It has been two whole years since I've found Kendroth.
I know he has been a pain but he has a good heart, better than expected given how I found him. You'd think if he is such a traditionalist, he would burn down villages and eat ponies off the bat but he is far from that dipiction. Made everyone realize those stories were either exaggerations, purely fiction or the exceptions to dragon culture. No one is truly sure.
Kendroth is the only dragon we have seen and I am hoping I can talk to Thor or, if it comes to it, Loki, to see what they know.
After all the good Kndroth has done for me these past two years, I have to send him away. Not as a punishment, despite what SOME of my students ignorantly believe, but as a way to teach him about friendship. You can only do oh so much when you're tied to the hip to a paralyzed stallion.
I won't leave him blind sided, he will have access to my accounts to be able to buy food and such, I'll even keep contact with him via connected Grimoires and I do plan to visit him- no matter where- every now and again. I hope he understands and will some day appreciate it.
No wonder I keep coming back here time and time again. Feels like every other place is like a freaking battleground where there is constant strife for survival. I cannot handle those kind of environments.
What I need is soft mellow and calm ground for me to reestablish myself and breath in. A safe spot where the atmosphere is something that I believe that I can tolerate up to some extent.
Something I also need is to escape from everything that is going on. It's too much to take in all of that and I've been struggling these days because I've not been able to get out enough.
The things just seep into my mind and make their way in without asking me and I can't stop them unless I'm prepared for that. What that requires is solid foundation of mind and non clouded vision. But the longer I struggle without clearing the table the harder it gets.
I haven't been able to discover the whole truth of my situation but it feels like this community is different than the others and because of that I can partly escape the other communities by coming into here.
My view is mostly location based which means that I tie the aspects of my experiences, the communities and the overall atmospheres mostly in locations. Those locations and their combined feelings are a tool for me to reassert my self on a given situation in that location.
What I am saying is that I don't really feel that this site as a location has really much or any ties to the real world or people in there for me. That is basically what I established this site as when I joined here and I was in need of something like that.
Back then it was a bubble. An illusion that I was willingly letting myself into. These days it's more like a medicine that I take but the end result is similar.
What happens is that I am reliving partly the illusion that I was able to establish in the past to escape the world today as it is when I am not able to control my own feelings that are resulted from the experiences related to the world that I have experienced.
However it's not particularly that simple as I am still not fully able to accept myself as a part of the illusion that I was under back then because of that I destroyed the illusion i had back then about a year ago when my internal conflict was at it's peak. That destruction produced two separate illusions as it's result and they are not inclusive to each other.
So While I am able to maintain semi calm state here using this location as a tool to escape from other locations. Lingering around here long enough will give rise to that other illusion which I originally was unable to accept and since the two illusions cannot coexist in my current state it starts a conditional conflict in myself which in turn destabilizes my current state and I need to move again to get myself in order.
Recently I've been able to find an alternative method of escape in which I utilize the form of Japanese produced animation in which some genres are able to draw me in particularly well which in turn enables a better means of escape for me.
However a failure to keep up with that results in a feeling like what I am experiencing currently.
Alright so today I'm going to let you all know when I'll be posting, what times, and which topics on what days.
Sundays will be a book review (sorry I didn't get one up yesterday I will next week). Those will be posted at 1:00 PM my time.
Mondays and Fridays are my normal blogs. That's when I'll be posting about literally anything having to do with myself or the blogs in general. These will be posted at 9:00 PM my time.
On Wednesdays I'll post short story drafts(8:30 PM) and Saturdays I will post the final(8:30 PM).
And it repeats each week. Hopefully I can keep up with my own schedule ! We'll see how it goes.
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This is Patrick S. speaking here. Please pray for my hometown of Taylorville, IL. We were hit head on by a large, damaging tornado earlier this evening, and much of the west side of town has been damaged and even destroyed.
In this blog entry, I’ll just be talking about what’s happening in my life right now.
So, I’m trying to get a job. That’s what I’ve been saying for the past few weeks now though, I need to step it up more and try harder. Anyways, I have no clue what job I will get or how long I will be working, I’m trying various things right now, but I will probably be working 8 or more hours a day once I do get one.
