Due to a lot of recent events, as well as just not watching the show as regularly as I used to among other things, I have decided it would be best for me to just leave the fandom... I may still come back here on rare occasion, but, ultimately, I no longer consider myself much of a Brony or even just a fan of the show anymore...
During these past few months in the fandom, I have recently experienced nothing but drama among much of the so-called "Horse Famous" parts of the community, I have lost friendships that I've either never been able to fully restore or just couldn't get back, a lot of the people in the fandom I liked have moved on to other things, I feel like I joined too late and my most recent memories of the fandom have just been bad. I'd like for things to change, but, right now it seems like there isn't a chance of that happening and even then, I have been moving on to other interests.
Before I finally leave, I just wanted to say thank you to all my friends for putting up with me for this long. If by any chance you still want to contact me, I'm primarily on Discord as Nightfall Gloam#5622.
I'm not quite sure how to end this but, for me, being in the fandom recently has only felt like more and more of a chore and I do just feel like I should just put all this behind me and start doing more things I might actually enjoy... It was fun being in the fandom for the brief period of 2014-2016 when I first joined but, it hasn't felt the same ever since, and I honestly believe the fandom is shrinking anyway and from my perspective, it just feels like the people still in the fandom aren't really all that passionate about the show or certain aspects of the fandom like they used to be... Over the years, I might remember my time here fondly and forget a lot of the bad stuff, as the human mind tends to do after long periods of time, but, ultimately, there is nothing that can be done to bring me back in to the fandom, and if you still want to contact me regularly, I'm on Discord.
I recommend opening a new tab and listening to this song while you read. Its one of my favourite classic Brony songs, and evokes a strong nostalgic feeling.
On this day, all the way back in 2014, I decided to give My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic another chance after realizing I liked Twilight Sparkle and found that I actually enjoyed the show quite a bit. Back then, I was way less mature, more shy and still went to high school. My first time in the fandom was mainly spent listening to Brony music from this playlist on YouTube, as well as watching some videos from the YouTube Brony community. I had some interactions with members of the community as well, but, it was from the comment section on YouTube, so you can kinda guess how that would have turned out, yeah, I kinda embarrassed myself a little there but its all good now!
Later that year, I decided to search Google for some communities related to this newfound obsession of mine, and found a few sites that seemed interesting, such as What is a Brony?, Equestria Daily, Bronyland and MLP Forums. Some places I visited didn't have a proper community of their own, or they were more like news websites for the fandom and didn't really seem all that appealing to me and if they did have a community, I didn't really know about it (as was the case with Bronyland and EqD). I created my account here on June 30th, 2014 shortly after browsing the website for a bit and finding that I liked the community here and wanted to start being more involved with the fandom outside of YouTube. I was a little nervous, but, I eventually (cringe warning) made my first post. Back then, I was known as shoyrumaster11, and as you read my first post, you may have noticed that most of my exposure to the fandom came from watching so-called "anti-Brony" videos and trying to figure out how anyone could be so triggered by a simple cartoon on TV.
For a good portion of my time in the fandom, I spent it here on MLP Forums, occasionally making posts and sometimes actually interacting with the community and eventually, I wanted to branch out a little more and tried to find some meetups nearby, as well as a more local fan site but unfortunately, my parents didn't want me to be in any meetups back then due to concerns for my safety. My friend @Frequency Wavelength introduced me to Bronies Australia, a more local website which unfortunately wasn't very active, but it was great to know that this wasn't only some weird thing that Americans do a lot. After a while, I did also start to decline interest in this website due to some drama with the staff that was going on at the time and made a blog post last year explaining why I left the site. At the time, I was mainly a part of Equestria Daily's Morning and Nightly discussions and a regular on PonyTown, where I met a certain special someone...
Through the years, I have made many friends and, at a very slow pace, learned to be more confident in myself and to try to enjoy my life a little more and be grateful for what I have. I'm still learning even today, but, I'm thankful for everyone in my life who has helped along the way, including those I met via the fandom and its presence on the web, and in this section, I just wanted to say thank you to some people I met through the fandom who are special to me, including those who are not on this website.
