Hello, my introduction and request for help

[RainbowBloom 0]

Hi everypony, this is my first post in the forum, and I hope it isn't the last time. BTW English is not my native language, but I think I'm good enough to get myself understood.

Why I said I hope this isn't my last post? Because I'm suffering a little crisis. This is my history, I hope I don't bore you, and please read to the end:

I consider myself a Brony and really have not problem at all with that (I have a liking for cute things and also like cool things so I think my life is in balance). I've been interested in MLP-FiM for like five months, so I'm really new to the herd. At first it was just out of curiosity, when I saw all those little pony avatars that I thought came out of nowhere. I started investigating about them, did some some youtube searchs and I have to say, I got hooked on the concept. I didn't started to watch it right away cause I'm kind of organized when I watch my shows and at the moment I was watching something else. I prefer to watch just one show at a time, to take my time and not to rush things. This was around october 2012. In the meantime, before starting my viewing of the show I got ahold of the S1 & S2 songs, started watching more clips on youtube (the likes of "the best of character x", "cute momments" and things like those) and got hooked at all of it too. I really liked it very much, and my anticipation started rising. I also researched the characters and I really got to love them, I liked their personalities and the way they where portrayed.

When I finished watching what I was watching at the time (Digimon Tamers, BTW), around the final days of January 2013, I was like 'Ok, I'm ready, let's watch the show now'. I was a little affraid that I wouldn't like watching entire episodes, because deep down I knew this was a kids show, but when I watched I realized I was really enjoying them.

But something happened by the end of february. I guess you all know what I mean. Alicorn Twilight. I was doing some reading on wikipedia (researching why season 3 was only 13 episodes long) when I read the line "in this season Twilight Sparkle transforms into an alicorn". Just the word "transforms" made me feel very uneasy. I had to see it with my eyes and when I saw her with the wings I was like "what have they done?".  I know is just a little change, estetical if you will, but just the idea of them changing the character made feel a little weird. Then the worst thought came to my mind: "There is two Twilights now, and the one im watching right now in season 1 is the old one, the false one. There is no way I'm gonna see the show in the same way again". And I haven't. Every time I see Twilight, I feel like something is missing. See, my problem is not that much watching Twilight with the wings, I know i can get used to that. My problem is that I feel weird watching Twilight without them, like it's another character. I find it weird and don´t want it to be that way. I'm one of those fans who really wishes the wings would go away.

That's part one of my problem. Part two is Lauren Faust leaving the show. It gives me the impression that what was shown in Season 3 and what will be in Season 4 should not to be taken into account because she wasn't there. She also said that Alicorn Twilight is not what she had in mind for the character, I even read somewhere that she said she no longer watched the show because it was sad for her, because it was too different from what she had in mind. So i feel like season 3 are fake episodes and just because of that I judge them unfairly wrong. To be honest, i have watched some clips and liked them (I love the Rainbow Dash and Scootaloo moment, I like the Bad Seed song, Applejack like a foal is dang cute) but after reading that people think season 3 is the worst thing ever, I don't see them in the same way. Which is unfair to the writers, I understand that. I also understand this show is made by tens, perhaps hundreds of persons. Lauren made the foundations but the show is what it is because the writers, the artists, the voice actresses and all the people involved made it that way. Lauren was extremely important, without her initial direction the show could have been very different. But I still don't like the idea of her leaving the show in such a bad terms as I have read. Do you really think season 3 and season 4 would have been very different if Lauren had stayed? Is Lauren really disapointed with the show?

As you can see, I have a lot of things clear (the wings change is even superfluos and could even be ignored, the old episodes remain the same,  with the moments that got me hooked, I know I'm overreacting about little things, theres still a lot of great things I haven't watched) but it's the negative, even false ideas I can't get out of my mind (Twilight in season 1&2 is the false one now, season 3 is bad because Lauren is not longer with us, the show has changed too much and no longer is good).

I've been sufering since the Alicorn event for like a month. I can't watch the show anymore, which is an idea I don't like. I really want to enjoy this MLP concept, heck, I don't like the idea of abandoning it just because of some little foolish thoughts, especially taking in mind how much I liked it before.

I'm in some serious need of help here.