I’m also pursuing a career right now in computer science and programming, so I’ll see how that works out for me. I’m taking some small online courses and learning more about the field. It’s interesting for me, but I still don’t know if I want to do that as a career – there is no reason for me not to, I’m interested in computers and programming languages and I have the capability of understanding most of those things, but I still have doubts. I mean, creating algorithms, variables, functions, and doing mathematics everyday seems too high of a task for me to do. I haven’t failed at any of it, yet, and I’ve understood what I’ve been learning, but I still don’t know.
Despite what I’ve said above, I feel like I haven’t been making much progress lately, and that it’s all my fault. Everything’s starting to get under my skin, I’m more conflicted than I’ve ever been in my life. I mentioned it before, that I sometimes feel positive and sometimes feel negative, a constant battle within. It’s also the stress, I’m stressing out because I must get a job, get a decent car, get money, pursue a career, get out of my comfort zone, and do something with my life – all while fighting a brutal battle with my strong desire to give in to laziness and comfort; also, I’m trying to do those things but nothing big is happening because I’m not trying hard enough, so I must push myself even further which makes the pressure significantly worse. I was hoping that knowing my career, possibly something in computer science, would help, and it does a little, but that also makes things worse. I’m not going to let anything get me down and stop trying, but it is starting to really affect me.
Well, here it is. The inevitable political blog post... In this post I will make short summations of my beliefs on a variety of topics. I'm doing this for four reasons. Firstly, so that way I don't feel the urge to post in the toxic cesspool that is the Debate Pit (Debate Symposium is way too polite of a name for it). Secondly, it feels like they confuse some people with the narrow-minded perspective of every issue being left vs right. That ISN'T always the case! I agree with the right on some things, but mainly on things that, from a more nuanced perspective, are not really left vs right issues like neo-liberals or neo-conservatives would want you to believe. And thirdly, to say f*** you to the fake left democrats of the world. My voice will be heard whether you like it or not! And lastly, I do this because I really don't feel the need to explain them to those who choose to object to them. If you see things differently, fine. Just don't start s*** with me. Also, I'll give a trigger warning. If you are easily offended, stop reading this post now, because I guarantee you'll be screaming at me later.
Guns. Guns should be legal as long as they aren't FULLY automatic (even burst-fire is potentially fine) or have a magazine size larger than 20 rounds.
Taxes. I believe in a very progressive tax bracket. I like the idea of a 49% tax on the highest bracket, and on the lowest maybe 4 or 5%. Also, GET RID OF THE TAX HAVENS!
Drugs. I see no problem with legalizing a lot of them. Maybe not crystal meth, but for marijuana it's only common sense I think. Also, we should END this war on drugs. It is HARMING more than it is helping! Dense-a** sheep and their alternative facts (also known as obvious LIES that they decided to BELIEVE) are not helping.
Immigration. I believe that dreamers deserve an opportunity to prove themselves, but drug lords don't belong here. I believe that immigration should be CHEAPER (it costs over $1000 in stupid-a** fees to get a green card for f***'s sake!), but I also believe that sanctuary cities are downright WRONG. Yeah sort of in the middle on the whole issue. But I have to say this: both sides of the issue are completely moronic.
Healthcare. I believe in Medicare-for-all for everyone. Politicians shouldn't get special privileges, and we shouldn't be thrown to the curb.
Corruption. It's everywhere, and it HAS to STOP! Or else we may no longer have any right to call ourselves a "democratic republic" (though it is true CONGO is supposed to be one)...
Miitary Spending. NEEDS to go WAY down! We spend 3 or 4 f***ing times what China does and our military is HALF THE SIZE! Not to mention most of this spending goes towards things we will REALLY never need!
Abortion. I frankly think that for the most part pro-lifers are a bunch of fruitcakes, that frankly have no idea what they're talking about. I see no issue as long as it is done before 29 weeks.
National Debt. Should be the first priority to pay it off, or else all of our necessary welfare programs will suffer. Not even to mention that it will eventually affect the way other countries see us.