@Jade Fire, I wanted to say thank you for being among the people to welcome me back on to this website when I decided to come back, and always being very friendly and understanding, even through tough times. I always enjoy talking to you and at times, a part of me does wish we could be friends outside of the internet, I consider you one of my best friends and I'm very grateful to have met you and to be so close to you.
@PuddingPonyPal, you don't seem to come here very often, but if you ever read this, I just wanted to say thank you for welcoming me back on the website late last year. You have inspired me to try to be more creative with my art and fiction and you are very much a close friend to me.
Minty Root, I remember you from back in the days when I was on EqD's discussions. I consider you one of my main inspirations for my (currently in the works) YouTube channel and I actually used to enjoy chatting with you on EqD. I am a part of your Discord server now, and as of writing this, I'm kind of wondering why we don't chat more?
@SparklingSwirls, I really enjoy chatting with you and being your friend, and since chatting with you about it on Discord, you're also one of those people I want to meet at some point in real life, I actually really enjoy it when you be silly and you have helped me out of my depression, and we both seem to share a lot in common. Whenever I need someone to talk to, or just want to say hi, you are the first person I talk to.
@StrawCherry, I feel like we are really good friends and, despite your being busy all the time, I kinda see you as the sister I never had. I enjoy your passion towards art and technology and I encourage you to continue doing that!
Grazin, I really do mean it when I say that I enjoy being your friend. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, and I always have fun on your Discord server. You are very kind and I think you are stronger than you realize. I know you've been through a lot and might have had a rough past, but I just wanted to say that you shouldn't let it define who you are, I think the fact that I enjoy my friendship with you to the point where I have considered inviting people to your Discord server, so they can meet you says a lot, I might not be on Equestria Daily any more, but you are among the people I met from there who I still enjoy being around.
Enigma, you are a very cool guy and I actually really enjoy seeing your passion towards music. I consider myself lucky for having met you and I wish we chatted a little more.
@Frequency Wavelength, thank you for introducing me to the Aussie side of this fandom. It really helps me to know that I can share my interests with people much closer to home. You are a very cool and very friendly guy, and I think we would be great friends
SGB, we only really met when I joined Grazin's server, but, I've always thought you were very kind and friendly. I think we should chat more ^^
@Battenberg, we've only just started chatting recently, but, I think you are a good friend so far, so thank you for letting me be your friend.
@Valencia, you are a very kind individual and I just wanted to say thank you for being there for me when I needed it and for being a good friend and a good person in general. I hope everything is going very well for you.
Mountain Dreams, we don't chat as often as we used to, but I've always enjoyed being your friend and I enjoy talking about the latest MLP episodes with you and I think you are a very good friend.
@Totally Lyra, you're my favourite moderator on this website and I have fun reading posts from you and being your friend. Also, Lyra is still the best pony!
Raven... I have a lot to say about you and I'm not even sure where to begin... My long distance relationship with you meant a lot to me and I do still miss you quite a lot, I remember that we met on New Years Eve in 2016 and I really enjoyed talking to you and to this day, there is something about you that I still love. Not sure if it was your kindness, your friendly attitude, your love of music, the fact that you are a fun lady to be with or anything else, but, there is something about you I love and I cherish all the time we've spent together and miss you greatly. You have shown me what true love is like and I never expected to meet you at all. I know things weren't always the best between us and that a lot of mistakes were made, but, I always thought it was still worth being with you because you at least tried to do what you could to make things work out. I wish we had more time to chat with each other because I genuinely enjoy your presence and words cannot even begin to describe how I feel about you as a person. The thing is, I don't even feel like your absence was entirely your fault, though its still something that should have been talked about, and I'm sorry for not having the courage to just simply talk out my problems. The fact that I still think about you and the fact that I still miss you must mean something. I love you, Raven and truth be told, if you ever come back, I'd want to give this another chance and see if we were really meant to be... A lot has changed since we last met and I'm more confident than ever and I'm ready to be in a relationship this time, and I'm ready to put in the extra effort for you. The thing is, you are unlike anybody I've ever met in my life and words will never be enough to describe how I feel about you... Thank you for everything, Raven. I genuinely mean it when I tell you I love you, and I hope we meet again soon and maybe work things out...
