People say life is the greatest gift. Greatest gift in the universe. Life is fantastic. Well, except for when they forget to tell you how unfair, disgusting, and brutally fucking evil it is. Oh, I accidentally left that part out...sorry..
Life is awesome right? When things never go your way even though you try your best in it. When you just think you deserve something because you never fucked anyone over, and you never did anything horrid, but life just decides that you are nothing and essen
Ever hear of this term?
Being hurt in someway in the past or even present whether physical or mental, and you are not willing to "show" them, because that would distance yourself from your friends and "ruin" your life. It sticks with you forever no matter what. Talking about it would make you feel so good, but you not want to discuss it to friends or even family. Maybe they caused it, maybe you are too scared of their reaction to it. So you keep it bottled inside. The bruises won't heal, but
Before December of 2012, the time I stopped smoking, I used to have my brother go online and order cigarettes from over sea. Yeah, used to order the cigarettes I smoked when I was in Russia. Беломорканал. Possibly the strongest cigarette in the world. No filter. Western people would probably find it strange. Looks a lot different from the cigarettes I find here in America. I am rather glad I stopped smoking though. Was going to kill me eventually. If I am lucky, smoking might have taken several
Another game review...well....game not really out yet. So no review, but I just want to talk about it. My brother keeps mentioning it too. Every time we talk he always bring this game up. I was never into video games, or anything like that really, but recently I have been trying to play them since my brother is forcing me. They are pretty fun! I not understand how they work, or how to do much, but is fun.
Now, GTA V. This game looks, well, amazing. Unlike any others in the GTA series (Which
Is hard to give up old habits you have been doing for years. First time I had a smoke was when I was eighteen. First time I drank I was sixteen. Smoking was not as prevalent as the drinking at all though. I rarely smoked. Buy a pack of Беломорканал cigarettes, and the pack would last me weeks. Is a Soviet, and post Soviet brand of cigarette. Had no filter. Strong cigarette. My father used to smoke them. My choice of drink was Vodka. Stereotypical, yes, but I also had American whiskey too.
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The tyrannical King Bróen I of Skotland is refusing his vassals to vote on elective succession! My kinsman Steward Ábiǫrn was executed by the king just several moons ago for his act of revolt. I fear I may be next to be unrightfully slain by this tyrant, and I beseech thee for aid. I hold several allies, yet I believe the tyrant king may silence us by completely destroying the holdings of myself and my allies. Bróen's reign of Irland and Skotland has been for too long, and his tyrannical disposi
Is gone. In the world of today, there is no such thing.
The idea of the "green light" is mainly from The Great Gatsby (My second favorite piece of literature of all time.) Jay would looked off of his dock, staring at the green light that shined so brightly at Daisy and Tom's dock. Reaching for it. Desiring it. It represented Gatsby’s hopes and dreams for the future, was the guiding light to lead him to his goal. Daisy. The unattainable dream of being with the woman he loved more than anythin
I enjoy music. Seems like I enjoy music made in America a lot more than in Russia sometimes
But, I usually like oldies more than anything. 1700s up to the 1950s. Yet, I find some songs from now I enjoy. For some reason I like love songs. I thinks is because of my wife. She loved American love songs, and she even knew a little English. In particular, I like these songs too. I cried when I heard them. Yeah, I a little emotional I guess.
They are both from The Great Gatsby, which
I hate liars. I fucking hate liars. I hate people who deliberately lie to my face, even when they know I caught them in a lie. People who I talk to daily, and they look at me in the eyes and lie. I apologize for the language, since I rarely use such harsh words, but I really despise liars. I lied in my life of course. I was involved in criminal things when I was a little younger, but that was different. I lied for different reasons.
I hate when people that I know and talk to all the time lie
Sadly it is not a blog about Games, or feelings or my opinions on this or that. This is just a song I happen to really enjoy, and would like to just hear it again.
Bedouin Soundclash - No One Moves, No One Gets Hurt
In my opinion of the song, I say it is describing the moment right after a tragic event and all the emotions that pass through your head in that one moment and you try and realize what is happening. In that moment you want everything to just stop. Want no one to
I am not one for favoritism...I love all my friends equally! Like how I love all of you on here! It might be the Internet (which I am still not used to using ) but I not care.
I love all my friends, but five standout for me in general.
My brother Roman : He is related to me, but I do intensely love my brother as a great friend. He is a caring man, and though he acts immature sometimes I still know he has a good heart. He is always here for me, and I will always be here for him. I reall
I finished reading the book "Into the Wild" by Jon Krakauer, and I'm really touched. Chris McCandless was just a amazing man. I saw the movie before I read the book sadly, but I cried after watching the movie and reading the book. His views on the world might be considered crazy by some, but I completely agree with him. We're so materialistic and so fucking rude to each other. Humans are so cruel sometimes.
I'm happy I live in Alaska. I visited the place where he passed away back in 1992. I
I'm happy, and I know I feel happy and I'm loving my life. Yet I miss the past. I can't cope with loss and I can't seem to stay happy. I always revert to sadness and anger towards myself. I seem to push people away very often, and I feel so awful when I do it.
I'm doing better now though. Seeing someone to help me and my brother and one true friend are very kind to stick by me and help me. Depression has run in my family for a while. My father had it, my great grandfather had it, and my moth
Normally I really, really hate asking for things. I don't like it because I feel like I'm being extremely obtrusive
Feel like I'm not worth any one's time...so..to shorten my ranting...I dislike asking for things.
Now, if any artist's...or anyone really...are reading this...could you maybe make something for me? Hate saying it because I feel like I'm making someone do work for nothing in return except my eternal gratitude, and I feel like that's not enough...
But if you're willing to
Now, I love space. I love it as much as I love history. Is up there among my list of loved things. All being my wife, history, my brother, Эмма, and my friends. Enough about my life, I'll talk about that later. This...this is time for my review of a fantastic simulator. Created by a Russian man too! Vladimir Romanyuk. Sounds familiar to me, but I highly doubt I know this man
Well back to the review. Space Engine isn't really a game, but is a simulator. A extremely fun simulator in which yo
I am doing game reviews? The inept at technology, traditional living, Soviet man? Answer: Yes, yes I am.
I recently saw a game being played on the youtube. I don't normally go on there, but my friend was showing me videos and he let me look around at other videos. I saw a trailer of this game called "Papers, Please" and it looked really interesting. A game about being an immigrant inspector at the border of a dystopian country. Obvious a reference to the USSR...where I was born
Thi
I'm 90% positive that I'm going to be leaving America soon. Preferably a vacation for a week or two at first, but I might stay in Europe if I am really dedicated to it. I really, really want to go back to Europe. A vacation in France, Germany, or maybe Italy and then back to Russia, but not my hometown or my home city.
I don't know exactly when I'll be leaving, but I definitely want to this year. Hopefully near my birthday in November I want to leave. Bring my brother and my close friend (I
Been a long time in my life since an engagement happened, and of course I mean the romantic one
One of my good friends recently got engaged to a woman he's been dating for about four years. I'm extremely happy for him. Is funny how at least more than half of my friends have someone in their lives. Can't mope about myself though, because that's extremely selfish.
I'm just really happy for my friend, and my other friends who are married. Only people who aren't married or engaged yet are m