Trade. We need less of these dumb trade unions and we need to increase tariffs on imported goods.
Racist Cops. They do exist! There IS some degree of legitimacy to Black Lives Matter. Albeit, a small degree of it. In about three cases on national news that I remember (of a decent few...), the cops should have been charged, one with first-degree murder (yes FIRST DEGREE, not SECOND or THIRD!). Aside from those few cases though, Black Lives Matter is WRONG. However, I do agree there is a problem here that should be addressed. I have a hard time believing there isn't a little discrimination somewhere in this. Just a little though.
American Flag vs American Principles. Principles win, every time. So in other words, I don't support the idea of forcing people to stand to the Pledge. It is frankly more patriotic NOT to considering that it is an extension of freedom of speech, in the exact same sense as the right to have a Confederate flag. I think if you support forcing people to stand to the pledge, it's VERY hypocritical of you to also turn around and pride your heritage for being traitors to the union. By the way, yes, I have no issues with the Confederate flag.
"Religious Freedom Laws" regarding Gay Marriage- They are ridiculous. If they didn't make wedding cakes for Trump supporters, would YOU want the right to sue them? The right likes to make this issue into something it is not. There is NOBODY saying that it should be illegal to NOT serve them. They're saying that a**holes that don't serve them have every right to get sued for it.
LGBT Rights. Being LGBT, I fully support them, until they trample on other people's rights or until they force pro-gay propaganda down the throats of elementary school kids (which my dad inaccurately told me was happening while quite obviously not evaluating the credibility of his source).
Autistic Rights. This isn't one you hear about everyday probably. Autism Speaks is EVIL. Period. They are a HATE group that deserves no funding. If anything, the head honchos of this c*** need to go to JAIL! I believe in the right for people with Autism to live their lives the way they are. We don't need a cure for this, we just need society's acceptance. (I say we here, because of the nature of my perspective on the issue. I believe that I have Asperger's Syndrome, the mildest form of Autism).
American Justice and Prison Systems. NEED fundamental reworks from the top down. It spends too much money, treats prisoners too well, and has too many people in it. Also, private prisons should not f***ing exist. It's sick to make money like that. My proposition involves shorter sentences in harsher prisons, so that way we don't have to pay to keep them there or for luxuries they don't really need. Things like weight rooms, like actual cafeteria food (From what I've heard, the luxuries they get food-wise are ridiculous)... You know, things there are no reason why prisoners should have access to, but also so they have a chance to get back into society and maybe contribute if prison really made them realize that they don't want to be criminals.
Affirmative Action. Affirmative action is a bad thing. It is fundamentally bad for everyone, Black, White, Asian, Hispanic, Native American... IT'S BAD ALL THE WAY AROUND. Unqualified Blacks getting jobs over more qualified Blacks, Whites, or any other race is WRONG. Job opportunity shold be equal for everyone, not more equal for blacks who don't belong in the jobs they have.
Minimum Wage. Well, here's a hum-dinger. I think it should be FLEXIBLE, and not just a single value, as taxes are. I'm sorry Bernie, but increasing the minimum wage to $15 an hour will hurt small businesses everywhere. It sounds good until you get to there though. The better idea is for the IRS to start doing their JOB! Deliver forms to both workers and company owners asking about how much the workers make, how many employees the establishment has, and how much the establishment earns. Based on the later two of the values, calculate how much they should pay the workers. From the first value, ascertain whether that amount is being paid. If the forms contradict each other, trust the worker. They have much less reason to lie about it. Also make this wage increase or decrease wit inflation or deflation. Sounds like a slippery slope, I know. But this is probably better than setting it to one number for everyone.
Federal Funding for College. The government needs to start paying up for it's country's future. Colleges basically rob their students blind of hundreds of thousands of dollars. All for what? A piece of paper that will get you a job in a year maybe while the interest on your student loans (which you will have unless you have RICH-A** PARENTS!) stacks up. Also, they should only pay the colleges a reasonable amount of money and any need for more than what is necessary here should be a federal offense for the bookies and the higher ups.