To some, Bronies might be seen as some "fad" in popular culture, but, with all the experiences I've had and all the wonderful people I've met in this fandom, I think it is so much more than that. We are very much a community as well as family and even though I've still got a lot to work on, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone in the fandom for helping me to grow and become more confident and enjoy life a little more.
I think there is something special about this community of like-minded individuals and even though we do go through a lot of difficult times, we always come back stronger than before, I never expected that a community based around a popular show would mean so much to me, but, evidently it does, and I am very thankful for that. I may not enjoy the show itself as much as I used to, but I still do enjoy being part of this community and I promise that it will always have a special place in my heart and I'm proud to be a Brony and even more proud to have met all my friends from across the fandom, I think that even by the time life gets too busy for me and I cannot actively be in any geeky community, I will still have lots of fond memories of my time as a Brony and I promise I'll pass all the lessons I've learned on to my possible son's and daughter's in the future and I might even show them some episodes of MLP. Thank you, everyone.
I don't often post blogs, but I feel like I've got something to say...
Since finding out about the death of our friend, @TempestShadow, I just wanted to say that I feel like this is a reminder that we should be grateful for everyone in our lives because, for all you know, it could be the very last time you see somebody and you will end up regretting it...
Although not always in the form of death, there are a lot of people I miss in my life who I've lost, be it friends, family members and even my girlfriend, sometimes without knowing what happened to them, and I honestly regret that I did not spend enough time with them, and it does make me feel like I should get back in touch with these people, even though I'm not sure how I'm going to contact them again, and I don't want to lose anyone else.
Going off topic, I feel like everything that has been going on so far in this year has been a bit of a "wake up call" so to speak, and if there is anything you feel like you need to fix, you should probably go fix it before it's too late, and if you feel like you need to do or say something, you should probably do it, because the world isn't going to wait...
But most importantly, cherish the time you spend with those you love, and make the most of it, because you never know when it will be the last time you see someone...
As most of you might know, a once popular Brony known as ToonKriticY2K had recently been caught grooming a 14-year-old girl from the Philippines. Although the news didn't come as much of a surprise to me, as I have suspected for a long time that the Brony fandom has got a bit of a problem with pedophilia, it did definitely upset me as it confirmed those suspicions when the news broke...
I did not really know or care much about ToonKriticY2K before this incident happened, mainly because I haven't really been following the so-called "Bronalysis" community, but after hearing about this incident, I now have a strong feeling of contempt towards him, with the quality of his content on YouTube being completely irrelevant to me now, and I honestly hope he stays in prison, away from any child as I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT tolerate people who do the kind of things he did... Doesn't matter whether the age difference is 5 years or 10 years, if you groom and manipulate children for god knows what, I don't want anything to do with people like him...
As for the so-called "Bronalysis" community, as mentioned before, I've never really followed much of the community, except for Josh Scorcher, but I do have a serious problem with how they handled the situation, especially with those in the leaked Skype call, as I personally think that the logs being leaked as well as the Skype call had to happen, and I'm sure Toon would have easily been able to deny any of this happened without the leaks...
Honestly, I have made this post because I do really feel like there is a potentially huge pedophilia problem inside the Brony community as a whole, and that we should be doing a lot more to make it clear that this is no place for anyone like that, "horse famous" or not and personally, I am at least glad that the people here on MLP Forums and Poniverse are very disgusted by the actions of this one person, and working on a solution to try to prevent such behavior from happening on this platform, though of course, action does need to be taken elsewhere, such as at conventions, on other websites, at meetups and anywhere else these people might be hiding, so the fandom can actually be the safe place it is supposed to be and actively prevent incidents like this as much as possible...
Unfortunately, I still lack any good ideas that could help prevent this clear issue that exists within our fandom, which cannot be ignored any longer, and before I finish this post, I also just wanted to tell the people who have been concerned about our fandom's reputation and what the mainstream media would do with this kind of information if they heard about it that our fandom's reputation has pretty much been negative for outsiders since day one, and I personally don't care what the MSM thinks. Besides, wouldn't actively condemning and getting rid of the creeps and pedophiles in our community help us more in the long run? Because that's what's been going on in my mind for a while since the news broke...
Thank you for taking the time to read this...
Stole this from @SparkliciousSwirls, @Lightwinglicious (I ship them btw), and other's... Here we go:
State something I learned about you by looking at your profile for 20 seconds.
