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Experiencing Some Serious Loneliness

Misty Rose

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Hey guys...as much as I try to maintain a positive attitude when I'm on here or elsewhere, I haven't been doing too well lately :( As much as I enjoy talking to friends here or on Skype, there's this overwhelming loneliness that takes hold of me alot.

 

The thing is, while I appreciate and enjoy having people talk to me on Skype so I'll at least have someone to talk to...the physical loneliness that I feel is unbearable. My grandma gets mad that I ignore her and I don't talk to her alot, but how can I talk with my greatest enemy in life? I don't get along with her, most of the time when we do talk we're fighting. I can't live like this :( I miss the days when I went to school and I had my friends to hang out with and talk to, and then when I got home I could talk to my mom and tell her about my day and spend time with her :(

 

When my mom got a job that kept her away from home for most of the day, during summer it was pretty difficult. As much as I enjoyed having freedom in our apartment, and being on my computer longer than usual, playing games and watching movies, I missed having her around. Even when we fought and I couldn't wait for her to leave, eventually I missed having her presence around. The thing is, me and my mom always managed to make up and be happy again no matter how many times we fought. No matter how severe she treated me at times, she still loved me and apologized. We could go back to our normal lives by the time night fell. I have that freedom I wished for alot back then, except now I can't wait for my mom to come home because she never will....

 

I'm the kind of person who can't hold a grudge. I can be extremely mad at you if you drive me to such a point which is pretty difficult, but then after a few hours or after I've listened to music or watched a video to calm myself down and think, I'm back to my cheerful self. Me and my mom were both like that and that's why we made up so easily. However I do that with my grandma here after we fight and just come up to her and ask what's for dinner, or say something else in a semi cheerful voice, and she just doesn't talk to me. She stays angrier for longer than I do and it's tough to live with that sort of person :(

 

Since I can't get along with her and just live in peace, and I also don't get along with my cousins that much since they're always doing their own thing in their rooms, I feel this unbearable loneliness almost daily. Some days it's not too bad, but then there are days when I'm not absorbed in making something on my laptop, when I'm not talking to anyone and just trying to figure out what to do with my life when it gets worse. Heck, sometimes when I'm talking to friends on Skype or when I'm chatting with my boyfriend, I feel this loneliness that I just can't shake off.

 

As much as I enjoy having friends here in this digital realm, it's not the same as having someone right beside you that you can talk to while you work. Someone to physically give you a hug when you need it. I love virtual hugs, but what I wouldn't give to have one of my mom's warm hugs again...

 

Tomorrow is my mom's birthday and it's gonna be a pretty sad day for me for the most part. She would have been 45....and we would still be enjoying each other's company if her fight with cancer hadn't brought her to the brink :( :( :( So thank you to all of my friends who have stood by me and given me support when I need it. But if I'm still feeling sad after we've talked for awhile, please don't feel bad. It's not your fault, it's mine :( You guys have friends you can hang out with at school or after, I don't. I need physical interaction with people or I'm gonna go insane :(:angry:

 

*sigh* That's all I have to say. Sorry if this was so long, I had alot to let out :( Thanks for reading...

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*hugs*

 

For people, and you seem to be one, internet companionship just isn't enough.

 

I can't say I know what you are going through, as I never have been through it, nor would I feel the same (I often prefer to be alone).

 

I really don't know what I could suggest to help you, as I'm sure anything I can think of has already crossed your mind.

 

But regardless, we are here for you. It may not be enough, but it's better than nothing.

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You know, I was having this physical loneliness a few weeks ago, having moved to a new town and not really knowing many people. Seeing everyone around me have jobs, and are driving everywhere with a big circle of friends well I spent most of my time on the forums. I got over it because I shouldn't let other people's successes get the better of me. I would go over there and hang out but alas, I have no way of getting to El Salvador. All I have to say is, stay strong Pink Mist.

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We're all here for you don't worry ,plus your family should too

Along with god (depending on religion), celestia and luna, and again your family

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*hugs*

 

For people, and you seem to be one, internet companionship just isn't enough.

 

I can't say I know what you are going through, as I never have been through it, nor would I feel the same (I often prefer to be alone).

 

I really don't know what I could suggest to help you, as I'm sure anything I can think of has already crossed your mind.

 

But regardless, we are here for you. It may not be enough, but it's better than nothing.

 

It really isn't enough :( I prefer to be alone as well most of the time, but I don't want to be alone ALL the time ^_^

 

To be honest, nothing can really help me :( I have to put up with this for about two more months until school starts (if my family can get that sorted out >_>)

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It really isn't enough :( I prefer to be alone as well most of the time, but I don't want to be alone ALL the time ^_^

 

To be honest, nothing can really help me :( I have to put up with this for about two more months until school starts (if my family can get that sorted out >_>)

At least you have that to potentially look forward to.

 

Things WILL improve for you.

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You know, I was having this physical loneliness a few weeks ago, having moved to a new town and not really knowing many people. Seeing everyone around me have jobs, and are driving everywhere with a big circle of friends well I spent most of my time on the forums. I got over it because I shouldn't let other people's successes get the better of me. I would go over there and hang out but alas, I have no way of getting to El Salvador. All I have to say is, stay strong Pink Mist.

 

At least you have school where you can meet some new friends pretty quickly ^_^ And trust me even if you could come down here, we wouldn't be able to hang out. Just a sad fact :(

 

Thanks alot, and I'm trying to stay strong as much as I can but it's very hard :( This is killing me...

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We're all here for you don't worry ,plus your family should too

Along with god (depending on religion), celestia and luna, and again your family

 

 

My family doesn't care :(

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At least you have that to potentially look forward to.

 

Things WILL improve for you.

 

I'm not sure if they will. My family's having some trouble getting the whole school situation figured out so I might not even go. I don't know what the heck will happen :(

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I'm not sure if they will. My family's having some trouble getting the whole school situation figured out so I might not even go. I don't know what the heck will happen :(

However bad things get, however low you feel, never lose hope. Hope keeps you going in the darkest of times.

 

Things will improve. When or how I don't know, but they WILL improve.

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However bad things get, however low you feel, never lose hope. Hope keeps you going in the darkest of times.

 

Things will improve. When or how I don't know, but they WILL improve.

 

I don't want to lose hope I really don't :( :( :(

 

I hope so -_-

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Loneliness is quite normal. It sometimes happens slowly, or it can happen quite suddenly. It just goes away eventually. There is no need to worry. That only makes the loneliness worse.

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Loneliness is quite normal. It sometimes happens slowly, or it can happen quite suddenly. It just goes away eventually. There is no need to worry. That only makes the loneliness worse.

 

How can it go away when I have no one to talk to? That just makes it worse :(

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I feel the physical loneliness that you do too. Only people that I have around me most of the time is sister and father and this is not including school.

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How can it go away when I have no one to talk to? That just makes it worse :(

Also, It's kind of hard for me to make and keep friends out of school that go to my school.

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Also, It's kind of hard for me to make and keep friends out of school that go to my school.

 

At least I'm not alone :( And my mom didn't let me talk to friends outside of school so that just made me feel extra lonely when she wasn't around ^_^ 

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Loneliness is quite normal. It sometimes happens slowly, or it can happen quite suddenly. It just goes away eventually. There is no need to worry. That only makes the loneliness worse.

Yeah but loneliness can linger on for a long time. Its not the easiest thing to get over.

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