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Thoughts on suicide.


Sky

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Whats the point of living if we die anyway? Living life is a pain. Wouldn't it be easier just to end it all right here, right now? Today I feel like I am split between killing myself and living. The only reason I carry on living is that I believe that maybe life will get better. But it never does. I feel like it would be easier for me to just end my life. It would stop the constant physical pains of moving and it would stop the constant emotional pains of peoples heartlessness. I know that suicide is selfish but so is living. Right now I am using resources that someone else deserves. I don't deserve a single thing I own at the moment. I haven't done anything for anyone in my entire life. To be honest usually i just make things worst. I guess the only reason I am still living right now is one, I am to scared to kill myself and two, I still have that little thread of hope left in me.

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Suicide is NOT an option... no matter what.

 

I agree, and WE CAN'T STRESS THIS ENOUGH. DO NOT EVEN THINK about it. Seriously, things will just get worse if you think about it. Life is boring sometimes. Your probably wondering "how do you know this? You probably just a young teen." . I know because it just does. Depression. That's kinda what your going through, huh? Feel free to PM me if you need to talk to someone, I'm a pretty good listener, and I'm good at problem solving.

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Like what other people have said here in the past, note that you have a life ahead of you. Being a teenager isn't easy one bit, but once you past that stage, you look back and realize what you've gone and what potential you have. I'm ten years older than you, and I know that there's a good life ahead for me. The same goes for you. Think about your potential for a great career and go for it. You can't give that up.

 

Also, what about your family and friends? They love you and will feel devastated and guilty if you kill yourself. If you ever follow through, you're going to put your family into a lot of pain, and it's not worth it. They want you to do the best you can.

 

If you ever have these feelings, talk to those who understand it. If you haven't opened yourself up to your parents about it, do so, because this network is important. And if you can, find a great counselor or a doctor who can treat your depression.

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Look. I am sick of life. Sick of living. Sick of everything and anything I am cursed to see. I want it over, I want it done. But I cannot bring myself to kill myself, because everything I've every been taught in my life has been revolving around "suicide is wrong." I gave up on hope, I gave up on life in general. There's no better days coming my way, and chances are there never will be.

 

I won't bring myself to end my own life...So I'm counting down the days until something unfortunate happens to me due to others. A shooting, a bus hitting me, ill-prescribed dosage, you name it; I hope to die from it.

 

Although I can't help but wonder what people would think...If I were to suddenly go away...the handful of people that would actually notice...would they remember me after a week?

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Look. I am sick of life. Sick of living. Sick of everything and anything I am cursed to see. I want it over, I want it done. But I cannot bring myself to kill myself, because everything I've every been taught in my life has been revolving around "suicide is wrong." I gave up on hope, I gave up on life in general. There's no better days coming my way, and chances are there never will be.

 

I won't bring myself to end my own life...So I'm counting down the days until something unfortunate happens to me due to others. A shooting, a bus hitting me, ill-prescribed dosage, you name it; I hope to die from it.

 

Although I can't help but wonder what people would think...If I were to suddenly go away...the handful of people that would actually notice...would they remember me after a week?

 

The answer is yes, they would. They WOULD remember you, as you were a part of their life. You're family and friends would be devastated.

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The only reason to not commit suicide is because you can still have things like ice cream or happiness in the physical realm. The only reason to live is because there is nothing better to do. After you die you'll just transfer to the astral dimension where it will be just as pointless as the physical realm. Except in the Astral dimension, they don't have physical pleasures. So the point is to enjoy the pleasing aspects of this life as it stands. Yeah, I came to the same realization that you did, but the thing is that you would only hurt people that love you if you die. It's greedy to die, which might sound strange but it's true. I'd like to die, but my duty prevents it.

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but why there are so many depressive kids on this forums, we are supposed to be a joyfull happy fandom :(

Sky, you know I really like you, but I do not understand why you are so depressed, ok, your condition is a HUGE reason. But what else, reading from your life advice threads, you seem to have a nice family and good RL friends, then why? If you wanna talk, I'm here ok?

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Look. I am sick of life. Sick of living. Sick of everything and anything I am cursed to see. I want it over, I want it done. But I cannot bring myself to kill myself, because everything I've every been taught in my life has been revolving around "suicide is wrong." I gave up on hope, I gave up on life in general. There's no better days coming my way, and chances are there never will be.

 

I won't bring myself to end my own life...So I'm counting down the days until something unfortunate happens to me due to others. A shooting, a bus hitting me, ill-prescribed dosage, you name it; I hope to die from it.

 

Although I can't help but wonder what people would think...If I were to suddenly go away...the handful of people that would actually notice...would they remember me after a week?

 

Come hang with me!!! I'll cheer you right up :)

 

Oh and btw, about 1,000,000 people on this forum love you. If you take your life, i dont know what i'll do.... I would die missing another smiling face on these forums....

 

Keep your head high!!! <3

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but why there are so many depressive kids on this forums, we are supposed to be a joyfull happy fandom :(

Sky, you know I really like you, but I do not understand why you are so depressed, ok, your condition is a HUGE reason. But what else, reading from your life advice threads, you seem to have a nice family and good RL friends, then why? If you wanna talk, I'm here ok?