State a color you remind me of.
Name an element I think you belong to (water, fire, earth, air).
Let you know which MLP character you remind me of.
Ask you a question I want you to answer.
Find something I actually find tolerable about you.
Think of something to say if we were roommates.
State the food/flavor/smell you remind me of.
Guess something about you.
Here we go!
(inspired by a post by @WiiGuy2014 and another post by @Naturelicious Tune, I decided to do it in blog form because I have lots to say, and on Christmas day in my country because it felt like it would make more sense)
My Christmas wishes are:
To see my lady one last time before the New Year
This month kinda has a lot of significance in my relationship with this girl, as we met on New Year Eve last year. In light of recent events that happened in her country, the Philippines, I am admittedly very worried for her right now, and I really do hope that she is safe and that we meet again, and sort everything out before this year ends. I know, it is hard to tell how I feel through plain text, but, I love her so much, and I feel like much of my life has changed because of her, and I really want to know that her, and her family are doing alright... It would make my day if she had come back to me!
To try to become more social
Even though I've made some progress, I still feel like I haven't done a lot to really show to my friends, family and even my girlfriend that I really do care for them, and that's something that I feel like I should really change. For some reason, I almost never talk about any issues I have with them (likely out of fear of getting into arguments over disagreements), and I'm still mostly huddled up in my room, on my computer for most of the day...
To have one last year with my cat at the very least
Since my cat is already really old and weak, I would really like to have one last year with her, as my cat has pretty much always been there for me when I've needed it, and even when she wasn't, she was at least a great companion to have, and after she inevitably dies, I don't think we'll be able to get another pet cat until I move out...
Begin work on my hobbies relating to animation and film making
Even while I have started working on my hobbies this year, due to being hit with some serious depression throughout parts of the year, and a lot of other distractions, I just haven't felt nearly as much passion to do really anything like this. It is a bit discouraging with the way YouTube currently is as well, but, it is the best I've got.
Explore music further
Thanks to meeting the girl I love, I have started listening to more music more often now, and I do happen to really enjoy it, and because of this, I do want to try to expand my tastes a little more and try to listen to more music outside of the genres I usually listen to (pop, electronic and some rock if you were wondering). If you have any recommendations, feel free to comment, I'll pretty much listen to anything!
See the world (or at least, some of it since that's more realistic with my family's budget currently)
I'm really not sure what the chances are of this, but, there are a lot of countries I'd love to visit, including the Philippines (for obvious reasons), and I do really want to see Australia and the rest of the world, beyond my own room. I think it will be a great way to spend time with my family and I'm sure I'll enjoy lots of it...
Season 8 of MLP (it's a bit obvious, but y'know)
I have become a bit more of a casual fan since the movie (I expect a load of comments going Normie? REEEEEEEEEEEE), but, I still really enjoy this show and its community a lot, and the ponies have never ceased to entertain me and sometimes surprise me. It is also great that MLP has managed to go on for 7 seasons now, and still somehow been such a good show, and based on what little I know of season 8, it should be a lot of fun! I don't think I'll have the time to watch any Gen 5, so I really want these last few years of MLP G4 to be good ones!
I was going to do 12, but, I couldn't think of any more than what is posted here. Besides, I just said a lot about each wish, I think that makes up for it XD.
So one of my friends from back when I was still a member of Equestria Daily has recently started a Discord server for people who are interested in writing, called the "Anything Goes Writer Workshop", and since the server is pretty inactive currently, I have decided to help her out a little and give you all a server invite:
If you are interested in writing, and own a Discord account, I would highly recommend you visit the server!
Since it's the weekend, I just wanted to spend some time writing something I feel like I should say...
I am truly grateful for everything in my life thus far, and that includes my family, my girlfriend, my friends, and even just my life in general. Things might not be perfect, but, the closer we get to Christmas and the New Year, I just can't help but say thank you... Thank you to everyone in my life, and thank you to the universe for teaching me, helping me grow, letting me find out who I really am, and just having a lot of fun throughout the year...
Since the start of this year, I have learned what it is truly like to love someone, what it means to have friends, and I have finally faced many challenges in my life that I previously ignored, and I hope to continue to do so well into 2018, 2019, 2020 and beyond!
