic, but it is as interesting as a cheese wheel. There's no interesting NPC's to find, there's no towns or areas that feel alive like a real world with purpose. Instead, it is the same type of setting as a Souls game with none of the well crafted design that makes it all feel contained in a proper manner. In Elden Ring, it feels like if you took the world of The Witcher 3 and stripped it of all character, all purpose and all the fun. In Elden Ring you ride your horse from one area of the map, to another area of the map, encountering nothing worthwhile along the way. Occassionally you will find a catacombs or ruins that looks identical to the all of the ruins or catacombs that came before it. You can explore to your hearts content, only to find very little worth exploring for. 
    It doesn't help that this "freedom" to go anywhere, unlike the finely tuned worlds from before, you can just go to areas way beyond your level early on. Encountering tons upon tons of enemies not worth fighting in any way whatsoever. Then you realize that is most of the game. Unless you are vastly more powerful, most enemies, especially much more difficult ones, are never worth fighting unless for combat sake. They offer so little rewards that you might as well avoid them, which I often found myself doing because it all got so boring. 
    Same can be said for the numerous boss fights. The bosses in this game fall into one of only two categories: Laughably easy or infuriatingly difficult. Pick your poison because there's almost nothing in between. So many bosses either require no effort to kill and so many others are so overbloated with bullshit that it simply isn't fun. Many of the later bosses especially are maddening. They have so many long strings of attacks and usually two hits or even one hit will be enough to murder you. All of your leveling and armor, made futile. In the old games, you could legit be a tank if you wanted to, with armor and leveling. This game doesn't give a shit about what you choose. You either play with friends or go insane playing alone, smashing your head against a wall until you finally, barely defeat a boss for rewards that are never worth it. I almost never felt truly accomplished. Never felt like I did anything incredible. It was just the same old shit, over and over and over again. I've seen this song and dance before, numerous times. From Software has used this formula before in past games but they did it far better then and instead of improving on it or trying something completely new, they take steps backwards and expect the giant, boring world to make up for it. 
    I was watching a video recently of the Artorias boss fight from Dark Souls 1, the DLC of it. That is my favorite boss in the history of games and after playing 50 hours of Elden Ring and watching that video again, I can say that without a doubt, nothing, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in Elden Ring comes even slightly close to the perfection of Artorias and his boss battle. Elden Ring and its bosses are an absolute joke in comparison. Artorias has the perfect balance, he is not over the top, he is not overly punishing but he will mess you up if you are careless. You need to be methodical, patient. In Elden Ring? Fuck that noise. Everything here is about reactionary, endless dodging or blocking to not die in two hits while desperately trying to lower the bosses massive health bare. Then the boss will unleash a cheap insta kill move halfway through because fuck you. 
    This is all in a game that has a friggin 97 on Metacritic, a score that it absolutely does not deserve. Any game with a boss like Radahn should never have a score that high, Radahn being one of the worst boss fights I've ever seen. At least he is entirely unique I suppose and not copy and pasted like so many other bosses. Everyone hated that in Dark Souls 2 but it is conveniently ignored here, because of course.
    This "review" is more like a rant than anything because I just uninstalled the game. I had enough of it and I've especially had enough of the brain dead tribalism that so many people have. If you dare criticize this game, you get crucified for daring to not have the opinion of the masses. That's all this culture is now, pathetic tribalism over nothing. Over something that isn't even fun. Remember: If it isn't fun, why bother?
    My score: 3/10
    It has the great combat basis, but almost nothing else from the Souls series that made them so compelling. It is a waste of effort, a constant barrage of bullshit for so little rewards. Playing a game solely for its difficulty isn't my idea of a good time or a good game. 
  22. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    The Call of Duty series is something I actually once loved. A lot. Call of Duty 2 was a huge deal at the start of that console gen, Call of Duty 4 revolutionized multiplayer gaming and Black Ops 2 is a game that I played for hours and hours on end, I couldn't get enough of it. Sure, the series has had some blunders here and there around that time, but despite being annual, the series was able to stay consistently decent.
     
    Those days are gone though. Activision, the mother of all greedy companies in gaming, is now determined to f*ck this franchise into the ground. Ghosts was mediocre, Advanced Warfare was only okay, and Black Ops 3 was a pile of sh*t and that was the last straw for me. Now we have the almighty Infinite Warfare, with a name that bland we know the cash cow has gone dry. This game looks to be as generic as they come, but it all gets worse.
     
    You want Modern Warfare remastered? Sorry, you have to buy the $80 version of Infinite Warfare to get it. Oh and you won't get all of the content that was in the original game either. You want the Terminal map that everyone loved in Modern warfare 2? Well, you need to PREORDER Infinite Warfare! The game's setting also does not look appealing at all. We are going to other planets now? Um, yay? Ooooh, we can fly in space ships and fight other ships! In what will most likely be a very linear and pointless sequence that looks awesome in the trailers, but is actually a gimmick in the game. And despite all of the extreme backlash and having the 2nd most disliked video of all time on its belt, Activision STILL will not back down from its horrid bullshit. We still won;t get MW remastered on its own and we still have to pre-order to get Terminal. The new zombies mode also looks like utter trash, as it looks like it is just tacked on, out of place garbage. Will we only get one map this time just like Black Ops 3? Oh please let it be so Activision, I want you to take all of my money.
     
