Final Thoughts (FANFIC)

[Caesar2013 22]

(I originally wrote this as Caesar2013 on Fanfiction.com, just bringing it here.) MLP is the Property of Hasbro. I own nothing.

 

You might be wondering why I have decided to this. You may think you could have saved me somehow, but you can't. Nothing you can do can ease the ache I feel in my heart. A pain that is tearing through my fiber, anguishing my soul, shattered into a thousand pieces. I cannot stand one second of this most miserable of exsistences. But when she was alive, my life was warm and tranquil. Though the military required my absence from her, she was in my thoughts.

 

Every moment with her was a thousand lifetimes of happiness and tranquility. Whenever Cadence came to visit me, she would always wish me luck with those rowdy soldiers, or simply little peck on the cheek, those were the moments i remember the best, with the most fondness. Those memories I was determined to hold on to, even as the effects of alcohol clouded my mind. But even with those memories, I have nothing to live for anymore. With Cadence no longer amongst us, my exsistence is empty... meaningless. Even if we reached the end of time, somehow, someway, our presence together would make our final moments the best it could be. The moments I spent with her was heaven on earth, though blissfully ignorant of the pain I must feel now.

 

I remember when we first met, the times we shared. How shy I was then to talk to her. The idea that one day, we'd be getting married, then starting a family then seemed like a folly. Our wedding night wasn't exactly an ideal one, with the changeling invasion and all. But we pulled through and finally became husband and wife. We lived together in wedded bliss. One day she told me the exciting news... she was pregant. The state of wedded bliss we knew, had been rekindled. I would make sure that her every need was attened to. At other times, I would work long hours to make sure we had enough to support her. I was the happiest stallion in Equestria. Princess Celestia even gave me time off to spend more time with her. We'd discuss potential names, and argue who would be the better parent. We laughed about it then, I wish could laugh about it now. But all the same, every single moment of joy, every minute of laughter, has been replaced with years of bitter sadness.

 

I was supposed to be a father that day, my wife was supposed to come home that week. Never shall I forget her screams of pain nor the look on her face as she slowly died. Alicorns were supposed to be beautiful, immortal creatures. Instead, their very being is just as mortal as the rest of us. Never shall I forget what the doctor told. Never shall I forget that my child, my foal, was born dead. My very being had broken that day. I screamed, I cried, I denied it. "She isn't dead!" I would yell. But there was nothing my tears and screams could do, to bring back my beloved Cadance. I never even got the chance to say goodbye to her, when she was still amongst us the living, whom must now carry on in her absence in this world, this life, this hell of exsistence. Only the bitter taste of alcohol, seemed to dull my senses, dull my pain, and dull my anguish. But Canterlot does not need, nor ever, needs a drunk of a Captain. My downward spiral into Tartarus, my sentencing to hell, made ever harder. As I sit here, taking a last sip of alcohol, contemplating my final thoughts. She could have, and should have lived. She should have remained with me, and we would have raised our foal together. We could have grown old together. Watched as our foal had foals as well.

 

We could've left this world together. But that is folly. That is a lie. I must linger, I have been sentence to this hell, until Celestia sees fit that I may be reunited with my beloved Cadence, and the foal I never had the chance to love, embrace.

 

I must linger in this paradise lost.

 

I am sorry, mother and father. I am sorry to my friends at the Academy. I am most sorry to you, my little sister, Twily. I remember some of the good times we shared together. Wasn't I who taught you to fly a ite oh so many years ago? I promised I would always be there for you. If only your Big Brother Best Friend Forever, could be there for you. Sadly, that is no longer the case. I felt like I died, along with my wife and foal. But instead I have been condemened to Tartarus and to live without Cadence is my eternal punishment. Though It was you, who helped ease my pain through this difficult time, but this overwhelming pain that gnaws at my heart and sould, has finally overcome all barriers and left me a broken stallion that was your brother. But alas, there is nothing more you can do. You must take care of our mother and father. No doubt that you will share my pain, a pain that shakes my soul. You must be the stronger child now.

 

This gun feels heavy and cold. But nothing feels colder than I do at this very moment. I can hear you, mother and father, screaming at me to open the door. Your pleads and yells, mean nothing to me at this very moment. The door had been barricaded, all but the strongest of magic could be enough to break it down.

 

 

I must leave this world of broken dreams and hopes. I hope that in the next life, there is a better world. A new world where there is no pain, no death, and one with my beloved Cadence. A world of eternal happiness and sunshine. There is one bullet in the chamber. . One bullet to silence my pain once and for all. I am sorry, my parents, friends, and... Twilight, but I must be with my bride.

 

Your Dispairing son, Shining Armor

 

 

 

 

Forgive me... for my selfishness...

 

 

 

 

 

 

********************************************************************************************************************************

 

Author's Notes.

Not too long ago, I read a story with Cadence in the same postion somewhat as Shining Armor in "Final Thoughts". In the fanfic, Cadence had now experienced the death of her husband, as Alicorns are immortal, they outlive the rest of their peers, in this case, Shining Armor, her husband. When Shining Armor died in that story, Cadence was devestated, as she had to be immortal while her loved ones died all around her. Unfortunately, I do not remember the name of that story. So on my take of it, It's actually Shining Armor that outlives Cadence. The way I see it, Alicorns are naturally Immortal, and can only die through other means, such as physical assaults and other means of external damage. In that case, they may be able to live years and years as everyone else around them dies. Unfortunately for Shining Armor, he learns that Alicorns are just as mortal as the rest of the other ponies.

Edited January 31, 2013 by Caesar2013

[Caesar2013 22]

Former Captain of the Canterlot Guard Shining Armor, 27, Canterlot, passed away earlier this week at 10:32 p.m. as a result of injuries sustained from a self-inflicted gun shot wound, after being taken off life support at Canterlot General Hospital.

 

Shining Armor was born in Canterlot, Royal Province, Equestria where he would live throughout his life. Shining Armor was a graduate of the Equestrian Army Academy, former Army Captain, and a hero to many for his role in stopping the Changeling attack on Canterlot.

 

He is survived by his mother and father, Lady Twinkle Star and Lord Sparkle Night; and sister, Princess Twilight Sparkle.

 

Shining Armor is preceded in death by wife, Princess Mi Amore Cadenza, and infant foal, Sturdy Shield.

Services for the late-captain of the Guard will be held at Canterlot Palace. Burial will be at the Equestrian Military Burial Cemetary.