To the members of MLP Forums, I am truly sorry that I ever left you guys behind. I missed being here a lot, especially since this place was my first Brony community I ever hung out on, and this place was my first glimpse of what its like to be a part of this fandom. I am proud to be a member of this website, and proud to be a Brony. Don't know what my life would be like if I had never become a Brony in the first place...
Over the next few years, I also plan on getting much more into films, digital art and animation (perhaps also music as well...), in fact I've already started work on an animation now, and who knows where that might go in the future...
-Nightfall Gloam. That 19 year old guy that lurks around in the background and might be a little ambitious...
Simply put, I didn't die.
However, I had decided to quietly leave at the time I did because I wasn't very happy with the way the site was being run back then (I do not know if it has changed at all, heck I just got here and everything feels totally different now). At the time, though, I had felt like I would be "attention seeking" if I made a blog post about it while it was the cool thing to do.
Since then, I have also just found other online communities where I can express my admiration for our little ponies (primarily on EqD's Morning and Nightly Discussions), I graduated from high school and found a Brony at my TAFE and we have been friends since we met, I am also currently dating someone that I had met online (but I haven't saw her in forever and my worries have been getting the best of me...)
To add to that, I have been getting more into drawing and animation, as well as learning Filipino, and I simply feel like I don't really have any time to come back here, even if I wanted to. However, I may still pop in from time to time and make a couple of posts here and there, assuming the universe gives me the time.
If you remember me from when I was on here, and still want to contact me, you can on the following services:
Discord: Nightfall Gloam#5622
Steam: Nightfall Gloam
Wire: @nightfallgloam (Wire is just simply, an app that is like Skype)
And here we go, the little goodbye speech that I should have done ages ago, but never got around to. Goodbye, MLP Forums! It has been great being a member of your community!
I have decided that sometime around January of 2017, I will "move" to Linux and continue my phase of slowly abandoning Microsofts product line and ecosystem (mostly because of privacy concerns regarding Windows 10, but also because now that I have tried Win 10 for almost an entire year, I can safely say that I do have problems with the stability and design of the OS). This is not the first time that I have decided to go to Linux. Last year after an "upgrade" to Windows 10 from 8.1 that did not go too smoothly on my old HP convertible laptop, I decided to create another partition on my hard drive using Ubuntu's installer app, and I believe I may have talked about it in various parts of these forums once upon a time. However, back then I was only considering Linux as a temporary replacement until I could afford a better machine, having known about the free nature of Linux distros.
Since I still (unfortunately) need Microsoft's flagship product as I plan on going to TAFE next year to do courses relevant to Screen and Media, which will require the Adobe Creative Cloud, and after much research, I decided that maybe WINE/PlayOnLinux/Crossover and/or virtual machines is not a very good idea and that buying a Surface for this rather small amount of software I actually need Windows for would be financially shooting myself in the foot and will only support Microsoft further than if I just do what I did with my old laptop, and make a partition for Linux so that I can still keep Windows for what I need it for.
I guess the reason that I made this post is because I am a long time Windows user wanting something different, and I only dislike Apple more than Microsoft (though honestly, they're just as bad as each other), and I wanted to hear from any Linux users on the forums any tips, advice and suggestions to help me make the most out of my "switch" to Linux. Especially since me (and my family) have been dependent on Microsoft and their product line and ecosystem for as long as I can remember.
If it helps, this is my current specs:
I have chosen Linux Mint as my distro to make the "switch" from Windows to because I tried it inside a virtual machine and was impressed by the Cinnamon desktop environment being so much like what I'm used to on Windows, but also more organised, I have heard lots of good things about its stability and speed (I even tried it on my old HP laptop that ran Ubuntu and Windows 10 before I had to give it to my dad, with Windows 8.1 reinstalled onto it because he needed Windows) and because Mint's source code is based on one of the major distros of Linux (Ubuntu), I thought that it would be just as good, and it turned out much better as my old machine never crashed once with it installed, compared to with Ubuntu installed.
In 9 hours, the Twitch community will try to install Arch Linux, apparently one of the hardest versions of Linux to install. I just thought I'd share it here for those who are interested in seeing the inevitable chaos that will ensue: