Wooooo paranoia!

[Evilshy 5,090]

I think I have borderline paranoia or something. When I'm walking through, say, wal mart or something, whenever I constantly think of what I would do if some dude attacked me. I never listen to music so I can hear people behind mr, and if the lighting is right, I even use shadows as an indicator of stuff happening behind me, my goal being to be able to tell if somebody is sneaking up on me without them thinking I'm ready for them.

 

For instance, I was sitting in taco bell, eating a 5 layer burrito and playing my DS, a pastime of mine, when I noticed some dude looking at me. He had finished his food and was sitting there, texting or something on his phone, and every now and then, he'd look around, sometimes looking at me. My first thought was "he sees me with my DS and probably saw me checking the time on my itouch, and now he's texting his some guy in the parking lot and saying that the dude in the green coat has a bunch of expensive stuff with him and I'm going to get mugged."

 

So as I finish, I pour out the remainder of my Dr. Pepper and fill my cup with lemonade (I'll explain why I did this later). I walk out, feelin a bit nervous, not scared, but a little nervous, and was trying to stay alert of everything around me. I held my cup in a way where I could quickly squeeze it to pop the lid off and then throw it into an attackers face, where the citric acid would cause acute pain if it got in his eyes. At the very least, it would distract them long enough for me to put a back kick into their knee, likely taking them down, maybe even breaking their knee (I have quite powerful kicks). If it didn't, a back kick will put me in a good position to start running. Now, I know my friend lives over here, and I could take a route through this area where they would be forced to follow on foot, which would be hard if I just kicked one of his knee that hard. But if there are more of them, that could be a problem, and then I'd have to...

 

And my thoughts continued like this until I reached my car, got in, locked the doors, and then cursed myself because I was being an idiot and wasted a perfectly good cup of Dr. Pepper so I could get lemonade, which I hate.

 

 

Also, I hate having people behind me. At school, I sit in the back row whenever possible so there's nobody in my blind spot. In large rooms, I tend to go towards corners, preferably ones near doors. I always keep track of all potential entrances and exits to a room, including windows. Whenever somebody walks in, I think of what I could do to either defend myself or escape if they attacked me. Only exceptions are my friends and other people I know enough to trust them to not attack out of nowhere. There are still some people I've known for a while that I don't trust enough to feel relaxed around.

Even at home, I don't like sitting with my back to an open area, although obviously I know that my family isn't going to just attack out of nowhere. In the house of friends and family is about the only place I feel completely at ease. I'm still really jumpy when anybody, even family, touches me without warning, though.

Edited March 22, 2012 by Evilshy

[Crispy 5,563]

 

Also, I hate having people behind me. At school, I sit in the back row whenever possible so there's nobody in my blind spot. In large rooms, I tend to go towards corners, preferably ones near doors. I always keep track of all potential entrances and exits to a room, including windows.

 

I tend to do this in restaurants. I'm not a fan of having people at my back, either.

[Evilshy 5,090]

 

 

I tend to do this in restaurants. I'm not a fan of having people at my back, either.

 

Restaurants are pretty bad. All those forks and other pointy objects. Too many people I don't know with too much access to too many potential weapons.

[Kazuki Fuse 534]

Everytime I walk to 7-11 past 9pm. So much paranoia. I'll watch every car that drives by and look at them to see if they're slowing down or if they pass me I watch them till they turn a corner and will watch to make sure they arent turning around to come back at me. I'll cross the street to avoid walking past anyone else, even if they're an old lady or something, and I always hold my cigarette between my fingers in a way that if I curled my hand into a fist and had to punch someone, the burning end will go right into them.

[Shankveld 4,949]

Sounds like paranoia to me,

it's definitely not normal and unhealthy in the way it disrupts your day to day life (I dislike lemonade as well, gross!)

I would suggest talking to a professional about these thoughts,

I just want you to be able to lead a life where you are not under constant fear ~

[Lady Rarity Pony 4,892]

Wow, I'm very similar with that kind of paranoid behavior.

I do things like keeping a pen easily accessible in my pocket and intentionally not drinking all my hot chocolate or coffee to keep it available as a weapon.

I used to not pay attention to anything really, but then when something happened I would just freeze up and not be able to think, after being caught off guard on a few occasions, I turned everything around and now I'm always alert.

 

I hate the feeling of someone being behind me, if I see anyone make an effort to get behind me I think of the worst possible scenario and prepare myself for it. I've always been one to prefer to be in the corner. When I walk in a place I'll usually scrutinize every aspect of it, entrances, people, etc.

 

My paranoia probably reaches it's height when I am outside with my siblings. Trying to keep an eye on all of them, having to bite my tongue when my parents let's one of them stray off from the group.

Probably not the healthiest way, but I prefer being paranoid over being oblivious. There's never really been an in between for me. When I'm not forcing myself to be completely alert I tend to drift off into some fantasy world, that ends up leaving me oblivious to anything happening around me.

[Evilshy 5,090]

I'm not too worried about it, since it's not a HUGE problem. Yes, I kinda wish I wouldn't get like this as often as I do, but it's never for long, and it only happens when I'm alone.

When I'm with friends, I'm usually distracted by whatever we're doing. I'm still wary of other people, but I don't get nervous. Although, it might have something to do with the fact that the people I hang out with most often, both are big dudes, one is currently doing police training and the other is a black belt in at least 2 martial arts, so I think we could handle ourselves if anybody tried anything

 

I'm not too worried about it, since it's not a HUGE problem. Yes, I kinda wish I wouldn't get like this as often as I do, but it's never for long, and it only happens when I'm alone.

When I'm with friends, I'm usually distracted by whatever we're doing. I'm still wary of other people, but I don't get nervous. Although, it might have something to do with the fact that the people I hang out with most often, both are big dudes, one is currently doing police training and the other is a black belt in at least 2 martial arts, so I think we could handle ourselves if anybody tried anything

[Croaks 251]

I thought I was the on person who acted like this.

I'm paranoid as hell, man.

[killersave60 22]

I think that you are a little bit freak but the most cool people are like that i think

[Champion RD92 8,658]

I get paranoid sometimes too.

 

Like a lot of the time when I'm walking around my school campus or somewhere, whenever people around me are laughing, I get paranoid and think they're laughing at me for some reason...it's really weird.

 

Like I know there is no reason for anyone to be laughing at me, but I just have this weird paranoid feeling that I can't seem to shake off...