Edited March 29, 2013 by RainbowBloom

[isded 43]

Hey there, welcome!

 

I'm also new and English is also not my native language so that makes two of us

 

Also Twilight didn't "change" into an alicorn. She evolved. 

After years of studying she was finaly ready to became an alicorn. 

She can fly now and is probably more powerful but she is still Twilight. 

Her character hasn't changed, just her appearance. 

There aren't two Twilights just one.

 

It's just like growing up: your appearance changes but YOU stay the same

 

So the next time you see Twi with no wings, just remember: It's just a younger Twilight

[Antismurf9001 1,271]

Hello and welcome to the forums!  I see your concerns about season 3, and I understand what you're saying.  About alicorn Twilight, her transformation really only changes her physical appearance.  Other than that, she's still the same character.

 

About Lauren leaving, from what I've seen, her leaving had nothing to do with changes to the show.  She just wanted to move onto other things.  Also, she also says that the reason she's never seen the new episodes is not because she doesn't agree with the changes, it's that it's sad to see the show go on without her.  Also, while she didn't intend for Twilight to become an alicorn, she has mentioned that she wanted her to become Celestia's successor.

 

Concerning season 3 as a whole, while perhaps it's not my favorite season, I would by no means consider the episodes to be 'fake'.  They still have good humor, adorableness, and charm.  I'd still recommend watching this season, even though Lauren was not apart of it.  Hopefully this information helps.

 

Anyways, I hope that you enjoy your time here, and I hope to see you around!

[King 5,626]

Welcome Welcome Welcome!!!

 

Welcome to the friendliest corner of the internets

Im sure you will fit right in

 

While the Twilight Alicorn evolution was a shock to some and a little out of our comfort zone, I dont see this as a particularly bad thing. Twilight is still the same nerdy Unicorn...just now with wings....

 

She will still be studying with her friends and will still have many adventures

 

Plus there are still 2 more parts to that finale that will come next season, so it isn't certain she will stay as an Alicorn yet....

 

Either way the show will do just fine

So dont worry to much

 

If you have any questions or just wanna talk, shoot me a PM, Id love to help

[Zygen 6,066]

Well hello there and welcome! Happy to have a new face on the forums!

 

I think as for your little crisis your just needing to realize that Twilight is still the same pony, shes just got wings and has a different role, sure she might be different, but thats how character development is.

 

Theres a whole lot of discussion going on about Alicorn Twilight though, but honestly I'd wait until S4 comes before making any real choices.

 

I say as long as you still enjoy her character who cares how she looks. And if you don't theres always 5 other characters in the show to enjoy .

 

I wouldn't worry to much, I'd wait until S4 to be honest before really starting to worry. Just look at her character and don't care about how she looks or anything.

 

I hope you get over you crisis regardless. And have fun on the forums . If you have any other questions feel free to ask!

[RainbowBloom 0]

Hi everyone, thanks for the greetings, I appreciate it.

I'm sad to say this but I'm leaving the fandom. Temporarily I hope, but I'm not sure. Why you may ask? Is it because of Twilicorn incident? Maybe, but looking at it in a more serious way it really is because of me. I need to grow up and I don't mean in a "I gotta stop watching cartoons" way. I'm 27 and I love cartoons, I always will and I'm not ashamed of it.

 

I need to grow up in a "I gotta stop taking everything so seriously, I gotta stop obsessing over little details" way.

At first I decided to ignore all the things that bothered me after the Twillicorn incident. I tried since february. But I couldn't succeed. It became a snowball down a hill. Day after day these random ideas would come to my head and they wouldn't let me enjoy my normal life. I haven't mentioned it, for fear of being tought like a freak, but I became physically sick from all of this. My stomach hurts from time to time and I'm not eating like I should. It gets worse everytime I overanalize all the things that bother me. You must be thinking "what the heck is wrong with this guy". I feel really ashamed for the way I overreact to things and I hope I can change that in the future. And BTW this is the first time something like this happens to me, in other ocassions I would become a little sad after the ending or negative outcome of a show, but would get over it soon.

