Mark's Blog

Bro. I know you probably dont want my sympathy, but you've earned it. I'm so sorry people are like this, and nopony wants you dead. if you died people would care. Just talk to somepony and try to get through it. *hugs* dont give up man.

Everypony cares.

I don't like EVERYONE, either, but there's a healthier way to deal with it than posting about it on a forum. I would seek actual, honest advice from a professional, because as much as people say "everything will be all right", I think you know better.

There is no limit to the ugly side of human life. Many great men have observed this and chosen to condemn humanity for it, to make bitterness and conetempt their companions. I side with the men who say that it simply is what it is, a complex existence with limitless possibilities, good or bad. 

 

And according to the latter, the key to peace of mind is knowing what is real and what is an illusion. The dark side of humanity is real. The notion that it must affect us, the people with no control over it, is an illusion. The way people treat you is real. The power it holds over you is not. (If everyone decided the people treating them badly were worthless and forgot about them tomorrow or just stayed as far away as they possibly could from them, they wouldn't lose very much.) We're programmed to react based on how we're treated, but because of this, we live under the illusion that we always have to do so, when in fact we have the power to cut ourselves off from it and seek out better treatment, one step at a time. 

 

If you agree with this at all, I hope you can begin looking for more positive environments to draw from. Your friends who commented before me seem like a good start.