I am depressed because people keep calling me names like "retard hands" and other such ignorant names. I get beaten up by people on a daily basis. People make up rumors about me (Last week someone made up a rumor of me saying I wished their mum had cancer. Now my mother is still recovering from bladder cancer, so I would never, ever do that. But now that rumor is out there people keep calling me a disgusting excuse for a human being and push my head into lockers.) I know that I'm not going to kill myself but I just wish I could ease the pain and I know that by having that slight want to kill myself makes me extremely selfish but In the end I guess I am a rather selfish person.

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I am depressed because people keep calling me names like "retard hands" and other such ignorant names. I get beaten up by people on a daily basis. People make up rumors about me (Last week someone made up a rumor of me saying I wished their mum had cancer. Now my mother is still recovering from bladder cancer, so I would never, ever do that. But now that rumor is out there people keep calling me a disgusting excuse for a human being and push my head into lockers.) I know that I'm not going to kill myself but I just wish I could ease the pain and I know that by having that slight want to kill myself makes me extremely selfish but In the end I guess I am a rather selfish person.

ok I know that that's really tough, but if you take a look, all of these things are things that happens when you are in school, all these problems you have are related to school, so everything may look dark now, but once you'll get out of there things get different, because adults don't behave like idiots (these kids)

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ok I know that that's really tough, but if you take a look, all of these things are things that happens when you are in school, all these problems you have are related to school, so everything may look dark now, but once you'll get out of there things get different, because adults don't behave like idiots (these kids)

Not every single thing I said stays inside school. People still beat me up outside of school, People still like to laugh at me because my knee sometimes locks up so I need to limp and this is by random people in the street. Yesterday I almost got stabbed by a deadbeat weed addict that was threatening one of the people that bully me everyday, I might have saved that bullys life but that still hasn't stopped him from making my life difficult. And I know things will get better as days go by and I get out of school but I might not even reach that time and even if I do I'll have less than 10 years to live.

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Not every single thing I said stays inside school. People still beat me up outside of school, People still like to laugh at me because my knee sometimes locks up so I need to limp and this is by random people in the street. Yesterday I almost got stabbed by a deadbeat weed addict that was threatening one of the people that bully me everyday, I might have saved that bullys life but that still hasn't stopped him from making my life difficult. And I know things will get better as days go by and I get out of school but I might not even reach that time and even if I do I'll have less than 10 years to live.

fuck your illness, don't pay attention to it, I recall you saying that you are not afraid to leave this world.

act like that, act like you don't give a damn. Forget about that. I want to say more but I'm really tired I need some sleep

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There is plenty of time left in your life for something awesome to happen to you. You need to find that speck of light within the darkness,and then let it shine and push the darkness away. And enjoy life anyway you can. Plus, you really go to a counselor or somebody. They provide more help than I can. :l :):D

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Hey comrade, I understand exactly how you feel.

 

I wanted to kill myself for nearly Five years. I had to deal with the worst depression I've ever felt in my life after my wife passed away. I tried committing suicide numerous times. Some were almost successful.

 

I did, awful thing to myself and to others. Stuff that I would rather not have to say until I think the time is right for it. Trust me though, thinking like this is not a good path to go down.

 

You need to stay optimistic in life, you need to remain strong and face whatever life throws at you. Imagine holding the person you love the most in your whole entire life in your arms as he/she slowly bleeds out.

 

My wife was murdered, I held her hand as she died. I felt the pressure of her grip release, I heard her speak the last words she ever spoke to me before she closed her eyes and went cold.

 

Even typing this now makes me tear up. It was, unimaginable pain.

 

Instead of seeking help, I became depressed and destructive. If I could change time I would have never done the things I did.

 

Even though it still haunts me to this day, I have come to terms with the passing of my wife. It has made me a better person, even though I wish it had never happened.

 

Don't think like this. Life is wonderful, it has its ups and downs though and when you come to face an obstacle (even if you think that obstacle is impossible to face) you must face it and overcome it.

 

Try and remain strong comrade. No matter how bad you think life gets, you must stick with it. I love you man, and I'll be here for you.

 

 

 

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Look. I am sick of life. Sick of living. Sick of everything and anything I am cursed to see. I want it over, I want it done. But I cannot bring myself to kill myself, because everything I've every been taught in my life has been revolving around "suicide is wrong." I gave up on hope, I gave up on life in general. There's no better days coming my way, and chances are there never will be.

 

I won't bring myself to end my own life...So I'm counting down the days until something unfortunate happens to me due to others. A shooting, a bus hitting me, ill-prescribed dosage, you name it; I hope to die from it.

 

Although I can't help but wonder what people would think...If I were to suddenly go away...the handful of people that would actually notice...would they remember me after a week?

 

 

I'd remember and be so hurt. You know we love you, talk to me anytime okay :) ?

 

but why there are so many depressive kids on this forums, we are supposed to be a joyfull happy fandom :(

 

Quite the opposite actually.

People who suffer trauma in their childhood (as grow-up into depressed teens) are drawn to things that remind them of their happy childhood.

And escape to a 'happy fantasy' world because RL is so hard.

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Quite the opposite actually. People who suffer trauma in their childhood (as grow-up into depressed teens) are drawn to things that remind them of their happy childhood. And escape to a 'happy fantasy' world because RL is so hard.

and that's why I said "supposed" if the show teaches us (actually things that we already know) possitive values about friendship.

But I get ya point, they seek for this show as an escape from the RL, which is sad :(

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