depersonalization

[~asdf~ 110]

I put this in general as I'm not looking for advise so much as just what your thoughts are.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization_disorder

 

For a while now I've felt this way (Ironically as it basically is the opposite of feeling as yourself.) But what I'm getting at is.

 

Have you ever, or do you, feel this way? I can't remember when I started to loose myself but I've decided to start writing out a journal, which brings me to another question.

 

What do you think I should put in this journal?

 

Any thoughts on this subject would be appreciated.

[Mephala 2,633]

So that's what it's called.

Yeah, I've had that for a bit now.

Every time I go to a doctor they slam the "depression" label on it and send me to a new psych :S

 

I find that when I write in my journal, I tend to write poetry, and that helps me a little.

I wish I could help but it all depends on the person.

[Standard User 2,127]

What I love about reading up on medical ailments and their symptoms: I am always convinced that I have said ailment. The Health II textbook at my high school had me half-convinced I was pregnant.

 

But yeah, I feel like that a lot. I've always just called it my autopilot mode.

[~asdf~ 110]

So that's what it's called.

Yeah, I've had that for a bit now.

Every time I go to a doctor they slam the "depression" label on it and send me to a new psych :S

 

I find that when I write in my journal, I tend to write poetry, and that helps me a little.

I wish I could help but it all depends on the person.

 

Yes, I suppose it would be easy to just label us with depression and mark us with the rest of society but any well versed psychiatrist should know the difference. I've written poetry before but it doesn't seem to help. Most art that I do ends up feeling like it was done by someone else. Like I am my own imposter

[Otter 1,942]

I get that at work a lot. I'll just be standing there, being bored and angry that I have to work at McDonald's, and I'll just feel as if I'm not even there, like I'm just staring through the eyes of another person.

[Mephala 2,633]

Yes, I suppose it would be easy to just label us with depression and mark us with the rest of society but any well versed psychiatrist should know the difference. I've written poetry before but it doesn't seem to help. Most art that I do ends up feeling like it was done by someone else. Like I am my own imposter

 

I know exactly what you mean. When I look at things I've done I just feel sort of empty. I'm like, "I couldn't have done that, someone else did."

Do you get memory lapses too?

[~asdf~ 110]

I know exactly what you mean. When I look at things I've done I just feel sort of empty. I'm like, "I couldn't have done that, someone else did."

Do you get memory lapses too?

 

OH MY LORD, You have no idea! I actually had one today while I was mountain biking. I was just coming down a trail and I sort of faded out and was back into the back of my mind.

[Mephala 2,633]

OH MY LORD, You have no idea! I actually had one today while I was mountain biking. I was just coming down a trail and I sort of faded out and was back into the back of my mind.

 

Agh! I know! They're so irritating!

Once I was drawing in my kitchen and I just suddenly woke up lying on my bathroom floor with my dad screaming at me about the disturbing qualities of my images, which I don't even remember doing. It's so scary :S

[Carolina 212]

I know of a movie about Depersonalization called Numb. It's pretty good, but I'm not sure how realistically it portrays the disorder, since I've never encountered it IRL. Maybe checking out the movie would help you, though, just to see how someone else deals with it and how it is represented in fiction. It's quite a funny film, actually and stars Mathew Perry (Chandler from Friends).

[AegisReflector 886]

I've never had such feelings. I'm usually just the kind of guy who views the world as a moronic place to live, but not as a dream-like state.

[Circadian 1,273]

That feeling you get when you're detached from the world? As if you're not real?

 

I feel like that all the time.

 

Does objective reality really exist? #Plato'sCave

[Jalaton 155]

That happens to me sometimes. I'll look in a mirror and really wonder about the person that looks back at me. Sometimes it also happens when I think of myself by name and it feels like that's a totally different person and that I'm just 'the consciousness', just a nameless thing.

[Arrow 236]

So that's what it's called.

Yeah, I've had that for a bit now.

Every time I go to a doctor they slam the "depression" label on it and send me to a new psych :S

 

I find that when I write in my journal, I tend to write poetry, and that helps me a little.

I wish I could help but it all depends on the person.

 

No wonder Minion, I've secretly taken control of your body when you least expected it. But I'm just doing all the awesome things for you, you're doing all those awkward things yourself!

 

OnT, this sounds a bit weird. This reminds me of split-personalities. That freaks me out, my former friend had that and he was reeeeaaally weird D: Now I'm not friends with him anymore, thank the lord.

[Creamy Arty 6,252]

Nice find. I've felt like this a few times in the past but it's not a chronic issue for me. Most such experiences have fallen under the sense of automation described in the article. There were times where I was just going about my business but felt as if I was simply looking on as my body took care of things for me without my direction. An interesting experience, to say the least. Been a long time since I've felt that way.

[~asdf~ 110]

Nice find. I've felt like this a few times in the past but it's not a chronic issue for me. Most such experiences have fallen under the sense of automation described in the article. There were times where I was just going about my business but felt as if I was simply looking on as my body took care of things for me without my direction. An interesting experience, to say the least. Been a long time since I've felt that way.

 

What I get are like flashes back into reality, it's as though sometimes I'm "Waking up" and everything that happened beforehand was all just a dream. There is actually the black foggy feeling you get when you first wake up.