Death Penalty. I consider it unusual, and unfitting punishment. Note that I didn't say cruel, because it's actually quite the opposite. It's too humane! They should rot in jail instead! Also, the death penalty actually isn't cheap either. They have to maintain the execution chamber and all, which I'd suppose costs an insane amount of money, not even to mention most death row inmates now stay there for DECADES before getting executed because of all the red tape! Just put them in for life with no parole. Treat them to the suffering they deserve. Also, not even to mention in the case of those that actually aren't guilty, they'd get the chance to prove it (of course if anybody would f***ing listen to appeals!)
Fake News. Needs to go. Period. No more CNN, no more Fox, no more MSNBC, no more of that. And, yes, the government actually does have the authority to delegitimize them as far as I know, and it's not really being utilized because of all of the FREAKING CORRUPTION! What could replace it is actual journalism, of course if the corruption went away. Also, they need to stop praising EVERY politician that dies. Seriously, I could care less about George HW Bush, and how it's plastered everywhere that he's died is ALREADY beginning to annoy me. Seriously, WHO SHOULD REALLY CARE? He was a mediocre president who's best political moment (My opinion) was calling out Reagan on his economic policy.
Gold Standard. Here's where I actually go right on economics. The Gold Standard is necessary right now. We need less inflation, so that way the poor's money is worth more, and so that way there's less for the rich to make, with the government basically making notes willy-nilly whenever they want.
The United States as a whole. Not great, but not terrible either. Sure, we technically are the world's largest terrorist organization, and we don't get all of the freedoms listed in the constitution (thanks for the false advertisement, f***ers!), but at least we have the semblance of a democratic society here and that's enough for me. I did a ranking of nations based on how much I'd want to live in them, and the US ranked around 16th on the list, so not bad at all in that sense. As for voting? I have a question. Would you rather be shot in the back or shot in the face? Or neither? I choose neither. Meaning, I don't freaking vote, because there's NO POINT when your only options are BAD!
Socialism as a whole. It's BADLY misdefined by the right and the fake left in an attempt to delegitimize actual leftist economics. Why? I don't think it's that hard to figure out. The word has had a completely unfair stigma surrounding it since the Cold War, almost exclusively because the Soviet Union was a TYPE of socialist and we didn't like them. Communism and Socialism are NOT the same thing. Communism is an authoritarian brand of socialism, and I think believing otherwise is frankly a show of bias and a laughable lack of knowledge about how the left REALLY is.
Trump as a president. I already went into this in a Debate Pit post (which was my mistake that I'm surprised I'm not seeing the effects of), but he's a pretty freaking bad president. Trump may have done some good on the Korean front, but I'm starting to think that the peace would have happened without Trump in office, and I'm starting not to understand why that didn't come across my mind sooner. After all, he's the one and the same guy that nearly started a freaking WAR with them over his own freaking ego, and the same guy who's already killed HUNDREDS of innocent people ON PURPOSE... (And yes, there's no logical reason for this source to lie). What saves him I my mind is that he IS tackling important issues such as corruption in the government, although very slowly. But nonetheless it hardly excuses him from being, by definition, a TERRORIST. It also doesn't help his case whatsoever that he's totally SCREWED the economy for the working class. I was already concerned about the tax policy, but it's worse than I thought. The rich are being allowed to have their cake and eat it too... Seriously, trickle-down economics does NOT work, and it NEVER has. Let's see how we like living in the 1880's again... Seriously, that's what this is becoming. A modern version of the 1880's partially THANKS to Trump! I don't care if you say "but he didn't initially propose it" because HE ALLOWED IT TO GO THROUGH. And that's more than enough to say that he is going to cause the financial train wreck just waiting to happen...
Democrats. I can't STAND them, for several reasons, but I have to go over some misconceptions that BOTHER me. First off, they are FAR from left-wing, they only pretend they are which I and others will point out is full of s***. Secondly, they aren't GOING LEFT! SOCIETY'S GOING FURTHER RIGHT! I think that's a freaking no-brainer at this point, but apparently it isn't because society is TOTALLY oblivious to the entire phenomenon! Democrats are literally NOT changing whatsoever. They're a bunch of hawkish, corporatist LIARS who have no moral compass and have NO IDEA how to criticize Trump when he shoots himself in the foot at every opportunity! Saying Trump is bad without an actual argument is actually giving him more SUPPORT! It makes me think even more that their agenda is actually to silence the actual left-wing in the United States. Also, the people who support them still must either be naïve or moronic. Yes, there's literally NO other explanation why ANYONE would support people like Hillary Clinton or ESPECIALLY NANCY PELOSI! None, whatsoever. It doesn't help that most of the people that support them complain about literally everything under the sun, and try to justify it with total nonsense!
Republicans. They're a bunch of deranged, hypocritical, spiteful lunatics, and I must say so are a large fraction of their supporters. These people complain about lobbying. What about all the money the NRA pays Republicans for propping up their agenda? Then they complain about spending. If you really cared, you wouldn't advocate spending so much money on the military... They complain about the constitution. The Patriot Act is the most blatant breach of our rights per the constitution I've ever seen, and a REPUBLICAN put that into law! They complain about snowflakes. What about Religious Freedom laws, what about the controversy with the pledge, or what about half of what your favorite Fox News moron says about "leftists"? 'But that's the truth' Bulls*** it's an opinion DON'T YOU KNOW THE DIFFERENCE?!?!?! For f***'s sake, you're WORSE than the people you complain about! Just stop calling everyone you don't like an SJW and come up with real reasons to not like things! Get a freaking spine, too! You really need one, you vile piece of c***!
Quick list of my who I think were the best and worst president in our nation's history:
Best: Franklin D. Roosevelt, Theodore Roosevelt, George Washington, Harry S. Truman, Woodrow Wilson, Dwight D. Eisenhower
Worst: Andrew Johnson, James Buchanan, Ronald Reagan, Warren G. Harding, George W. Bush (Junior), Donald Trump
I may edit some of this later on, and I'll more than likely expand it also. But regardless, I really want the toxicity in this blog post to stay at a minimum, because that's part of the point anyways... (which is funny to think about now because I've already had to deal with a ton from fake leftists and a few right-wingers that lurk around the Debate Pit (Symposium is FAR too polite of a term for the place) and try to pick fights by accusing people of things they know are complete and utter bologna, ether that or blatantly lie about their opinions in posts, because that happens too.)
Well, here it is. I haven't actually played the game since early Season 7 (Can't believe it's been almost 2 years), so my opinions may be a little outdated. Nonetheless, this is also partially based on other tier lists, so there is something to this aside from what I think. Nonetheless, it is mostly what I think from watching a few league games, combined with my opinions and my knowledge of changes since I actually played the game, so it could be a little off.
Top Tier: Sion, Darius, Viktor
Strong: Irelia, Urgot, Garen, Teemo, Jax, Yasuo, Riven, Akali, Aatrox, Camille, Kled, Fiora, Renekton
Decent: Yorick, Pantheon, Illaoi, Cho'Gath, Nasus, Shen, Rumble, Gangplank, Singed, Poppy, Swain, Jayce, Kayle, Wukong, Quinn, Vladimir
Usable: Kennen, Jarvan IV, Pyke, Lissandra, Dr. Mundo, Tryndamere, Nautilus, Heimerdinger, Rengar, Maokai, Ekko, Cassiopeia, Karma, Trundle, Vayne
Weak: Gnar, Ornn, Talon, Xin Zhao, Graves, Galio, Olaf, Mordekaiser, Ryze, Tahm Kench, Fizz, Lulu, Leona, Vi, Lee Sin
Bottom Tier: Zed, Blitzcrank, Thresh, Udyr
Sometimes it feels like that I am losing control of my own foundation that i've laid out for myself in these past years.Someone creeps up from out of nowhere and suddenly its like i am nowhere to be found. Nothing just nothing. Nothing is everything that i am able to to get out of myself those times. Its like a complete standstill like multiple entities are in there but when i check it out its really isnt anything.