    Infinite Warfare is also a rare species this holiday season. It will be the only major FPS that will have a season pass I believe. That is kinda nuts. Its two main competition, Titanfall 2 and Battlefield 1, are doing away with season passes and instead going the Overwatch route of free updates with micro-transactions most likely. Infinite Warfare will, if Black Ops 3 is any indication, have micro-transactions, a $50 season pass AND still no dedicated servers, once again trailing FAR behind all of its competition. The campaign will also probably be incoherent nonsense. The greed deployed by Activision is absolutely insane. Come on Activision, give us even less for our money, we all love it! This game will also have content locked behind its season pass despite being finished, that is obvious. This series is the epitome of EVERYTHING that is wrong in gaming now.
     
    Why do people still buy this shit? It is absolutely clear that Activision doesn't care. They just view you as a walking wallet and the way they are treating gamers and fans of this franchise is horrid. I hope, for the sake of gaming, that this game will fail, hard. I want to see it absolutely flop in sales numbers, I want it to mark the end of this already dead franchise. It is worthless now and Activision is using it as a tool to fuck us over and I for one am sick of it.
     
    Knowing the odds though it will still sell millions. Somehow people are not sick of the same old shit every single year. There are a lot of people that just do not care.It will still be a huge success and we will see Advanced Warfare 2 next year and whatever shit Treyarch is making. The cycle will continue, every single year. And if that happens, my hope in gaming will dwindle even further. I want this franchise to die.
     
    Rambling over. Wanted to get that off my chest.
  24. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Here we are at the end of another year. Next year we will have all sorts of futuristic technology like hover boards, flying cars, and even time travel! For now though, it is still 2014 and what a year in games it was. Overall, it was a year of 'mixed bags'. While there were some great titles, there were others that were either just plain terrible or could not live up to the extreme hype that the developers gave it.
     
    However, there is one game that I feel rose above its competition in being incredibly painful to play and not fun in the slightest. A game that has a focus that just does not work like it should and makes the game downright terrible, to me at least. Many games could make the worst game category for some, but I feel that most of the games this year, no matter how overhyped, did accomplish at least something decent. This game though, I feel did almost nothing good. Now, there are some of you that will completely disagree with me and you might enjoy the game. That is perfectly fine, don't let my opinion dampen your enjoyment, but I will be speaking rather harshly about my choice. So let's get on with it.
     
     
     
    Kyoshi's Worst Game of the Year is....
     
     
    That is my worst game of the year. It might not be the worst programmed game, far from it, but it is the one game that angered me in way more ways than one. It just doesn't feel like what a game should be, fun. Again, you might disagree, that's fine. Enjoy what you enjoy.
     
    Now that we have that negativity out of the way, be on the look out for my next blog, Kyoshi's Game of the Year. That will be a lot more positive I think.
     
    See you all then!
  25. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Life is pointless. Lets get that out of the way early. Nothing that we do 'really' matters. So, why do we bother? It is because we want to make something of ourselves, to accomplish something. I have always thought that since I am not doing much with my life...at all, that I am inferior to other human beings. I mean, just look around. Look at all of these people doing so many great things! Going to college, working hard, blah,blah. Yeah. That is fine and all, if you enjoy it, then fine with me. Honestly, though, life is mostly an ego feeding contest. It seems all I hear about is all the great things certain people are doing, or what certain others are trying to do. It is all about being better than your fellow humans. It is not always the case, but it is more prominent now than ever. Look at this fandom, it is filled with it. People constantly trying to seem like they are great because of one thing or another. 'Look! I can do this! Or that! Of I know this! Or that! Look how smart I am!'
     
    The best thing I can learn to do is to just say fuck it. None of this shit really matters, so why do I let it get to me? I am always depressed and I may stay that way for a good while, I will admit that. Still,the best I can do is just ignore all of this stupid shit. Thinking that I need to be better at this, or that, or I must do this with my life, or that, I am just feeding this useless notion. The world is full of elitists and that is unavoidable, because society constantly yells it into our ears that if we are doing certain things, then we are better than everyone else who is not doing it. Don't believe me? Take a look at a random college commercial. Usually, it is advertising some business or technical college and the tag line is always this: Some person, usually a male, explains his story about how he wasn't doing anything important, that is until he went to this college and now he actually had a life worth living apparently. What about all of those people who work at convenience stores? Or factories? What do they mean? Nothing, if you go by elitist standards. It is all about college in the job regard. That is just one random example so take it as you will.
     
    So....yeah, this is just the ramblings of an idiot who quite frankly has a lot of free time and not too many friends and zero social skills, so this probably seems dumb, but that is what I want to say. The best thing I can do is say fuck it, because nothing really matters, so I should just live my life how I want. It may not be perfect, but it okay I suppose. My viewpoint is this, if you are not harming anyone, then live your life how you please.
     
    End of pointless post. Keep in mind, I try to be a nice person despite how brash and negative I seem. I know that I can be very annoying at times, because I even annoy myself.
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