I have these stupid ideas and ways of looking at things that really are affecting the way I look at the show. I'm gonna throw at you some of the things that are bothering me right now:

1. The fact that Lauren Faust left. Like I said before, I know that she wasn't the only one responsible for the show, but still I obssess over the ridiculous idea that everything that came after she left sucks, which if very unfair. The group of people that worked with her from the beginning are more than capable to taking the reigns of the show, but I can't get it over my head don't matter how logical or obvious it sounds.

 

2. The fact that every little thing that seems to have changed bothers me to some extent. The backgrounds, the BGM, the quality of the animation (which has actually improved over time). That's because I'm not taking into account my opinion, but the negative opinions of all the other people.

 

3. Twillicorn. Here I come again. I bet this isn't the first show I have watched with a little character development, but here I am obssesing over it.

 

4. The fact that I created this idealized vision of the show, and that I think it's no longer real. Like I mentioned, I was really enjoying it a lot before my reaction to Twillicorn, so I had the honest potential to love this cartoon.

I bet you see at the things I wrote and think "this guy is crazy if stuff like that bothers him". And I know you are right. I think that I'm overloaded. I need to give all of this a rest and clear my mind.

I'll come clean and say THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS SHOW. I DON'T BLAME IT FOR ANYTHING AND I SERIOUSLY THINK IT'S A GREAT CREATION FOR KIDS. The problem it's me. I have to change my way to look at things, my way of thinking. I must mature. I must accept that creations like this are meant to be enjoyed, they aren't meant to be dissected in tiny parts so I look only at the stuff I don't like or the stuff I think is wrong, like I'm some kind of know-it-all that always knows best. I want to like things for what they are, not for what somebody else says I must think.

Right now I deleted every single file I had of the show. All the episodes, the songs, the clips and the images. I'm really sad, but I want to clear my mind. Two things are going to come out of this:

Outcome a) After some time, when I'm feeling good again, I'll look at the show and say "I don't know what the fuss was all about. I no longer care if I watch this or not". I think it would be a hearth-breaking outcome but I'm willing to accept it, because life is more important that anything else and right know I'm affraid for my health.

or

Outcome The other scenario would be me returning to the show and saying "I'm glad I'm watching this. This is some nice stuff and I'm gonna enjoy it. I can't believe I threw a tanthrum like that months ago. BTW now I have to redownload everything again". I really hope this is the scenario that occurs at the end. I'm crossing my fingers on it. Only time will tell.

I really wish you all the best, I think you Bronies and Pegasisters are a great comunity and I hope I get to be part of it some day, so I can come and comment on the show, so I can submit some drawings and comics. I remember that being part of the Teen Titans community years ago was one of the best and funniest times I ever had with my hobbies.

But right now isn't the best time for me to be part of this. I need to become 20% cooler so I can enjoy thinks in a normal way .

Again, thanks for your welcome. This is the Good bye of someone who was a Brony for a very short time, but I hope to be able to come back in the future.

Edited March 30, 2013 by RainbowBloom

[RainbowBloom 0]

Necropost!

 

I had to read this post again.Its fascinating for me to analyze the way of thinking in those days. I really had no idea what was wrong with me and was feeling very weird. After four years I can come back and say one word: anxiety.

 

I hate that word, anxiety. It ruined my life. The way I see it and understand it, I was so hooked on feeling gif, that when I stopped feeling that way I went through a junkie sort of phase. Overthinking, trying to feel good again, thinking That I had to cone up with an idea that would make me see things in another way. Its really hard to explain. Like I said, It ruined my life. I got to watch MLP in the end and enjoyed It, But never got to see beyond season 3. I couldn't handle my brain. So I tried to watch other things and guess what. Whenever I noticed that something would change in the show (a character design, a voice actor, animating style. Why, it even happens with comic strips) the cycle repeated again with me over thinking, trying not to think about It, trying to shape the way I looked at things.

 

It was until last year, after reading and studying about anxiety, that I discovered that over thinking only made things worse. I had to stop paying attention to my mind.

 

Its really uncomfortable at times, I'm still trying to overcome it. I really damaged myself. The worst thing is that I triggered it because of a children cartoon. How humiliating. But I'm getting over it. Slowly. Its uncomfortable and hard. But I'm getting over it.

 

I'm writing this mostly for myself. I really wanted to read this post again and couldn't find it in the forum.

 

PS: writing from an smartphone, that explains the poor punctuation LOL