Last time i was standing in that situation i was able to do things like normal but i couldnt really do things in the end after all even when i did. Partly it feels like my sense of self is disappearing from my grasp. Everything just clicks in place at that moment rendering my sense of individuality into nothingness. I become just like an another cog in the machine...
i can trace back the causes of this occurence when i look at the methods that i've adapted into myself during the last 2 years, some of them play quite essential role in this matter, but i am unable to figure out if it is a good thing or a bad thing.
is Nothing just as good as everything? something that i've been trying to figure out for a while. If i can control myself in a manner that allows me to manipulate my own feelings and decisions that rise from those feelings. Is it better to manipulate them or just do nothing?
This whole fiasco feels like i've stuck myself into manual breathing for the rest of my life. But is that good or bad thing? Should i be able to decide what is good and what is bad? who gets to decide that? Why i dont feel like i have any foundation on those things anymore?
Things around me feel even more abstract these days that they felt like couple years back.
Well, I've really been recently thinking a LOT about love. Why? Well, because I've been having the feeling that I need a man to love. A man I can depend on, a steady shoulder to lean on. I know that I'm not the best candidate for a lover, and I never have been. I'm definitely not a looker for sure, and I have my fair share of issues. But here goes, a description of my ideal boyfriend, by how important the specific traits are to me... I know I already posted most of this in a thread before, but I'm going to get into other things I didn't get into there. I'm going to try my best to keep this appropriate, because there are requirements I need to mention... That may be difficult to discuss in a PG fashion, so I think some discretion should be advised.
He has to love me for who I am. I know it's nice to be able to find a guy who also likes my appearance (well my lack of a decent one may make that a little bit of a challenge...), but it's much more important that he is really fine with dating an absurdly skinny nerd that has almost no dexterity, is more than likely autistic, and has anxiety and depression issues.
I don't think that I'd be able to survive in a not open relationship. I may only like men in the romantic sense, but there's plenty of women I've known that have given me sexual feelings, including a girl I know right now (that I have been told may unfortunately be asexual). I know these things require boundaries and limits, and I honestly want to have those and observe them.
He has to be at least 16 years old at the moment. I don't want to have to deal with parents that are too concerned if they're dating another dude that's more than 5 years older than they are...
GOOD TO HAVE
He and I should share a few interests. My interests include:
Cartoons, particularly Steven Universe, MLP, Rick and Morty, and We Bare Bears.
Video Games, particularly Super Smash Bros., Mario games, Paladins/Overwatch, and Borderlands/Fallout.
Tabletop arena games, like Heroclix. I'm developing my own, you know!
Science Fiction, including things like Star Trek and the Twilight Zone.
Music. I personally played the Tuba in band for years... So you know I'm more than capable (I'm sick...)
Pixar movies. I'm sorry, but if you don't like Finding Nemo or Toy Story, you more than likely won't like me.
He should respect my space. I'm extremely introverted and at times I just have to be away from people. Even people I'm really close to...
He needs to have a good heart. I couldn't date an intolerant jerk, because I love people that love me. It's just the way I work.
He's got to be a little bit perverted... Trust me when I say that I'm very much that way...
It would be great if his viewpoints were similar enough to mine. I don't want to have an argument about stuff every 5 minutes. I mean it is nice to disagree on a couple of things, but that definitely has its limits. I'll tell you that I'm a bit left on politics and my viewpoints on things are far from conservative. Although I share some viewpoints with conservatives.
He needs to be able to start a conversation with me. I have huge issues with making a dialogue with other people.
It helps if he can make me laugh sometimes. I know that I don't have much of a sense of humor, but I like being humored to a degree.
He has to have some level of intelligence. I think that I have an IQ of around 135-140, so I'm not sure I could handle a dope well...
PREFERRED PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES (Not that important)
A few inches taller than me (around 6' maybe).
A you-know-what that's a little bigger than average...
I don't mean to seem racist, but I prefer white men.
Not overly muscular. or fat. Neither looks that good in my opinion. Yet again, I'll say this isn't too important so... Yeah.
I don't have much of a preference for age, but I'd like a man around my age. Like teens or early twenties.
So there it is, I guess... I don't know what else to say here.
Nothing impressive to see here, kinda just another week of getting my ideas straight. Converting messy notes into legible text, then giving that text some context to make sense with the rest of the vision.
I'm working on the design doc some more, basically. Combing through each and every detail of the game again to make sure nothing is boring, too derivative, tedious, or pointless. I want to charm the pants off of folks the whole way through. And I absolutely want to make sure to vaporize any accusations of this being an uninspired Pokemon clone.
Well, I have actually been preparing this list for a long while, and now I feel it's ready to present. This list, as a note, is based exclusively on my opinions, my own experiences from Smash 4, gameplay videos, and the buffs/nerfs I have heard of being implemented into Ultimate. This list may be edited some before release, but this is a general idea. This list also includes Pirahna Plant.
Broken: Pikachu, Bayonetta, Pokémon Trainer, Cloud
Top Tier: Young Link, Sonic, Mario, Mewtwo, Marth, Lucina
High Tier: Diddy Kong, Meta Knight, Sheik, King K. Rool, Roy, Ike, Chrom, Snake
Upper Mid-Tier: Inkling, Ken, Corrin, Rosalina, Shulk, Isabelle, Pirahna Plant, Ness, Wolf, Donkey Kong
Mid-Tier: Incineroar, Greninja, Luigi, Pit, Ryu, Yoshi, Mega Man, Captain Falcon, Ridley, Daisy, Peach, Toon Link, Lucario, Ice Climbers, Zero Suit Samus
Lower Mid-Tier: Ganondorf, Lucas, Wario, Simon, Richter, Villager, Link, Mr. Game and Watch, Meta Knight, Pac-Man, Dark Pit, Zelda, Pichu, ROB
Low Tier: Fox, Little Mac, Falco, Dark Samus, Samus, Robin, Duck Hunt, Palutena, Jigglypuff
Bottom Tier: Mii Gunner, Olimar, Wii Fit Trainer, Bowser, Kirby, Dr. Mario, Bowser Jr.
Garbage: Mii Swordsman, King Dedede, Mii Fighter
I would put my SSB World list on here, but I can't make an account on there because I choose not to have a Twitter. Oh well.
NOTE ON META KNIGHT: There's no way he isn't at least High Tier with what I've seen out of him in Japanese tournaments... Seriously, most people over there consider him one of the best in the game, if not the best. They say this because he has a LOT of true combos... I do mean A LOT... It also helps his case that his recovery is really good, he can do way more damage than would be expected from a lightweight, and his range is surprisingly good. For now, I'll put him High Tier, but he may actually be a Top Tier character...
A glass of water, if you please
An Applejack, for me to tease
A metric ton of orange snow
Another season of my show
A song to start a fire by
Dilithium crystals (don't ask why)
A house-sized chunk of cheddar cheese
A mangy dog, complete with fleas
A big ol' mug of apple cider
A Purple Smart, with Spike beside her
A tambourine that's made of taffy
A small black duck who goes by 'Daffy'
Another round of hedge-maze games
A stuffy Princess (no names, no names)
A flowering field of Poison Joke
A Doctor Whooves (one interesting bloke)
Ten barrels of indigo whipped cream
A punk, who's simply full of steam
A Rainbow Dash in such a hurry
A Rarity, who's fun to worry
Chocolate milk - an entire sea
A Fluttershy, complete with tea
A thousand strands of thread, unspooled
A million Pinkies, Mirror Pooled
A giant color-changing lizard
A better drawing for The Squizard
A single piece of Celestia's cake
(bet THAT'LL keep her Highness awake!)
One schoolhouse full of Zap Apple Jam
Another appearance for Flim & Flam
Starlight's cutie-mark switching spell
(who's the target? I'll NEVER tell...)
A coat of arms & legs, so fancy
An autograph from John DeLancie
... and all these gifts, I hope you'll bring...
Forget the bells;
LET CHAOS RING!
Ha ha ha HAAAAAAAAAAA hahahahahahahahahahahaaa!